The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread! Part 5

Cat_Addict

Hi 69chick - yes I turned 40 in July - went to a medieval festival in Cheltenham to celebrate.

Just noted in your words to Fay, about all the stuff that needs doing weighs heavy on you. And that is exactly why I hit the wine last night - to make me feel less stressed about everything that needs doing/sorting/thinking about. And it worked in the short term, but now, like you I feel rotten and like my brain is squeezed.

Previous nights I drank Pukka Night Time tea and it was lovely and I slept really well!

changing_ways

glasgowgirl wrote: »

- Getting the numbers in from folks like Changing Ways, who you've not heard from in days and you worry might have slipped, and then they report in with a cracking score - tremendous! :j

This is why I've not signed up for a challenge before, I just knew I would forget to check in! Anyway AF yesterday despite dinner with friends where much wine consumed just not by me:D. In a week's time I will be up to 6 months AF:T .Longest AF period for over 35 years :eek:so not going to let myself slip at this stage.

Pippilongstocking

Cat_Addict wrote: »

Hi 69chick - yes I turned 40 in July - went to a medieval festival in Cheltenham to celebrate.

Just noted in your words to Fay, about all the stuff that needs doing weighs heavy on you. And that is exactly why I hit the wine last night - to make me feel less stressed about everything that needs doing/sorting/thinking about. And it worked in the short term, but now, like you I feel rotten and like my brain is squeezed.

Previous nights I drank Pukka Night Time tea and it was lovely and I slept really well!

How rude of me didn't even say hi - and I am 41 1/2 the half bit is very important as it means I am now half of 93. I got a campervan for my 40th and took him on a ferry to celebrate his arrival and my senelity

Promise to text/rant/moan etc tonight if any clanging bells hit - strange though cos I was only thinking earlier yesterday that the evening lately have been pretty OK, I haven't wanted to drink at all.

The MSE part of me is annoyed I snacked on fishfingers destined for a meal later in the week! Lol - I'd forgotten the destruction of the late night feasting causing chaos to both belly and kitchen.

jo1972

And purse

gien

thanks for the welcomes - mari, Jo, 69chick and drreamonsu (I am very jealous of your concert plans!)

I feel slightly less rough now but very tired, burning eyes, vaguely miserable and apathetic - not a wasted day but certainly not particularly fulfilled.

Usually Friday night is 'phew, let's relax, crack open a bottle and slob out' but tonight it's going to be 'phew, let's relax and go to bed early stone cold sober and full of tea'

I'm beginning to realise, so slowly, that having a drink is just not worth it as I don't stop at one and feel dreadful the next day. I have to now just find the will power to back up my insight.

jo1972

Gien, as I said to CA this morning, sometimes the thought of staying AF is worse than the actual doing of it, if that makes sense busy yourself and drink soft drinks or tea/coffee/hot choklit and think of how wonderful it is to lay in your bed sober tonight

xx

Pippilongstocking

jo1972 wrote: »

And purse

Indeed! Ta for the hug and waves to gien...........:j

Lurkio

jo1972 wrote: »

And purse

now what? :rotfl: :rotfl:

Marru

Hello,

Statistics for GG's scores yesterday:
613 pledged, 75 had, 12.2% in 16.7% of time

I am also 69'er had my birthday on April.

Newbies and returnees

Fay a special for you!!!

About vivid dreams, I had a dream last night where I said to ex (while holding sharp knife in my hand) that if he comes any closer I will stab him. :eek: Don't dare to search it from dream dictionary and don't really need to as the message is clear enough.

DD was really cranky pants this morning. I am hoping for calm evening as despite not craving a drink yesterday, today I feel tired and hungry (and lonely as can't see BF this weekend ) so heading towards the danger zone...

graemecarter

fayjmck wrote: »

What a lovely thing to say - unfortuneately for me I managed to go out at 9.45 after a blazing row with my EX hubby on the phone and buy and consume one whole bottle of wine in about 30 minutes.

I was raging angry, tired, hungry and I knew what I was doing was stupid - I just somehow needed to shut off my head. Bad meeting at work in the afternoon - all excuses but my head was fit to burst - I know these are triggers - I know I should have taken texted some very understanding chums :A (you know who you are!!) could have taken my shoes off and stayed at home - but I didn't

HALT
Hungry
Angry
Lonely
Tired

Just one of those things can cause a relapse. A combination of them and it gets more dangerous.

I drank partly to shut my head up. The noise was relentless. To that extent, alcohol was the solution as it gave me some peace and quiet. However, that 'solution' often compounded the problem, and then the negative spiral of alcoholism ensued.
I don't have that problem often any more. Sure there is noise in my head, but I can deal with it now. After admitting to myself I was an alcoholic, I realised the problem isn't just alcohol, but me. I am the problem.
Take away the booze and I am still the same (pretty much) - I needed to change myself sufficiently so I wouldn't NEED to shut my head up.

What's so insidious and powerful about alcoholism is that when we think we have got it sussed, have a few days AF under our belt, it comes back to bite us hard. When people have crossed that line into alcoholism, they cannot go back to being regular drinkers. If an alcoholic person drinks a couple of bottles of wine a night, and then nothing for many years, if that person then starts again, they won't start in moderation. They go straight back to 2 bottles of wine a night. You start back where you ended.