Buffy's Moving on Diary

LeeSouthEast

I'm working.

Have fun

Buffythedebtslayer

I am going to file.

deep joy.

will have a cup of tea and cake first tho.

xxxx

Bowski_1011

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

I am going to file.

deep joy.

will have a cup of tea and cake first tho.

xxxx

Glad to hear it...Enjoy!

Buffythedebtslayer

:j:j:j:jMUM IS HOME:j:j:j:j

and I am very happy she is a bit tired but seems ok, she had a lovely time. It sounds so great. sighs.

In my world I am, well am ok. Work could stress me out if I think about too much. so I am doing what I can each day to keep up in some vague fashion but its not working to be honest, well its working a bit. Day tight compartments, do what I can today and worry about tomorrow tomorrow.


I have decided to send my ex a card. its not going to say an awful lot since he is dslexyic, I want to say hi, and see if anything comes of it. I don't think it will really but I need to know I gave it one last shot.

Money wise things are a bit tight but I get paid quite soon.............and then it will be good bye cc bill, I may have a small bill on Tesco's tho...... but I have done an extra shift at work so we shall see.

I am going to ring to book driving lessons - it is holding me back loads. I am not going to tell any one except you lot.

so tired and have books to mark and worksheets to write.

xxxxxxxxxxxxx

ZTD

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

I have decided to send my ex a card. its not going to say an awful lot since he is dslexyic, I want to say hi, and see if anything comes of it. I do think it will really but I need to know I gave it one last shot.

And what is the rationale behind this?

beanielou

Z~maybe its a womans thing.
As Buffy says she wants to give it one last shot & if nothing comes of it well she can put it to bed knowing she tried.

ZTD

The trouble with "one last shot" is being able to keep your feet out of the way...

LeeSouthEast

Agreed. Don't do it Buffy!

Buffythedebtslayer

ZTD wrote: »

And what is the rationale behind this?

Just that I still have strong feelings for him and whilst I know he and I had problems the feelings haven't changed, I have made an effort to see my friends, I have a fairly good social life, I know have changed, going to meets, getting touch with old friends, money wise I feel good and I feel like if he didn't respond at least I acted on my feelings even if its too late. I could handle it, in fact I would be in a better position either way - if he doesn't get in touch I know and if he does and we have another go well that would be good too!

Buffythedebtslayer

beanielou wrote: »

Z~maybe its a womans thing.
As Buffy says she wants to give it one last shot & if nothing comes of it well she can put it to bed knowing she tried.

Exactly

LeeSouthEast wrote: »

Agreed. Don't do it Buffy!

I don't think anything will come of it, I think I am having a big mental tidy! and he was a huge part of my life and a good friend, who I do miss and have done for 10 months. I have made no effort to get in touch thinking such feelings would fade but they haven't they are now driving me crazy! I want to finish it for me?

*changing the subject;)*

I cooked dinner and it was a success! and I made bread pudding and it tastes nice!!!!