pammyj74's MFW diary (or possible wishful thinking!!)

Queen-Bee_2

Lots of good wishes for your holiday I see - well doubtless you're tucked up in bed by now, but here are some more... HAVE A GREAT TIME! You deserve the break!
QB

pammyj74

Hi all, am back but feeling really down at the moment and not even remotely full of hugh spirits considering I have just spent a week in the sun.
Considering the week cost over £2500 it was not even remotely worth that much. The room was tiny, so good job there wasnt four of us. it made me feel chlostraphoebic (sp?) It wasnt the sea view I asked for and the only light was the door and window. a small box room and a shower room. The entertainment was rubbish and there was none for 3 of the 7 nights due to to 2 nights of footy being shown. There was only one night of outside entertainment and I just felt really cheated. As it was the middle of nowhere there was no other choices to go somewhere else really. The kids felt they were too old for mini club really and there was nothing else for them to do other than the pool and slide. I am just so glad we were not there for two weeks. Hearing about the great weather back home I am really gutted that we just didnt do butlins or something!! And people saying how hot it was here is not what you want to hear when you get back from travelling for 6 hours!! The toilets were smelly as you had to put the tissue in the bin.

I guess my low mood is not helped because I am also still having probs with my son who now does not want to meet up with me as he thinks it will be awkward. I havent stopped crying and am just having really bad thoughts at the moment about not even bothering to be here at all. I know my younger two are here and they need me but they still have their dad. I just feel like a terrible person at the moment.

I am sorry to be on a downer on my first post back but I am just not in the right frame of mind to write about money saving at the moment. I am sure I will get through it, I have to for my kids. its not nice for them to see me like this

elysia2003

Oh Pammy! I'm so sorry the holiday wasn't what you expected! Try and keep talking to DS (even if it's by phone) he'll come around. It just takes time.

Thinking of you xxx

cha97michelle

Nice to see you back. Sorry it wasn't the dream break you needed. Sounds like it was a bit of a cop out on the entertainment side only showing the footy.

Have a good whinge on here, but then it is essential for your sanity to pull yourself together again. Your younger two definitely need you and deserve you. They sound so nice promising to be good for you.

newgirly

Oh Pammy, so sorry you have not had the best holiday. I have been checking in the last few days to see if you were back yet, reading your posts always cheers me up.
I don't think my advice is much use as my DD is only 13, but teenagers are very selfish creatures, and seem to want as much space as possible. I'm not sure how you should handle the situation, I know what I would want to do though, go round and visit with a present and a big hug for him, its not perhaps the correct way to handle the situation, but you never know it might break the ice.
I find I can fall out with DH and its not a nice feeling, but if I've problems with the kids it feels ten times worse.
If I were you I would try and put the holiday behind you, and maybe plan a nice day out with the kids , is there any way you could plan a day out somewhere like a theme park and get your eldest to come along? maybe a bit of bribery will work.
Anyway, chin up, sending you big hugs x

wantabetterlife

Oh Pammy im so sorry the holiday wasnt what you expected, it is so disappointing when we look so forward to something and it is a let down. Maybe your son doesnt want to meet up because he thinks you are still annoyed at him, just keep the channels of communication open and he will come round. After you catch up on a bit of sleep you will feel ten times better. Take care xo

Queen-Bee_2

Hi Pammy,
Like everyone else, I'm sorry you didn't get the break you deserved and for the upset with your son. As NewGirly says, teenagers can be very up and down, and possibly you'll be taking this to heart a lot more than he will.

Have a cry to get it out your system, do the laundry to put the put the week behind you and have a sleep. It's always exhausting when you get home after a break and you're faced with all the work involved getting back to normal, never mind if things haven't gone to plan.

But please kind to yourself. There are lots of sunny days left this summer and sometimes there's a lot of pleasure in simple treats like spur of the moment picnics.

Keep your cool and have a smile for your son when he eventually comes round.
Take care,
QB

knitwit67

Hi, sorry to hear you are feeling low. Sometimes you need to put people befor money, how about asking your son to come to the cinema or go bowling with the family. The holiday is over, in the past. Concentrate on the future, teenagers can be grumpy gits, but they just want to feel loved like the rest of us. Keep the communication open, and tell him, you love him and just want to spend time with him.
If you feel really down you may need to see your doctor, it may be worth a blood test to check your iron and stuff. I also find bursting into tears on a friends doorstep helps:rotfl:. I find a bottle of wine helps them through it, and it brings friends closer. Friends love to be needed, never be afraid to ask for help.
Keep posting we are all here for you, and as the saying goes, 'this to shall pass' . Big hug to you

SmlSave

Sending you hugs and lots of love pammy. Feel free to vent on here

take care of yourself

pammyj74

Thanks guys, things are just getting worse now as today he says he wants to come and pick his things up (wii, tv, games etc) to take to his dads. Its like he wants to cut me out completely now. I think his dad us HUGELY behind all this as some of the things my son is saying sounds so like his dad. Its like they are ganging up on me and I think I am just going to take a step back now as I am just getting more and more upset and putting my head on the block each time.
In a few weeks I will prob call him when it has died down a bit and all is a bit calmer.

I havent really got back into the money making/saving this week and have no clue what my grocery spends is but its not that much as we have been away.

I might charge into comping for a month and see if anything comes of it, but I am still quite tired and not in the mood for it all, I seem to have lost my mojo

I am sorry I have been down and moaning. I seem to have pulled away from my 'normal' friends and now my kids have moved school I dont see the mums I know and chat to anymore. My family dont live nearby and I feel I am just all alone. I know you guys are here but its not the same is it.

I'll get through this hump as I usually do I suppose.
Sorry