Alcohol self help thread II

brodev

I used to feel "alone" for a number of reasons. 1 of which was that not a lot of people wanted to be with me and the ones that had to treated me in an unpleasant way. All due to my past behaviour. With my Alcoholic extremism I exagerated this beyond reason. In retrospect I seemed to demand from everybody "unconditional love" from them but it was certainly not going to be reciprocated. When I arrived in AA this "alone" feeling was part of my psychy. Then funnilly another aspect of it appeared. Somehow or another I had not to inflict myself on these good people that were trying to help me. It was ok for them. But I was different. I had gotten used to being lonely and I didn't know how to respond to interest and concern. I felt that I would contaminate them. It was at this point that I needed the physical presence of someone who could rattle my cage and point out to me what was happenning. This was my AA sponsor to whom I had previously given permission to do this.

jayne.doe

i am struggling today no going down the drink isle to look coz i knew i would buy. I would really like a drink, i am not down, no voices just want a drink. The urge is horrendous if i go out again i know i will buy some. I wish i could explain it even to myself.:( I feel really anxious, ive just got to busy myself.

Al_Mac

Be strong Jayne. It undulates, strong and weak. Something most seem to agree on

beer2006

Hi jayne, its hard, I'm in the same place, I seem to have lost the dependance, but its the habit which is the hard one it seems.

I worked a very long hard day yesterday and my habit has always been to drink after a day like that, I started to do it, had a couple and fell asleep. Lucky for me.

Little_Miss_Winner

Hi Guys,

I usually pop in from time to time and read all your posts, some of you may remember me popping in, some may not.

I don't have a drink problem, but usually read your threads to see how you are all getting on, you have tremendous support for one and other.

And that is worth millions.:A

You are all doing, so, so well. yeah I'm sure you have *off* days, but, hey so do we all, in one way or another!

One day at a time.... i'm not even could pretend i can imagine what you are all going through! I'm sure it's very hard, but to my hat off to each and every one of you.

But would just like to offer my support to you all, you are all amazing people, and you should all be very proud of the work you are doing.:T

Hugs to all
pot
xx

beer2006

Hi poto
Its always nice to have you around :wave: and your lovely words.

jayne.doe

I just feel like screaming i want a bleep bleep drink at the world:)

beer2006

jayne.doe wrote:

I just feel like screaming i want a bleep bleep drink at the world:)

Go on then, I should imagine your neighbours would find it quite funny:D

Al_Mac

What's bleep bleep, is it tastier than vodka

Chrismojam

Hope everyone is doing ok;) Up to day 10 so far....and feeling like I could have one today....not because I am stressed/angry or anything...actually...probably because I feel quite good...gave some good advice (I think) to a very old friend (long time ...not age:D ) before.....

Coming to the realisation that I am more willing to show others compassion etc whilst being hard on myself....a bit of a wake up call really:rolleyes:

Tried pm'ing FG before...but she isn't taking any pm's...so if you do happen to look in FG..take care hun XX