One day at a time......

savingholmes

skint,single_mum_of_4 wrote: »

I know what u mean about Jade etc,i went and had a smear test because of her story(not had one for 9yrs) i got my results and they came back that ive got abnormal cells and have got to go back and have another smear.I'm worried sick as theres only me,got no family near by .I worry about my children being left to fend for themselves.

I know it sound daft at the moment but ive started getting ready for the worst.I'm starting to sort house out,start decluttering,getting organised etc and i'm going to take some life insurance out. I know i'm being abit silly and everything will prob be alright but its givin me the kick up the bum that i needed,i don't think anyone should take life for granted.

Hi skint - hope that your next test comes back okay. Don't assume the worst. My mum had an abnormal smear on her first ever test but was fine. Another friend of mine had abnormal cells and she had to go for several laser treatments to remove a problem but is now fine years later.... All the best!

skint,single_mum_of_4

Thankyou

I think when yr on yr own u worry more about things,theres no one to step in and take charge so to speak

newlifeahead

Just coming back with a quick update because I know if I leave it too long I will struggle with keeping myself on track.

Yesterday - Was busy yesterday. Managed to get an oil and filter change at kwik fit. That then turned into tracking for the front wheel and one new tyre. £29 then turned into £90 something. I was waiting for 2 hours and didn't have much time to do anything else.
Tried to find swimming shorts for ds1 for tomorrow but couldn't find any in asda at the time and ds2 was getting bored. Now I have got swimming shorts for EXBF which he had already bought for ds1 ages ok. (Sorry I know I am rambling)

Today - Have paid my exam fee to AAT this morning. I was considering going for 2 but just entered one. Now I just have to make sure I pass this.
Have taken my car in for the MOT this morning. I am still waiting for a call back to let me know if anything needs doing or if it is ready to collect. They did say they would call at by lunch time. Just hoping they don't leave it to late as it will take me sometime to get there.

One good thing so far is that I have walked to school to collect ds2. I don't mind walking now but I have to go up a very steep hill. Walked back too with ds2, so this was a great acheivement for me. 30min journey turned into 1 hour of walking. Have to collect ds1 later so not sure if ds2 can walk up the hill so may have to get the bus there and walk back.

On Tuesday I went for my delux pedicure, which I really enjoyed but didn't get the kids into bed untill 10pm. I was talking to the girl doing my pedicure and I did feel a bit hopeless with my life. She is only 21 getting married next year. Her family owns a shop, so she would start work early, then go to her own job which she is a manager at. Then she does the beauty course in the evenings. What am I doing. looking after kids, working from home and I have only just about managed to enter for my exams. I really need to add something interesting to my life. Oh well, I shall see what the future holds for me.

Must go and get ds1 now, I will see if I can walk it as it will help me get fit. Have to leave early as ds2 walks at a snail pace..I will update later today how much I have spent. I thing it is to easy for me to lose track if I don't write it down.


Oh yes it is payday to day. Yeahhhhhh:T

newlifeahead

Just got back from collect my car and it has passed the MOT :j. I only had to pay for the test no other work was needed. So only cost me £45 this time round. I am so chuffed I had saving £250 just in case anything was wrong. May now be able to use the rest to clear the Robinson way debt early.

Did manage to work to school to collect ds1. Of course it poured down with rain on the way there and back. We were all soaked by the time we got back. Strange thing is I really enjoyed it. I didn't think I would be able to do so much walking. I hope to try and do it now at least once a week.

Going to get the kids ready for bed. Need to do some cleaning up as the house is very messy. Then hope to come back and read up on other diaries.

Great day... even with the rain...

newlifeahead

This diary thing is hard to keep up with. I keep reading other diaries and not updating mine.
Spends for this week
30p Shopping
£11.05 Foods shopping
£43 exam fee
£94.33 car maintenance
£45.15 mot
£4.60 pedicure
Total spend so far £198.43:eek:

I knew it would be an expensive week but without the car expenses I have done very well.

Felt a bit carp today. Sometimes I just hate being single. I have been single for 5 years now:o. Does anyone know where my boyfriend is? I am ready to meet him now. What is he waiting for? Don't mind me some days I love being single but at other times I would love to have someone around.

Managed to call another friend today who I have spoken to in ages. I am glad I did it really cheered me up.

