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little_h_2

thanks, believe me the cleaning is not normal service, which is why i spend so much time doing it in the holidays! :rotfl:

took AGES to get to sleep last night which doesn't bode well for tonight's early night and tomorrow's early start :mad: so i had best have a busy one today to tire myself out! i didn't do any shred yesterday as i had the tired in the bones feeling but feel better today and a bit more full of beans.

lots to do but this will be a good thing. got ex stuff on my mind and i am annoyed as this was meant to be a year for me! still, emotions are not rational things so i just have to go with it and do a bit of distraction and a bit of exercise to help me feel better about myself.

good news on the belly front - finally today i am feeling less bloated. ate fairly normally yesterday apart from the stupid amount of cupcakes i ate (made some for NYE but the icing texture turned out rubbish so couldn't take them to work and can't bear to throw them out so am working my way through them!)

i had a look at the c25k (couch to 5k running) website yesterday, been meaning to take a look for a while. my running attempts didn't last long in september, mainly because i changed my asthma inhalers and didn't feel very confident that they were controlling things as they should. they got better after a while but now i have gone back to the old ones which are working fine (the new one was an all in one that was meant to be cheaper)

this was meant to be a quick post, it has turned into a usual ramble! never mind. i am not one to use one word if ten will do but it's nice to have a little chat away to myself

have a lovely day everyone :j

Shoe_Gal

Enjoy the last day of you hols - I am back at work but struglging to get into it

little_h_2

awww Shoe Gal! poor you! hope you feel better about it soon

little_h_2

so, busy day, i am feeling pleased

TA DA list:

had breakfast (v healthy)
polished off remaining 2 cupcakes so i could wash the tin and put it away (less healthy but v tidy)
washed up all the little non dishwasher bits
cleaned bathroom
cleared wardrobe out for stuff for charity box at the tip - only a first go but has made me realise how many lovely things i have to wear
put recycling in box
went to tip and got rid of all the clinky glass from xmas :eek:
did 2 loads of washing
ironed while watching 3 men and a baby, a fab film
hoovered
tidied desk - feels more ship shape but a long way to go still!
did some harp practice

still to do - shred, and then a wee GnT before bed and hopefully a nice sleepy night so i can wake up refreshed tomorrow :rotfl:

i will have to save the painting until the weekend now, but that's ok - really it is a job best tackled with plenty of time as there are a few things to shift around first.

i am hoping to get some holiday booked asap so that i have my next break in mind to work towards - this was something my old boss used to do and i have been determined to do this every year for ages! my ex hubby gets married again in February so I would like to go away somewhere nice for that, however after the heating oil thing i am very stretched.

i had an email about playing in a concert on Good Friday in a very special local church which i am excited about - have emailed my teacher before i say yes as i am not sure how complex my part will be. hopefully it will be doable in time but it's only a small group so any mistakes will be quite obvious! :eek: i find i work best with something big to focus on so this could be just the thing.

Shoe_Gal

Fab day - well done you :j

Souk08

What she said little h. I've booked my summer holiday this month, just a cheapo Ryanair flight but it's booked and something to work towards savings wise. Tis a good idea.

little_h_2

i'm not sure what on earth to do tbh - can't really plan a summer holiday as I am hoping to work every weekend I can. i have a couple of weddings booked already and another enquiry today which is great things didn't quieten down until November last year (how funny it is to say that already!) so if I have sold my house by then I will look forward to something fabulous then!

my EA phoned today, my house will be featured in a local country life magazine in a couple of weeks plus the local paper. I have dropped the price by another £5k, but realistically can only drop another £10k now before it won't be worth my while.

i have been thinking lots about staying put again. who knows! i will throw it open to the universe I think!

had a busy day at work but surprised myself as i was quite looking forward to going in mostly as i wanted to see everyone, it's a nice office and we all have a good giggle

didn't get much sleep last night, was still tossing and turning at 1am so the alarm going off at 5.50 was not fun. but so far I have got through.

I have done my tea and am sat here chilling for a little bit before I do some practice at 8 o'clock. then I shall shred after that then off to bed I reckon!

last night was my first AF day in what feels like too long. I am on another one tonight. I don't drink too much, but have something of what I would call a Tony Blair drinking problem, where it's not masses, but it is regular and I was relying on it to relax. It worries me a little because of my reliance on it so I am trying to get back in control of it again, as in other areas of my life. Fingers crossed, baby steps all the way

I have already done so much this year, I really am thrilled.

spoke to my ex bf last night, we are officially on a month's no contact which he has finally accepted with some help from the counsellor we are seeing. we are going to keep going on our own, every other week (about all we can afford) and then I will call him on 31st Jan

I miss him terribly. I really did and do still love him but what happened has understandably had a huge fallout and there is a lot of working out to be done. If he can change, and prove it's for the long term, then I am willing to give things another go. He has caused me a horrendous few months, but i genuinely do care and want him to be OK. I guess i have to figure out if, as Souk08 said above, there is enough in it for me.

started on the new SOA today. I have another tight couple of months while I pay some more off my new (to me) harp but if things stay on target, I can stay here and be out of debt in 2013. I had set myself a target of an additional £3000 of income this year from music and am 25% of the way there already in terms of bookings which is great. This pays for the loan payments on my harp - they are not cheap but do not depreciate and last for many many years. My new one is my forever harp, it makes me feel wonderful when I play it and this helps me feel confident which then flows into my performances and I play better as a result. I am very lucky

hope everyone is ok and has survived the day back at work :eek:

mineallmine

Ooh hols - I'm thinking about that too. So come on - where would you like to go in February? Perhaps one of us on here could help you find a fab deal.

little_h_2

thank you that's really kind as you can probably tell from my ramblings i am very much champagne taste, lemonade budget!

I spent my honeymoon for one at the Royal Crescent in Bath (no extra debt incurred for it and most of it was paid for by working on what should have been my wedding day!) - can't stretch to that this time but would like to go somewhere with a decent spa.

budget wise, around £150. this will sound like loads to some, but it needs to include all travel and food too. just me to worry about for the time being

there is a new spa that has opened not far away from me, they haven't been open long so i am hoping for a good deal. one of my things to do is to be REALLY brave and ring them and try and haggle for a couple of nights there with my mum.

mineallmine

Right then that's it - sounds like you need to take a wander there or pick the phone up. I love spas and you can get some good deals - particularly mid-week.

Hasn't Bath got that outdoor pool/therme spa thingie? You could book a slot there and find a nice hotel nearby maybe too.

As soon as you've done something it will guilt me into getting something booked too. Mine is slightly trickier as we have a doggie