The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread! Part 3

winebox

annie d & fay, am with you both, your posts tonight really hitting home, the term functioning alcoholic so applies to me.....everything works, jobs get done, but....................

winebox

& sea, glad to see you back, it ain't easy, did you get through your crisis t'other day/week?

Pippilongstocking

winebox wrote: »

annie d & fay, am with you both, your posts tonight really hitting home, the term functioning alcoholic so applies to me.....everything works, jobs get done, but....................

Yeah how does that work exactly? Single mum two kids, home cooking, bake, jobs get done, grow my own, hold down a job (kinda), do the laundry, get up early at the weekends and get on with the organising for hte week, go to netball, take kids to chums, cinema etc, read books, teach kids nice things, walk dogs deal with crappy ex husbands, make ends meet, do the juggling, fix the car, i live on my own (with kids) so i do everything just like any ohter normal single mum etc etc etc

I even recycle - and the whole time its like i have anohter part of me existing along side me that mocks me

And then I drink..............................


I think that is the 'just me bit' - the drinking bit, my coping mechanism, my support, my time out, mine.

Pippilongstocking

God how selfish do I sound - its been very odd not drinking this month.

PRICE_IS_RIGHT_2

Evening all, happy birthday BHB :hello:

Another AFD for me tonight, too. Had a yummy Tesco own-brand snickers, which helped to satisfy the urges.

Went to a family funeral today too, everybody said how well I look - I was so pleased I wasn't puffy and bleary eyed, and unable to think straight, like I am if I have been drinking the previous evening.

Will let you know my target for next month within next couple of days, 40SM - btw, thank you so much for doing this.

Good luck everybody

Sea78

winebox wrote: »

& sea, glad to see you back, it ain't easy, did you get through your crisis t'other day/week?

Not really - my boss now knows about it - but it seems to have been contained, although I'm on half term at the mo - so who knows what I'll be walking into on monday....

fay - your life sounds a lot like mine, except that this time I've truely been seen by many by what I am and now there is no hiding it

But come tomorrow - onwards and upwards - I'm really really hoping AA helps. I am ready and open to it.

xxx

PRICE_IS_RIGHT_2

fayjmck wrote: »

I think that is the 'just me bit' - the drinking bit, my coping mechanism, my support, my time out, mine.

Me too!!! Couldn't have put it better myself. Like jumping of the treadmill for a while. But then I wake up in the morning with a foul headache, tired, feeling a mess, and I know it really wasn't worth it and I should have just had snickers or crunchie and a cup of tea in my escaping time. But knowing this doesn't make the wine bells and the urges go away...

alisong_2

Hi Guys. Fay, read your last couple of posts and except for the bit about fixing the car that could have been me a year ago, including the go to netball with a raging hangover bit! I know exactly what you mean about a secret 'other' life that no-one would ever guess. Looking back now goodness knows how I managed but I think at some point you get to a stage where you can't keep all those plates in the air and still drink. That's what happened to me, I was so close to a horrible accident involving lots of crockery!
Sea, the bit about no confidence at parties takes a while I think, to start with you are unsure and then things just seem to get a bit easier, hope they do for you as well anyway.
Anyway, hope it's ok to 'butt in' again, been away but never really left, if you know what I mean! Even though you lot don't know it you're helping someone somewhere so keep up the good work!
Ali.

Pippilongstocking

Sea78 wrote: »

Not really - my boss now knows about it - but it seems to have been contained, although I'm on half term at the mo - so who knows what I'll be walking into on monday....

fay - your life sounds a lot like mine, except that this time I've truely been seen by many by what I am and now there is no hiding it

But come tomorrow - onwards and upwards - I'm really really hoping AA helps. I am ready and open to it.

xxx

Bless SEA
I was seen by a few folks when i was married - looking back now I think its contributed to my husband becoming my ex husband - but I don't want to dwell on that too much. He ended up leaving and tried to take the kids, but thankfully I had my wits about me enough to move away immediately with the children. If I had stayed around him, he woudl have known about my drinking and he would have taken them.

Having full responsibiliity for them has helped me a bit


I have made an absolute idiot of myself infront of most folks eventually - because of drink so its not just you, now I only tend to drink at home, cos I am in a new place but the few occasions I have got out - Its always ended messy

Tomorrow new day me dear - hugs to you all - away up the wee wooden hill.

BB thats me on um 28 slightly shocked.

Brand new shiney day tomorrow lets get though that the best we can and maybe even dare to enjoy even a bit of it

Hugs SEA and ta chaps for the nice posts this evening - appreciated it very much

nettttie

fayjmck wrote: »

And then I drink..............................
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similar to me, though the kids are pre-teens and are pretty much starting to do their own thing so now I worry for my future cos what will I have to keep me stable. I hate bank holidays - I dont want a day off - another drinking weekend, I want to work where I know I'm safe!

A counsellor once said to me that the drinking was my reward to myself, would be great if I could reward myself just a couple of glasses but am sure i've never done anything that good that 1-2 bottles of wine deserves.

The older I get the more surrounded by non-functioning alcoholics I become, people I used to drink with (I dont go out now - very much on my own with kids, dad awol and no family nearby!). However my kids and job keen me sane but these other people my age are on their last legs and look very ill. So sad for someone in the 40's, I know it could be me so I must take control and stop it.

I took the Kudzu before I went shopping so avoided the wine isle, which is good because my mind was telling me it's okay for me i'm doing the June challenge.

You guys are a great help and inspiration, I was offered to do a CCBT (computerised cognitive behavioural therapy course) but I dont think I need to - I'll just post and read; and no double fall off and go into hiding like I occasionally do!!

I really dont want to be the last one in the restaurant slurring again :eek: