bipolar?

nutziloopz

Anthillmob wrote: »

sorry. i know theres people out there worse than me but no one else is listening to me right now.

i need to get this all out. my mate wo got hurt last night [shes fine just concussed] was discussing with me yesterday that she has noticed me go from me to 'angry and aggressive' but thankfully she still loves me and knows its some odd thing going on and she has been there herself. so i have some support.

dont get me wrong, the oh is supportive hes just gone off to bed as he has come home worse for wear after his crimbo do.

im lucky i have him. and i love him and my kids to deATH.

nna bow out of this convo now because im upsetting myself again. all i want to do is cry but it dont help.

ive told him if i dont get somehing sorted by new year im sectioning myself. i know im suffering some kind of mental illness. i just need someone to believe me. also not helped if i admit im possibly an alcoholic.

Hi Anthillmob,

I have been reading your posts and and at times it is as if I could have wrote them... I have been diagnosed with Bipolor for 9 yrs and by god has it been a ruff ride!! But that is not to say you have bipolor I would be wrong to suggest that, but it's obvious to say that you are going through some sort of change!!
You are very "lucky" (sorry couldn't think of better word:o) to not be going through it on your own with having a supportive partner.. without mine I can probably safely say I wouldn't be writting this now!!.. I would definatly urge you to try n talk through and express your feelings rather than try n get your self sectioned.. that will not help.. you need to find a safe place in the "real world" rather than taking yourself away from the situation!! Your children will need you and you will need them Im sure!!

I agree with someones post before that a diagnosis is hard to come across.. I was diagnosed with it very young and have since had it questioned 3 times but unfortunatly it has proved correct everytime!!:eek:

Oh... the reason I highlighted a bit of your post is I wanted to ask if you do have a lot to drink!!???
I too used to drink heavy and that led to me becoming very violent and my partner was on the receiving end alot!! Ashamed to admit it but I realised that it was having a huge impact on my condition and had to take steps to go into detox... which I did and I have never felt this stable ever before!!
Sorry If I have rambled but my son has been pestering me while writting so i am having to press submit n leave!! lol..
I really do hope you will get some light shed on your situation and that you find support in other ways!! Try not to ever feel alone!!! xx

nutziloopz

Bryando wrote: »

Hi there.

Only thing I will say to you, that helped me in the past few years. Is keep a diary for a better word of when you get up to you go to bed. Make notes on your mood/what was happening then. Other folks reaction/ how dit make you feel. Times you can't sleep etc. This helps alot. not only for you but the doctor. Which in turn could lead to a quicker diagnosis, therefore on the road to recovery.

Yes definatly!!! I was going to say the same thing!! Its a very useful tool and can be great to reflect on, on better days anyhow!!... and very right it also gives the doctor an insight into your feelings times lengths of episodes etc!!

Errata

Anger - losing it with someone or something - can be a symptom of clinical depression. HTH

absolutebounder

Errata wrote: »

Anger - losing it with someone or something - can be a symptom of clinical depression. HTH

It can also be a symptom of perfectly normal; behaviour

pipkin71

gizmo111 wrote: »

I'm not medically trained but I don't think you have bi polar.

I wouldn't either, but can understand ant trying to get her symptoms to fit in with an illness. However, it is for those medically qualified to determine whether bi-polar is the cause of ant's situation now.

Agree, the alcohol will also contribute to how she is feeling / behaving, and if she cannot go to work on drink, the behaviour at work could be explained by the fact that her body is without drink, if she is indeed an alcoholic and drink dependant

Either way, I'm very pleased that ant is off to the GP. It obviously isn't a very nice place she is in right now.

bestpud

Does your GP know you drink a lot?

I think that should be the first thing you address tbh. Your mood swings seem fairly recent so I'm assuming you were a heavy drinker before this?

I certainly think any psychiatrist will want to rule that out before making a diagnosis.

As said, you can't section yourself and are very unlikely to be admitted voluntarily as well.

You do need some support though so I hope it goes well with your GP.

Anthillmob

thanks all. im just slightly above where i was yesterday, i havent cried yet today. but ive let myself get wound up to shouting point.

regards alcoholism.

what is an alcoholic?

if an alcoholic is a person who has to have a drink when hey get out of bed and then throughout the day, secretively, then this isn't me.

but i drink from about 6pm to whenever i go to bed. i have between 4 to 8 cans of heineken. its not a strong beer. i do it out of habit and i dont do it secretly.

definately a drink problem.

roll on the doctors tomorrow. at least i know the doc im seeing wont rush me out of his room on the conveyor belt, he always takes time to listen and is an amazing doctor unlike his sister who also works there. ive never come accross such a rude doctor. and its not just me who refuses to see her.

dmg24

A can of Heineken is 2.1 units of alcohol. Your alcohol intake appears to be between 58.8 and 117.6 units per week. The recommended intake for a woman is 21 units per week.

The GP will know this, but it is worth getting it into perspective before you go. It is good that you have an understanding GP, they are worth their weight in gold!

choille

Try leaving the drink in the cupboard/fridge/shop & see how you feel then. That may answer your question.

bestpud

Anthillmob wrote: »

thanks all. im just slightly above where i was yesterday, i havent cried yet today. but ive let myself get wound up to shouting point.

regards alcoholism.

what is an alcoholic?

if an alcoholic is a person who has to have a drink when hey get out of bed and then throughout the day, secretively, then this isn't me.

but i drink from about 6pm to whenever i go to bed. i have between 4 to 8 cans of heineken. its not a strong beer. i do it out of habit and i dont do it secretly.

definately a drink problem.

roll on the doctors tomorrow. at least i know the doc im seeing wont rush me out of his room on the conveyor belt, he always takes time to listen and is an amazing doctor unlike his sister who also works there. ive never come accross such a rude doctor. and its not just me who refuses to see her.

I guess the crucial question is could you go without drinking the cans in the evening?

I suppose another would be do you look forward to getting home and having the cans and/or do you feel better when you do?

I'm not asking you to answer - just trying to highlight what may be the difference between normal and problem drinking iyswim?

Not all alcoholics drink in secret; some only ever drink in a pub.

I'm glad you have an understanding GP and you are doing the right thing asking for help imo.