Milanns mutterings on this last milestone.

milann · 9 January 2010 at 1:31AM

What a difference 24 hours can make - yesterday they had dd on nil-by-mouth ready for theatre again as they thought she had internal bleeding and were waiting on blood samples to confirm - luckily she didn't. Today she was 'ordering' (in the nicest possible sense) nurses and me and taking a few steps with physio. She is back taking fluids and hoping to eat really soon - in fact she is talking about food all the time - she hasn't been interested in food since October - that is soooooo good to hear - as she has gone to skin and bone. I'm going home tomorrow after visiting - parting will be hard, but has to be done now immediate danger has past. I will come back again if things change. They are hoping she might be home before next week-end. I am however very wary about such predictions as they told me that after a week and I was in 6 weeks!!

It is so spooky that her intestine perforated - it is 4 years since mine did the same - hers on 3rd Jan - mine on 4th Jan. I was really worried when they had her nil-by-mouth ready for theatre again as I thought history was repeating itself - I had to have a second op ofter a few days. It has been good to be there with her but it brought back a lot of memories that I thought I'd coped with - but seeing her go through similar experiences really got to me - had a few sleepless nights. Not sure which is worse seeing the patient or being the patient!!!

I asked dd if she was scared having seen me and thinking the same would happen to her - funnily she said it had made it easier because if they had needed a bag - it wouldn't have been nice but she knew exactly what they were and that you could lead a full life with one. Annndddd... that if I could get over it 'at my age' she could too - I'll let her off with comments like that just this once since she's poorly LOL.

Better go to sleep now - emotional day tomorrow me thinks. Hope I don't get snow bound on the train

Milann

taxi73 · 9 January 2010 at 1:37AM

So good to hear that she's improving and all being well will be home shortly.
Not so good it bringing memories back for you though..lol at her comment about the age.

taxi73 · 9 January 2010 at 8:48PM

Hope you get back safe and well x

milann · 10 January 2010 at 4:32PM

Back home now - wasn't good parting but dd was worrying about me missing work - so me staying would have been counter productive. Leaving sort of proved to her that she is improving because she knows I wouldn't have left if she wasn't.

She is young, fit and very positive though - so I am hoping for big improvements next time I see her.

My head mustn't be with it yet - I've been looking for my hearing aids all morning - just spotted them in THE WASHING MACHINE :eek::eek::eek::eek: - I'm quite worried incase they don't work - will have to manage without them as I can't afford to buy any (I do hear - just miss certain sounds)

Wish we could re-wind and start this year again :rolleyes:

I'm back at work tomorrow - that will be quite tricky because they are a great bunch of ladies :A and will be concerned both for me and dd - I've asked that they don't bombard me with questions as I'm not sure I'm up to telling the tale many times- I can text and type but not too good at using my voice as it keeps having a tendency to choke up -

- and kindness sometimes makes me crumble. I'm more a practical help and warped sense of humour gal rather than 'there-there it'll be ok' sympathetic kid.

Ah well - better go and see if my hearing aids are clean yet :rotfl::rotfl::eek:

Milann

savingholmes · 10 January 2010 at 8:08PM

hi milann - glad the op went well and DD is starting to take on food. Hope your hearing aids stil work or you get replacements quickly. Its been a stressful week for you - so may sure you are kind to yourself this week