Alcohol self help thread II

glitterygert

Hi Everyone, I haven't had a drink since last thursday, and have no cravings really, just don't feel like one. Fg I,m sorry that you are feeling so down, but only you can find the strengh to do what you have to do, to get yourself better, I walked away after 22 years of bullying, not being spoken to, he was never physically cruel, just emotionaly, to the point where I ended up losing myself, I drank every night, and he encouraged it, only to then tell me I was an alcoholic, useless, no one else would have me etc etc, and I believed him because I adolised him, then we had the most horrid holiday, they wouldn't let him on the plane cos they said he was drunk, and of cousre it was all my fault, so I came home alone, and that's when I left, it broke my heart, eventualy moved away from area, but still kept in touch as we had a 16yr old he stayed with his dad, he still had me though and my drinking was out of control, then I met my OH, god what a change, treated me like a Queen, but couldn't understand why so still kept drinking, anyway 1st husband became very ill, he had a brain tumour, went down to see him, and he knew he wasn't long and guess what he apologised to me for everything he had done, and that he had driven me to drink so much and asked me to forgive him, which I did, he died soon after, what goes around comes around, I don't mean that nasty wise, Fg you need to take control of your life, it's yours not his. sorry for the long post

beer2006

Hi jayne, glad you keep coming back.
I've had an awful temper tonight as well, snapping at the OH. Must be the first ciggie problems.
Funny Al, my skin always gets better when I don't drink. However my body did get used to getting most of its water through my time drinking in the evenings. When I cut the drinking down, I used to get terribly dehydrated as I hadn't increased the other drinks I had.

Jayne, try not to say how nice you think a drink would be and talk about it as it really is, a abuser, a deciver, a killer......

Feelie, I don't know what to say....... but I know when you say everyone hates you, it can hurt the people on here, just keep that in mind.

Hi gert, great that you haven't had a drink for a week, is that quite common for you by the sound of it?

jayne.doe

thanks guys, goodness beer, cigs and drink you are going it some!!!!! well done you:) guys can i just seriously ask you im worried about the concerntration thing im just finding it a. difficult to stop feeling woozy all day. b. complete lack of being able to think straight concerntrate on my work, losing my thread mid sentence. and the anxious thing is this how you felt? dont tell me no your just losing your mind!!!:) by woozy a feeling like i just cant wake up.

Al_Mac

You are in withdrawal, you are a drug addict:eek:

Your body is going to take time to adjust, sorry:p

jayne.doe

beer2006 wrote:

Hi jayne, glad you keep coming back.
I've had an awful temper tonight as well, snapping at the OH. Must be the first ciggie problems.
Funny Al, my skin always gets better when I don't drink. However my body did get used to getting most of its water through my time drinking in the evenings. When I cut the drinking down, I used to get terribly dehydrated as I hadn't increased the other drinks I had.

Jayne, try not to say how nice you think a drink would be and talk about it as it really is, a abuser, a deciver, a killer......

Feelie, I don't know what to say....... but I know when you say everyone hates you, it can hurt the people on here, just keep that in mind.

Hi gert, great that you haven't had a drink for a week, is that quite common for you by the sound of it?

Beer i think the thing about how nice the drink is is the craving i feel. I honestly know its a killer if i didnt i could not do this it hurts . To come on this site sunday nite !!!!ed as a fart and crying took me back to a dark place that i dont want to go again, thats why i like talking to you all. You all have visited that dark place. I am trying to stay positive two positve thoughts. 1. have not had to have ranitadine, my hernia loves me at the moment:) 2. I now have 20 pounds in my no drinking pot to spend on what i like:)

Al_Mac

jayne.doe wrote:

2. I now have 20 pounds in my no drinking pot to spend on what i like:)

Excellent:j I worked out I was spending £10 - £15 a day:eek: £105 a week:eek:

OK Chocolate bill has gone up, but we do seem better off:D

jayne.doe

thanks al im such a druggie ssssssssssshhhhh dont tell the dwp:)

jayne.doe

yeh i know what you mean one sunday me and o/h spent 16 pounds on bottle of whiskey and around 8 pounds on bottle of sherry was gone by the end of monday nite and all i had to show for it was god awful hangover on the Monday

beer2006

Sounds good Jayne, I'm actually £100 overdrawn on my personal allowance at home this year, thats with cut down drinking, imagine what it was like before.

Als right with the drug thing, I've taken that omega 3 oil stuff, it does tend to brighten you up a bit.

You're right about the smoking and the drinking, it is a bit much at once, but I've been drunk about 4 times in 4 years without smoking, if I can manage to do it this time, its going to make not drinking so much easier, hopefully.

jayne.doe

i hope you succeed o/h was a real smoker and the physical withdrawal symptoms he faced was not nice. He said he could not go back to smoking again as he couldnt do the withdrawal again. I think i am just begining to understand what he meant. Omega 3 oil stuff? We spent huge amounts on drink and placed a lot on credit cards, i put away 8 pounds coz could not afford any more, if i put away the real amount we were spending i would be far better off than 20 pounds just needed an incentive. Hoping I might lose some weight as well - as was probably drinking around 1200 calories a day - a girl has gotta dream:)