depression

Horasio

feelinggood wrote:

I don't know.
I managed to wake up, but couldn't make that call.
I was just thinking about what OH has said, about how I'm desperate to have something wrong with me, and that I just want the attention.

Do you think it is true? I'm not siding against you btw.

You say you had to grow up fast, who is looking after you?

I would go to the doctor to confirm whether you need treatment or simply need someone to talk to or be around the right people who bring out the best in you.

Families in my opinion are not the best people for that.

My mother makes me feel stupid. She has a very strong and charismatic personality. When I am lively in front of her, she takes me to one side and tells me to calm down. If I don't speak, she bullies me and ridicules me.

My dad did nothing to stand up to her. Her new husband is the same. My husband could never get through to her and he wasn't terribly helpful. My son is totally selfish.

My husband isn't good at standing up to people. He got threatened when he complained about the party, so at least he tried but I feel very vulnerable. They threatened to do things to me as well, nothing has been done, so put it down to drunken rambling.

Sazbo

CCStar wrote:

I do. Felt more connected to my husband this weekend but last night felt a bit left out when they had a whisky drinking session and I wasn't in the mood to drink. Kept ignoring me when I spoke etc. Takes me right back to school, and feeling excluded and abandoned. I feel I am going to get that this weekend but don't want to not go and stay here. It is hell here at the weekend.

Sorry I am going on about how I feel and not responding to others - I feel very worn down/running on empty but sending big hugs to whoever needs it.

Morning CCStar. Don't apologise for how you're feeling hun. We are all help each other here, that's the nice thing about it I think. Just glad that you post so we know you're ok. Otherwise Tiffy would worry and we don't want that

FG please do try and make that appointment tomorrow. You really need to start putting yourself first, as does CCStar. Sometimes I wish I could knock the heads of both your OHs together Take care x

Hi everyone else in the gang. Hope you're all doing ok today. Love Saz x

feelinggood_2

I need lots of postive vibes today guys - think of me!!

Sazbo

feelinggood wrote:

I need lots of postive vibes today guys - think of me!!

[STRIKE]Double[/STRIKE] Triple dose of positive vibes coming right your way feeling x

Horasio

Sazbo wrote:

[STRIKE]Double[/STRIKE] Triple dose of positive vibes coming right your way feeling x

Same from here too:)

Miroslav

No text from 'S' thanking me for making the effort to return her belly piercing. The girl's gratitude knows no bounds..........well she is grateful about some things, but this is obviously not one of them :rotfl:

Flatmate says she may be really into me and is finding it really hard to be around me. I responded my saying, she is finding it hard around me, but that's because she doesn't want to know me like she did at first :rolleyes:

I relaxed so much more last night, yet 'S' was still on my mind and I know next time I see her, it will be tough, because she never tells the truth on how she's feeling, and I don't want to hear any more stories about her 'great' life, because the 'facts' change every time she tells them.

It's darn hard, because her listening skills are terrible, she doesn't understand most of my humour, whereas everyone else does (last night, people were in fits at what I was saying), she's not the sharpest tool in the box, she talks about herself over exaggeratingly all the time, she thinks guys will only like her for sex, she thinks I'm being nice because I want something, she expects me to be fun fun fun, when sometimes I don't want to be, she puts all my fears down to 'tiredness'

She's either really ignorant, self obsessed, messed up, in love with me or........all of them, apart from the last one.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! The first time we went out, it was soooooooooooo good! What's gone wrong..........too much too soon that Thursday was, I think. If it was crap, the expectations would be lower, she told me I was good looking, nice, the funniest guy she had ever met, kind, caring, sexually interested........now she's like a trout with piles

This is why I don't do friendships!!!!

Rant Over, goes to get cup of tea...............

:wall:

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

No text from 'S' thanking me for making the effort to return her belly piercing. The girl's gratitude knows no bounds..........well she is grateful about some things, but this is obviously not one of them :rotfl:

Flatmate says she may be really into me and is finding it really hard to be around me. I responded my saying, she is finding it hard around me, but that's because she doesn't want to know me like she did at first :rolleyes:

I relaxed so much more last night, yet 'S' was still on my mind and I know next time I see her, it will be tough, because she never tells the truth on how she's feeling, and I don't want to hear any more stories about her 'great' life, because the 'facts' change every time she tells them.

