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In_Search_Of_Me · 15 June 2010 at 9:01PM

Thank you both....I think its me just wanting to feel human again. At the moment even simple tasks take massive amounts of energy and I just want to be able to do things without giving myself a massive talking to first as that in itself feels energy sucking and exhausting. I too am wary of increasing doses but gp and I agreed from the start that we would try a very low dose and go up in increments which is what we've done. Most people start on a higher dose than I was but I just wanted enough to feel vaguely normal and just dont feel im there yet...Thank you for the concern and compliments though. I do think I am doing ok in the circumstances (a number of friends have said they would be hospitalised by now) but just feel sucked dry of everything IYKWIM! As for generally I do believe that God has a plan...imagine if I'd been working with mum being so poorly - would have been an absolute nightmare so am just trying to sit back and see what happens rather than worry about it! Just not very good at not being in the know and in control but maybe that was the lesson all along lol!

boredofbeingathome · 15 June 2010 at 9:09PM

I know it is all swings and roundabouts...but you are getting better at Scrabble- the universal cure all

x

In_Search_Of_Me · 23 June 2010 at 7:24PM

well another day, another letter from w*** with new dates on it...didnt manage to see if union guy has been asked if he can attend so unsure at this stage whether he can so will find out tomorrow. As always feel very panicky getting it but this will diminishs. Thank God for prescribed medication! Not much to report otherwise; allotment is coming on; money is as dire as always and life just continues to plod, somewhat aimlessly, waiting for a conclusion so that one way or another I can plan for my future. One day eh!

beanielou · 23 June 2010 at 7:54PM

Keep plodding hun xx

Keeping_Positive · 23 June 2010 at 7:55PM

(((hugs))) hope things move soon.

boredofbeingathome · 23 June 2010 at 8:32PM

You will get there- positive thoughts. xx

taxi73 · 24 June 2010 at 9:14AM

Ahhh...hugs to you....you've come this far just a little further to go now xx

In_Search_Of_Me · 24 June 2010 at 9:45AM

Well its definate - 7 & 9 July...mixed feelings - want to be able to move on but also not looking forward to going through it - but then who would eh!! Its all coming at once though as best mate moves to Italy the same week! Going to stay with them this weekend and the popping in to see my friend who is going back top New Zealand - theyve been here a month and its only felt like a week ago...Just off to do a bit of shopping then a quiet afternoon. Mum has got people coming this eve so need to do a cake for her! She is doing the discovering Christianity course that my church do and they are having it here! Just had a mad dash tidy lol!