Thinking about doing weight watchers again. I still have the books from when I joined last time. Would really like to rejoin again but can't do it in the evenings. I may try and do it by myself and just talk to myself on here.
Really want to lose a stone by the 1st August when I go to a wedding. I may try to lose just a

Oh my GOD:eek: just saw a spider crawling on the walk. I HATE SPIDERS...
I can't belive I have just managed to kill it. I normally cry when I see one. I must be getting braver.

Anyway I may try and lose 1lb a week. I am not going to tell anyone and just do it myself for confidence.

Because I felt so down earlier today I came home and cleaned. How sad is that. Cleaning because I am feeling lonley.

Anyway my heart is still pounding fast. Now constantly looking around for spiders. I HATE SPIDERS....

Have a good day

whitewing

NLA,

I was on my own with DS for six years before I met someone. I married him last year. Your time will come.

skint,single_mum_of_4

Know how you feel,i get so lonely too
my daughters mates come round sometimes,they've all got good jobs,cars etc and a couple even got there own homes.I then look at my own life and feel such a failure.i to need to do something,need to do somekind of course and get a hobbie !
found myself lookin at the datin sites last night,only looked though !

newlifeahead

Can't believe I haven't updated for almost a week. This happends to me all the time. Some days I can't get off here and somedays the time goes so quickly .
Thanks whitewing it is good to know that there is still a possibilty for me to meet someone still after this time. I have just read Taye's thread on MoneySaving in Marriages, Relationships & Families. It was a great read about her now starting to date after so many years.

Hi skint mum - I felt like that last week I have now realised that although we might look at someone elses life and think it is better than ours, someone else would be looking at our life and wish they had the life we have.

My sister and I have decided to go on a one day seminar about how to make yourself a man magnet. We are going for a laugh really and it will be a day out to London for me without kids around. We will get all the tips and then try it out later before I travel back home. I really am scared of meeting someone knew. I don't think I would have anything to talk about.

newlifeahead

Ok I am going to try and upodate this as much as I can. Don't think I can remember everything that has happend this week.

Good news
I don't know what happend but the speedo thing in my car started working by itself this week. I have no idea what happened but it must be a loose wire or something. Anyway I am well and truly chuffed about this as I thought I would have to pay a fortune to get it fixed.

Took ds2 to get his hearing test - Doctor said his hearing is fine, which I already knew. Now just need to get his speech sorted.

I have been walking around the block every morning this week. I have even started jogging for part of the way. I love doing it now and can tell that I am getting fitter. Everyone thinks I am crazy doing this at 6am in the morning but I won't get another chance during the day.

Check on-line banking and yeahhhh. Tax credit guys have paid me more money. I called last Saturday when I received my renewal form. My salary was less than I said it would be so now they have paid £700 into my bank already. Things are looking up:j

My last payment for Robinson way (£285.33) is due out on the 23rd May, so I am thinking I should just clear it now and be done with it. I may have enough to pay off the Natwest overdraft at the end of the month, but I am thinking of saving the money for a while just in case anything happens.

I will have to update later with how much I have spent this week. I hope its not too much. I have splashed out to today on fish and chips for us as a treat. We havn't had any takeaway meals in a month.

Ok I shall be back later with some figures... hopefully:D

newlifeahead

Morning all.

This morning I decided to pay the remaining balance off my Robinson way debt. I have cleared it 2 weeks early :j. Now I only have 4 debts left to pay. My next target is to clear my Natwest Overdraft. I previously had 15 debts when I first started this journey and I never thought I would get down to only 4. It is a great feeling.

Still haven't been able to calculate how much I spent last week. Don't know if I will get round to doing this now.

Its my Moms birthday this Saturday so I need to get her something being as I will be in London on her birthday. I also need to buy something for a friend who is having her baby blessed this Sunday. I know she is having a hard time at the moment, so I would like to give her a small gift.

I really need to start some revision as my exam is 5 weeks away. I don't want to leave it until the week before. I would like to do at least 1 hour every day to start with. Don't know if this is going to happen as for some reason people keep asking me to help them with things and I don't get much time to do anything for myself. I shouldn't moan really I am glad to help out. I just need time to sort myself out and get passed through this exam.

Right I am off to update my signature.....