It's darn hard, because her listening skills are terrible, she doesn't understand most of my humour, whereas everyone else does (last night, people were in fits at what I was saying), she's not the sharpest tool in the box, she talks about herself over exaggeratingly all the time, she thinks guys will only like her for sex, she thinks I'm being nice because I want something, she expects me to be fun fun fun, when sometimes I don't want to be, she puts all my fears down to 'tiredness'

She's either really ignorant, self obsessed, messed up, in love with me or........all of them, apart from the last one.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! The first time we went out, it was soooooooooooo good! What's gone wrong..........too much too soon that Thursday was, I think. If it was crap, the expectations would be lower, she told me I was good looking, nice, the funniest guy she had ever met, kind, caring, sexually interested........now she's like a trout with piles

This is why I don't do friendships!!!!

Rant Over, goes to get cup of tea...............

:wall:

Milk no sugar, Miro ta There's often a lot of negotiation with friendships, sometimes more than others admittedly. Plus side to last night was you had a good time around people who enjoyed your company, so hopefully that will boost your own confidence. By the way - when is your CD going to be in the shops? x

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Milk no sugar, Miro ta There's often a lot of negotiation with friendships, sometimes more than others admittedly. Plus side to last night was you had a good time around people who enjoyed your company, so hopefully that will boost your own confidence. By the way - when is your CD going to be in the shops? x

Sweet enough eh?

This friendship is going to be very hard...........forget a romantic relationship, that would be impossible, although, when she ends up with some git, I will be distraught as she deserves better, and not sounding big headed, but someone like me, who genuinely cares about her. I think that confuses her, as she feels that someone who uses her is normal. I won't give up, I know i'm in for alot of hurt along the way, but I want this to work out, because I know she's a decent girl.

I enjoyed last night.........part 2 tonight Then 2 more in 2 weeks, followed the week after by the final recording etc.

CD will be in the shops.........erm............ready to battle for Xmas number 1

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Sweet enough eh?

This friendship is going to be very hard...........forget a romantic relationship, that would be impossible, although, when she ends up with some git, I will be distraught as she deserves better, and not sounding big headed, but someone like me, who genuinely cares about her. I think that confuses her, as she feels that someone who uses her is normal. I won't give up, I know i'm in for alot of hurt along the way, but I want this to work out, because I know she's a decent girl.

I enjoyed last night.........part 2 tonight Then 2 more in 2 weeks, followed the week after by the final recording etc.

CD will be in the shops.........erm............ready to battle for Xmas number 1

Well I've got my fingers crossed re S, for tonight's session, and for the xmas number one. (I'll be wanting an signed copy tho' ) You deserve a few breaks in life. Have you made plans to meet up again with 'S'?

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Well I've got my fingers crossed re S, for tonight's session, and for the xmas number one. (I'll be wanting an signed copy tho' ) You deserve a few breaks in life. Have you made plans to meet up again with 'S'?

Well, I want it all to go well, but 'S' is a massive thing for me, and I don't want either of us to hurt. I hope one day she opens up to me. What went wrong Sunday for me, was she didn't hug me to say hello or goodbye like she does. Had she done that, I would have relaxed instantly.

Tonight, should be fun again. Sadly, out of the 15 people, only about 4 of us, are non professionals, so our stuff stands out as amateurish, but the people are okay with it, and the 2 guys running it, are excellent.

We do get our song onto a CD. I can't sing, at least not in English, so will need someone to sing it, but i'm not concerned about doing it now. If I get lyrics and a tune sorted, I can get it recorded some time later, it will give me a goal to achieve, as I want the right person to sing it...............move over Stock Aitken & Waterman................Britney's new single, written by Miro is about to become the biggest selling single EVER!!!!

Flatmate & I are meeting 'S' on Saturday...........maybe. Going to the fair and firework display, but she usually spends her money quickly, so she may not be able to afford entrance and fair rides............I would offer to pay, but she gets narky if I do, so............. She still owes me £20 AND the next cup of tea in town is on her, so............maybe this is why she's putting me off :rotfl:

I always meet people, flatmate aside, who take advantage of my generosity, or are offended by it.

I wanna meet someone inbetween, can have a conversation, have some fun, be nice to me, let me be nice to them...........

Instead I have 'S' :rolleyes: As much as I love her, it's harder work than finding Britney something she hasn't got