depression

Turning_into_scrooge

tankgirl1 wrote:

thanks for all your replys guys - its good to know im not the only one!!

if you havent experienced depression, i think its difficult to understand it. ive lost a relationship, and a job to it. my family all think its just a case of 'thinking positive, and pulling my socks up'.

it isnt though.

perhaps we could all help each other - i think posting on here, and knowing other people are going through the same thing really helps.

oh, and for what its worth- i havent been out today yet, and am still in my pj's

I'm really bad at the mo i have fibromyalgia and the 2 go hand in hand. I haven't been out of the house now for 3 days or got dressed. I just can't face going out. I also don't answer the door or the phone as i don't want to get into conversation with a friend, which is a bit selfish but i can't think straight at the mo and i have too much on my mind.

rubytuesday

Oh wishing you well. I also have fibromyalgia but feeling a lot better. Tried pacing which is helpful and forced myself to get up out and on. You will have better days xxx

Sugar_Coated_Owl

I've been on Paroxetine for nearly 2 weeks now. Tbh I've not felt any better by taking it. I mean I know that they aren't the happy pills that some people refer to them as but I did expect to feel a little better. Lately I've been getting awful headaches lasting a few days and also horrible dreams. I don't know if it's a side-effect of the medication, the depression itself or something completed unrelated.

I just can't be bothered with life. I just want to hide away and be left alone.

Tiff_2

Hi Guys,
I think that what this topic has shown is that there isn't a single recipe or time limit for a cure. We all want to be well now and we are all suffering a variety of different symptoms to different degrees in different circumstances so there isn't one answer. I admire you all for your sharing your experiences. :T You will, God willing, come across a regime that works for you. You have to be open-minded and it's very hard work. A CPN can be a great help - mine is fantastic as is my psychiatrist - but it's still hard work. We have to learn to control what we can't cure. Medication can help when you find the right drug, as can psychotherapy but just as we're all unique, so are our illnesses.
Whatever causes it, it is debilitating and I'm finding that the hardest thing to accept - I don't want to accept that I have bad depression!!! I want my normal life back - NOW!!!
I'm only part way through my fight against depression, anxiety, agoraphobia & Post Traumatic Stress and every day is hard. One thing I have learned after 9 years, is that it can happen to anyone, that I'm not alone and if there's one thing I can offer to this thread, it's that however well or badly we're doing it, we're survivors! That's amazing! Don't be pushed away by anyone - shout until they get you all the help you can. There are good resources out there and kind people too.
I'm not belittling what we're all going through - it's cruel and I still can't see the wood for the trees. Being kind to yourself can be a great weapon to have. If you can just grow a little bit of love for yourself, you'll never be alone - you'll always have yourself to turn to. And you have to hold on to that little spark of happiness when it happens because if you can feel it once, you can feel it again. This is what I'm tying to understand & work towards.
I'm sorry for the length of this & for not having the answers we all need. I'm sorry if it didn't sounds like I'm preaching - I'm not honestly - and I hope I haven't upset anyone.
I'm thinking of you all - good luck to all of us. :grouphug: xxx Tiff

urban_spirit

Turning_into_scrooge wrote:

I'm really bad at the mo i have fibromyalgia and the 2 go hand in hand. I haven't been out of the house now for 3 days or got dressed. I just can't face going out. I also don't answer the door or the phone as i don't want to get into conversation with a friend, which is a bit selfish but i can't think straight at the mo and i have too much on my mind.

I have ****** turningintoscrooge, I know how you feel-theyre similar conditions. Ironically, i'm not on long tonight cos i'm feeling very blue! I'm avoiding contact and........I dont really want to say any more about it other than I understand.

I took seroxat a few years ago after planning and escaping from my horrible partner. I found that they gave me such horrendous nightmares, and made the darker bits much darker, wanted to do damage - they were really awful. Not intending to scare anyone, simply passing on my experiences. Felt better when off them-GP wouldnt have it that it was the tabs. Recently been lots of info in the media linking these to....well, lots of very bad side effects lets put it like that.

There are other drugs on the market for anyone who chooses that route. You may have to try a couple to find one that agrees with you.

I feel a TOTAL FAILURE feeling like this. Nobody knows - I hide it all very well - but thats ironic as how do I get help when i'm ready if no-one knows? Silly person.

(I will probably wipe this post tomorrow-all this is a secret)

oldandhappy

I had the horrendous nightmares when on the Anti-D's and could not get through to the Doctor that it was the Drugs.I also had a lot of other horrid reactions but it was like talking to a brick wall. They do no suit some people ok but not me.There are alternatives like St.Johns Worts but I found you have to stick with them..You should not take both anti-d's and st.johns wort though at the same time. There is always a reason/cause why depression/anxiety hits you...finding the cause and answer is hard but boy when you get there and you will with determination for living...you will over the moon. I beat it now for 2 years......

gingin_2

oldandhappy wrote:

I had the horrendous nightmares when on the Anti-D's and could not get through to the Doctor that it was the Drugs.I also had a lot of other horrid reactions but it was like talking to a brick wall. They do no suit some people ok but not me.There are alternatives like St.Johns Worts but I found you have to stick with them..You should not take both anti-d's and st.johns wort though at the same time. There is always a reason/cause why depression/anxiety hits you...finding the cause and answer is hard but boy when you get there and you will with determination for living...you will over the moon. I beat it now for 2 years......

I take prozac and I have had 3 huge nightmares over the last 4 nights. My Grandad died of cancer on Thursday which obviously is going to part of the cause but these are so vivid and I wonder whether the prozac is not helping( 1st one was husband having multiple affairs! Second my Dad had skin cancer and last night my daughter was run over). I have been really pleased with the prozac as I said before but these nightmares are really traumatic and I hope they don't continue.

urban_spirit

So sorry to hear about your grandad gingin.

Had you taken prozac before these nightmares and were ok??? The nightmares sound like grieving ones, as they all had loss or potential loss to you and thats what youre going through right now.

When my mum died I had many dreams about losing my boyfriend, and I know this was me grieving.

If youve only just started taking them and are getting nightmares, they may be due to the tablets.

gingin_2

No, I have been taking them for a while now and whilst I do get nightmares from time to time I guess it probably is a grieving type thing, particularly as all my nightmares are about losing people close to me. It's just that they are so vivid that scares me and I hope they don't continue.

patchwork_cat

Hi
I have been on Prozac for 7 years +. It does give me nightmares and nightsweats periodically. Depression is an illness and a nightmare - so many people think that you are just lazy or indulging yourself. I do find that if I can make myself do things I do feel a bit better.

I would love to give up my medicine. I also have a condition called trimethylaminuria - only mildly though and read the other day that it may affect the way I metabolise anti depressants. I think that I am going to try to wean myself off the tablets slowly to see if I feel any worse . Every review I have with th eDr they ask me how are you do you want to start reducing the dose. I am so scared that they will decide to reduce my dose that my husband has to come with me to the Dr's.

It is liberating talking about my depression as if I talk to other people they judge me.

I have had a couple of bouts of counselling, but they didn't help much. It did help me a lot when one counsellor said - you are not mad just reacting to life events.

My depression came on after I lost 80+ % of my family in 5 years.