depression

feelinggood_2

Morning guys, hope you are all good today.
I almost made that doctors appointment today, but wussed out.
Will try again tomorrow!

Horasio

Hello all

It is early for me. Didn't sleep till 5am, got woken by the wind at 9am.

Went into my son's room and had to turn the thermostat down, it was up at its max. He is hardly here and the cost is akin to what I see at Halloween:eek:

He really gets me down. His room and bathroom is a tip again. I tell him nicely but he sees me as some kind of pain and turns off. My husband tells him as male to male but he's not making much impression either. I would like my son to PO. He wont look for work and only goes to uni when he has to and wants to socialise all the time. I know he was heartbroken when he broke up with his girlfriend which lasted for 3.5 years but that was in June. He still needs to treat us well. No wonder the relationship ended.

So with the neighbours and our c*nty son, I find it hard to do anything. I feel I am trying to push a mountain. I would either like to live alone or just with my husband but that could be dodgy too.

He is going to clean his car later for the trip on Friday.

I come across other 18-19 year olds on my travels and get on with them brilliantly. I was married 2 years by the time my son was this age. Why is our son being such a painful c*nt?:(

Turned the mattress alone and changed the sheets, feel I have gone 10 rounds with Tyson but the bed feels great now.

Going to get the car later and stay out till the kids goto bed. I'm not feeling terribly friendly towards the kids next door this year and don't want to risk a trick being played on us. We haven't had anyone knock on our door in the two year we have been here.

EthelBloggs

Mornin peeps

CCStar... take hope from knowing that it wont last forever... sooner or later he'll go off n find a place of his own and you'll have peace at last.

Can sympathise with the wishing you lived alone feeling.. I have that a lot too but then when I am on my own I feel lost and seem to go on a big downer so I dunno whats up with me

Horasio

EthelBloggs wrote:

Mornin peeps

CCStar... take hope from knowing that it wont last forever... sooner or later he'll go off n find a place of his own and you'll have peace at last.

Can sympathise with the wishing you lived alone feeling.. I have that a lot too but then when I am on my own I feel lost and seem to go on a big downer so I dunno whats up with me

Thank you

He wants to leave but money stops him.

We are going to put the place up for sale in the new year and he will have to decide, as I will too.

I don't have other people's negative energies bringing me down when I am alone. I don't like living with people and love it when everyone is out. I can't concentrate when they are around. I have felt this since I was 17 but lack of money stopped me.

My son has had phases

Pregnancy, giving birth and baby time was fantastic - he slept well and was lovely to look after.

Toddler and young child - nightmare, very sweet but hyper and dreaded seeing the teachers at school. They were not helpful and very judgemental about us and him. I used to respect teachers (in general) but lost it when my son was at school. I had some great teachers when I was young.

10 - 15 - lovely, we got on, he was like having a best friend. He was grown up, did well at school and fun to be with.

16 plus - grumpy, boring, selfish, lazy and uncaring.

feelinggood_2

CCstar, its easier said than done, but you need to tell your son what you exepct from him.
Tell him to either shape up or ship out - and if your husband won't support you, tell him the same!

Horasio

feelinggood wrote:

CCstar, its easier said than done, but you need to tell your son what you exepct from him.
Tell him to either shape up or ship out - and if your husband won't support you, tell him the same!

I do. Felt more connected to my husband this weekend but last night felt a bit left out when they had a whisky drinking session and I wasn't in the mood to drink. Kept ignoring me when I spoke etc. Takes me right back to school, and feeling excluded and abandoned. I feel I am going to get that this weekend but don't want to not go and stay here. It is hell here at the weekend.

Sorry I am going on about how I feel and not responding to others - I feel very worn down/running on empty but sending big hugs to whoever needs it.

Horasio

feelinggood wrote:

Morning guys, hope you are all good today.
I almost made that doctors appointment today, but wussed out.
Will try again tomorrow!

What happened?

feelinggood_2

CCStar wrote:

I do. Felt more connected to my husband this weekend but last night felt a bit left out when they had a whisky drinking session and I wasn't in the mood to drink. Kept ignoring me when I spoke etc. Takes me right back to school, and feeling excluded and abandoned. I feel I am going to get that this weekend but don't want to not go and stay here. It is hell here at the weekend.

Sorry I am going on about how I feel and not responding to others - I feel very worn down/running on empty but sending big hugs to whoever needs it.

Being ignored is something that I don't deal with well - I can't cope with that. I was bullied at school, never fitted in. Thats why I left at the first chance I could. I think that was a factor in my growing up too quick - my Dad was 'otherwise engaged' for a year in 1999, and my mum had to go back to work full time. I took over the house work and cooking, and stayed home from school most days. Was a stressful time, not least cos I was dealing with the emotions of the rape. Maybe if I'd been happier at school, I could have been a kid a bit longer?

I'm off to the pub on Thursday. If I'm just me, I'll be ignored. So I'll have to drink to make meself more bubbly and talkative

Hope you manage to have a rest today- good idea about going out this evening.

feelinggood_2

CCStar wrote:

What happened?

I don't know.
I managed to wake up, but couldn't make that call.
I was just thinking about what OH has said, about how I'm desperate to have something wrong with me, and that I just want the attention.

feelinggood_2

CCstar, I really really need to talk to you if you are there still!