Buffy Cracks the Egg Diary 2010

LouiseJ

Draw a line under today Buffy and look forward to another lovely week off work:)

I fear that you are very much like myself and get annoyed at yourself if you havent done much in the way of constuctive things........

To be honest we cant win with ourselves Buffy because no matter what we manage to get through in a day we always think that we could have/should have done more, done it quicker, not had to do it in the first place yadda yadda yadda

I am sick of arguing with myself:rotfl::rotfl:

urg123

LouiseJ wrote: »

Draw a line under today Buffy and look forward to another lovely week off work:)

I fear that you are very much like myself and get annoyed at yourself if you havent done much in the way of constuctive things........

To be honest we cant win with ourselves Buffy because no matter what we manage to get through in a day we always think that we could have/should have done more, done it quicker, not had to do it in the first place yadda yadda yadda

I am sick of arguing with myself:rotfl::rotfl:

That is sooooooooooooooooo true. How many times have we all set ourselves massive lists and kicked ourselves when we only manage a small number of the list. Think about it another way - if you hadn't written the list would you have had any success at all?

urg x x

Buffythedebtslayer

I did plod, for 56 minutes. did 6500 steps. very pleased. Felt brilliant afterwards. Now feel like chocolate eating but am trying not to.

Its the same every holiday, I want to do stuff, Mum doesn't so instead of getting on with my stuff, I sulk procastinate and waste time generally until I am SO mad with myself. Tomorrow I am going to the cemetry with Mum and then meeting my friends for lunch. Then its operation bedroom. pile for charity, pile for e bay green met and music magpie.

hmmmm there I go making a list again!! I can't seem to help myself.

thank you my lovely friends xxxxxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

Right first day of the holidays.

my plans for these holidays are pretty much weather dependant.

so here is the list - no laughing at the back please!

1. My bedroom

- organise my ever increasing book collection - some on Green met
- ditto cds and dvds - music magpie
- file paperwork for school and banking.
- clothes - need to go through the night wear and underwear !!!!
- Guinea pigs - hmmm. need to work a place to keep them, their cage is so big! - have come to a conclusion about this. not happy but it should work.

2. Bathroom
- de clutter the shelves
- dig out the old seal
- take front off the bath done and waiting for the space to dry
- check feet of bath for water damage. think it wil be ok, no idea to be honest!
- dry out bath for a few days (!)
- use expanding foam, sealent and tape stuff to re seal bath. bought the stuff at least.
- sand and paint walls.


3. Conservatory
- trip to recycling place to get rid of stuff Mum won't go so am piling it up in the garden instead.
- general dust and tidy of shelves and plants.
- make decision about Avon..... and start listing the stuff on e bay. will email Avon.

4. General house stuff
House plants - gather up and re pot/rescue plant cuttings
Coat rack - sort for charity
shoe rack - like wise
soak shower in vinegar and bicarb.
inventory the food cupboards. semi done - I did the shopping, £37 instead of the normal £70 +
build Mum's chest of drawers. she doesn't seem interested.


5.Garden
dig flower bed
buy raised bed decided to use pots instead.
sort out memorial garden for pets.
plant roses
dig some of fish pond
tidy and weed front garden
plant long lasting miracle plants that don't die and thrive on neglect!
have got the plants and stuff, hope to get out there tomorrow.

Today is my last day off. I MUST get on with my list from tomorrow. I can't move today, got a dreadful stomach upset. have driving lesson at 5.30.

LouiseJ

Oh No:(

Maybe you should cancel your lesson Hun xx

Buffythedebtslayer

Ok, went upstairs to start on the various piles and got to thinking.

Recently loads of people have said I take responsibility for stuff and I feel guilty about stuff and worry. I wasn't exactly keeping a list but i have been catching up with friends and a few comments (and on here) have finally chugged through to my brain.

Mum is currently doing the ironing - I have told her/asked/hid my washing from her to try and get her to stop this but she doesn't. She doesn't even have the tv on. I can't help but feel guilty - they are my clothes she is ironing and I don't even want them ironed. She hates ironing. I offered to cook but she oh...............I don't know any more. I tired of the fight and the guilt and the huge amounts of wasted time.

wastedtime. holidays, evenings, weekends, all spent trying to make sure she is ok she is eating she has something to do. I went out Saturday night and stayed out till about 2 - had a lovely evening. Mum had been "woken up" by me (I actually think she doesn't sleep till I come in ) and so on Sunday was pretty much knackered. Its just another set of guilt.

I hate writing this stuff cos I know the answer is move out, but I cannot afford it till I am out of debt. And besides the main reason I stay is because I don't want her to be alone and I do want to look after her. I love my Mum, she is pretty much my only family and I want this to work.

I need a nap before the driving lesson. I also need to think about balance.

xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

LouiseJ wrote: »

Oh No:(

Maybe you should cancel your lesson Hun xx

No way. Even if I have to chuck up out the window! I am going! xxx

LouiseJ

Hope your lesson goes well and you dont barf on the instructor:D

Buffythedebtslayer

Lesson went really well! I drove at 60 miles an hour, he said I had good control of the car and handled a difficult piece of road very well.

Am pleased.

xxx

urg123

Go Buffy!!!!!

REally pleased the lesson went well - keep up the momentum and get yourself a test booked sharpish! Having a deadline focuses the mind.

Sorry to hear about the guilt that you feel. I can't really suggest things to help. All I would say is keep trying to focus on the debt free goal - you are so close that you will get there. Then doors will be open and you can make the decisions that are right for you.

urg x x