depression

Tiff_2

Hi Guys,
I couldn't help but reply to gingin's post in particular. Gingin, I really feel for you and I'm thinking of you. It does sound like part of the grieving process to me & the nightmares will pass angel. On top of every other trauma (7 of them!), my dad died in December & we buried him on 20th December which was hard not just because of Christmas but because 25th December is my birthday. I'm still crying and it still hurts but my nightmares are retuning to their 'normal' pattern.
You've had a huge shock angel so just be kind to yourself and concentrate on getting through the hours and minutes and not days for now. It's so natural to feel what you're feeling. I'll keep in touch with this site - I'm sure everyone of us is giving you a group hug. Wishing I could do more angel but you're not alone and with all you described, you're a survivor gingin.
Warmest Regards,
Tiff x

mrsw

I just want to say thanks to everyone who has posted on this thread. I have no personal experience of depression, but my mother had a breakdown about 6 years ago and was hospitalised at our request. She slowly got better, but now seems to be on a downward slope again. I must confess that even after all these years, I have found it hard to understand her illness, so reading other people's experiences makes me realise that a lot of what she is going through is quite common.

I also agree that having a good CPN can make the world of difference. The nurse assigned to my mother was brilliant with her, but sadly he retired, and she refused to see anyone else afterwards.

Dora_the_Explorer_5

I have had a couple of bouts of counselling, but they didn't help much. It did help me a lot when one counsellor said - you are not mad just reacting to life events.

What a wise counsellor. Often how we deal with things is a normal reaction to an abnormal event. An example would be the people involved in the 7 July bombings feeling depressed and anxious. Best wishes to everyone.

gingin_2

Tiff wrote:

Hi Guys,
I couldn't help but reply to gingin's post in particular. Gingin, I really feel for you and I'm thinking of you. It does sound like part of the grieving process to me & the nightmares will pass angel. On top of every other trauma (7 of them!), my dad died in December & we buried him on 20th December which was hard not just because of Christmas but because 25th December is my birthday. I'm still crying and it still hurts but my nightmares are retuning to their 'normal' pattern.
You've had a huge shock angel so just be kind to yourself and concentrate on getting through the hours and minutes and not days for now. It's so natural to feel what you're feeling. I'll keep in touch with this site - I'm sure everyone of us is giving you a group hug. Wishing I could do more angel but you're not alone and with all you described, you're a survivor gingin.
Warmest Regards,
Tiff x

Thanks Tiff,

Sorry to hear of your troubles.

I've actually dealt with my Grandad dying well, but I have a really awful habit of internalising things so I think it is just my subconcious telling me to perhaps "let it out" a bit more which on Prozac makes things difficult!

Saying I'm a survivor is a lovely thing to hear and although it doesn't sound very modest I agree with you. I got over something that I never thought I would. It occupied every waking hour for almost 15 years (and I'm still relatively young!) and it feels very empowering to have been able to stop it. I honestly believe it has made me so much more of a stronger person than had it not been a part of my life.

Thanks once again

minxmiss

Oh where do I start, and I apologise in advance if this turns out to be a long rambling post.

I have suffered depression since I was 15ish, and it has been a battle every single day with it. Even now I can feel the tears welling. It is a hard thing to live with, and I wouldn't wish it on my worse enemy.

I have been on and off anti d's for most of my life. I have the kind of depression with a chemical imbalance, but outside factors do contribute to it too, such as me losing my grandfather earlier this year.

When I am low, I am so so low and just cannot do anything. Even looking after my children can be very hard and I feel so bad that they have to see their mother in such a state all the time.

I also have an accute paranoia which goes with my depression and it can really spiral out of control. I have lost friends due to this and recently a very close friend due to the fact that they seem to not understand how a depressed person works. They don't seem to be able to grasp that yes I am having mood swings, but it isn't me, it is actually what is going on in my head that is doing this.

I did a silly thing just over a month ago and took myself off my fluoxetine. I felt so so much better and I was really getting on with things, but I then started the dreaded mood swings. Since then I have nearly gone through with finishing myself off 3 times, and am really near enough rock bottom at the moment. I am thinking I will have to go back on the fluoxetine again.

I have also developed a drink problem with this as I now have to drink everyday, altho I am trying to stop that as it is doing me no good. I smoke constantly throughout the day and barely eat. I am losing weight rapidly and have a general non interest in life.

I am lucky that I have a very understanding partner who helps me time and time again through it all. He even puts up with my paranoid thoughts about him as he understands me so much.

I think it is something I will have for life, but with my medication and the support I recieve from my family and friends I know that I will be ok. I know that they will do everything in their power to help me through my worst days and take me safely to the other side.

I want to wish everyone on here who suffers all my love as I know it can be such a physically draining illness, my thoughts are with you all xx

skyrocket

Has anyone tried sam-e for depression? My hubby found fluoxetine curbed his creativity (he is in a very creative job) and it killed his sex drive completely. So he came off it but to be honest he does need something. He tried st johns wort which works great but did nothing for him. I have heard about sam-e but I don't know if it's any good or anyone who has tried it. Ted? Anyone? Is it any good and what dosage should he take?
Sky xxx

Miroslav

I think I mentioned in a previous post, that I was going to ask about leaving my Psychotherapy group.

I have mentioned it, but they think I am not ready to move on, so I am sticking with it for now. I don't feel it helps, but then nothing does.

I hope everyone is feeling okay today

urban_spirit

Hi Slavvy :wave: and everyone

I've had a really really awful day today, very crushed and bruised.

Slavvy - are you happy staying with your group? Maybe if nothing helps, its not time yet-? Honestly not meant to upset you, just a question.

We all deal with things in out own time, but people can play the universal time card of how long they think you should take, when not going through it themselves.
How inconvenient of us to take longer :rolleyes2

Minxmiss - can I ask why you stopped taking your tabs??? If they help, it probably would be best to stay on them. Love and hugs to you too xx

Miroslav

urban_spirit wrote:

Hi Slavvy :wave: and everyone

I've had a really really awful day today, very crushed and bruised.

Slavvy - are you happy staying with your group? Maybe if nothing helps, its not time yet-? Honestly not meant to upset you, just a question.

We all deal with things in out own time, but people can play the universal time card of how long they think you should take, when not going through it themselves.
How inconvenient of us to take longer :rolleyes2

Minxmiss - can I ask why you stopped taking your tabs??? If they help, it probably would be best to stay on them. Love and hugs to you too xx

:wave:

Crushed and bruised? What have you been up too?

I'm not overly happy staying, but as you say maybe it's not time yet, although I been waiting so long, the time may never come.

Oh yes, the univeral card, of "you should be over it by now" See on the 'finding friends' thread, i've been accused of being a sulker

Hope you are having a better day today :T

minxmiss

urban_spirit wrote:

Hi Slavvy :wave: and everyone

I've had a really really awful day today, very crushed and bruised.

Slavvy - are you happy staying with your group? Maybe if nothing helps, its not time yet-? Honestly not meant to upset you, just a question.

We all deal with things in out own time, but people can play the universal time card of how long they think you should take, when not going through it themselves.
How inconvenient of us to take longer :rolleyes2

Minxmiss - can I ask why you stopped taking your tabs??? If they help, it probably would be best to stay on them. Love and hugs to you too xx

Thankyou xx

I came off them because I was doing absolutely fantastic, the best in years in fact. I was on such a high and even my partner could see how well I was doing off them. I then had my unfortunate turn of events and plunged straight down.

It's amazing how one thing can topple you so quick, and now I know that I can't of been ready to come off them and honestly don't think I ever will be if I can go like that so quick.