The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread! Part 5

cazzasmazza

fayjmck wrote: »

MOS I am a uni student at 41 so you are in good company - whatcha studying.

Me study - Willow

....................(and this reply is for Jo's question earlier too) I am 36 and am now a proud (mature) student of Adult Nursing at uni. I can't express how thrilled I am to be changing my career . I would love to be a Midwife eventually, but who knows where my studies will take me? It's all very exciting.

I've wanted to be a nurse for years and here I am on the journey right now. I can't quite believe it. I wake up in the night, thinking I have to go back to my old work and panicking, then realising that I don't ever have to go back. I can't tell you how happy that makes me.

Hugs
Caz
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yellowmonkey

Well done for scoring October fay :T

mollypolly

fayjmck wrote: »

....I may ask good old MP to crack her whip a bit

Oy....Less of the old please.:D

Welcome to the thread Clarabell and good luck giving up/cutting down.

Off to work now...have a lovely evening...catch you later folks
Love Mollypollyxxxx

cazzasmazza

I don't know quite why I'm like this today. No reason for it.

I got home from uni, after having a great day and at 3.3pm I opened a bottle of red and I scoffed it down in less than an hour and I've hidden the empty bottle.

What am I doing???????????????????? Why did I do that????

I know really. I am an alcoholic. I've done so fantastically well in the last few weeks. But my behaviour doesn't change when I surrender to drink. I'm a secretive drinker, using as short a time as possible to drink as much as possible. Then the hiding begins.

I am ashamed.

Caz
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mollypolly

cazzasmazza wrote: »

I don't know quite why I'm like this today. No reason for it.

I got home from uni, after having a great day and at 3.3pm I opened a bottle of red and I scoffed it down in less than an hour and I've hidden the empty bottle.

What am I doing???????????????????? Why did I do that????

I know really. I am an alcoholic. I've done so fantastically well in the last few weeks. But my behaviour doesn't change when I surrender to drink. I'm a secretive drinker, using as short a time as possible to drink as much as possible. Then the hiding begins.

I am ashamed.

Caz
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Aw Caz....Don't feel ashamed...We've all been there.
I am sure your OH will know that you have been drinking so not much point in hiding the bottle really.Admit to it...say sorry and carry on.

As RA says Cunning ,baffling powerful stuff.
Remember...We deal with Alcohol....

You must forgive yourself.....Take care of You
Love Mollypollyxxxx

GreyPilgrim

cazzasmazza wrote: »

I am ashamed.

Don't beat your self up. We'll do it for you.

Seriously though, don't. And don't give up trying to give up / cut down. No one's going to judge you.

It's just a setback.

GreyPilgrim

mollypolly wrote: »

Aw Caz....Don't feel ashamed...We've all been there.

Exactly. Loads of times.

yellowmonkey

Dont be ashamed cazza

Tomorrow is another day and at least you realise you have a problem and that hiding empty bottles is not a normal thing. Besides we would not know you if you were not on here with the rest of us "strange people"

TIME2GROWUP_2

Evening all... well nearly....

Caz sending you a dodgy hug:grouphug:.x tomorrow's a new day...

Welcome to CB13.. makes you sound like a character from star wars...!:jbig welcome to the mad house...!

Thanks Fay for volunteering....!!! for scoring in October..:T

Thanks Ym for scoring in Sept...:T And please can you put me down for 10 hurrah.. double figures at last...!

Love and hugs to everyone else, you are all super peeps...! xx
T2GU. x

Marru

Caz: You have been such an inspiration to me, keep going, you are doing great!
Su and CB13: I am relatively newby myself, only started beginning of this month.

I've got a new !!! I lost one of my girls a month ago and that left one of the boys on his lonesome. Today I got a new friend for him and I am glad to report that Shaffron and Nutmeg are doing great. So that has kept the bells ringing from me today and makes today no 22 for me please YM.

Couple of weeks ago we had a little celebration at work and bubbly was on offer. I didn't take it as didn't want to spoil a good AF day for the sake of half a glass of champagne. Then I thought that I should leave couple of days per month not AF for situations like this (social situations haven't been a problem for me for years now it is only when I am home and DD is in bed). But I might use those "free" days to do just what I don't want to do i.e. drinking at home for the wrong reasons. My conclusion to all this is that why do I want to have that one glass of wine with xmas lunch at work or that glass of cider when going to music club, what is so special in it? There are several nice AF drinks around so why not just stick with them. I guess I need to learn to be proud to be different and do my own thing. So Fay if you are already [STRIKE]sharpening your pencils[/STRIKE] setting up your spreadsheets - that is 31 for me for October.