Taking my finger off the self-destruct button

beanielou

:eek: to the wages:(

savingwannabe

She writes so beautifully doesn't she?

Horace, Midland Educational that rings a distant bell. I left Birmingham 12 years ago. Gosh i feel old!!!!

Am sorting out filing. Fingers crossed I can get motivated. I am going into work 9-4 for the next two weeks before term starts to get all my work sorted. I have started taking the iron tablets and am looking forward to getting energy back. All is good here.

DDpimp

So good to see you back, as to the wages good on you.In reguards of the house I find a healthy home inspires a healthy mind, but what is true for one of us is not true for all.I hope you continue to write as is I love the flow of your writing.

Wordsmith

Thanks for your messages everyone. DDpimp - I was posting on your diary as you were posting on mine!

The inspector's gone, and for the moment I am still a free woman! What a relief!

Wordsmith

Make an entry in my diary and now there's no shutting me up. On a high from getting through the inspection without being thrown in gaol, and then short-fuse client phones to say a big bank draft has gone missing and have I seen it (which I have translated to mean he thinks it's all my fault). Ho, hum, let's see where that one goes.

On a lighter note, a customer was telling me how he drove to the city and got lost and ended up "circumcising Limerick". Aah, if only one could.

Horace

Cats will do their own thing anyway and maybe Finn will find someone else to give him some free sausage.

I roared with laughter as your escapades with the book, the menagerie and the dreaded wage inspection.

I am boggling at the thought of fishpaste in a vegetarian recipe -mind you the thought of fish anything makes me feel rather queasy.

Savingswannabe - Midland Educational closed about 20 years' ago I think - such an amazing store far better than the WHS which replaced it. Be thankful you haven't been in Birmingham recently - the place has been on lock down with moronic anarchists smashing the place up and looting from shops. Last night was the first peaceful night for ages but I think that is because it was lashing down with the rain and the scallywags couldn't get past the ring of steel that the Police had put up - you could not venture past the inner ring road all roads were closed all buses terminated outside of the lock down area.

Wordsmith

Boss and I managed to leave about ten past eight last night, so I was home at a reasonable time for the first time in ages. I took my rent over to my lovely landlady. She always asks me in for a cuppa and I am nearly always too tired and make an excuse not to, for which I feel really guilty, so last night I determined to say yes - I only hope she was asking because she meant it and not through politeness and then wished I had said no. So the tart and I went in - not only did I get a cuppa, but she also - without asking - made me a salad (with ham, so I was a bit embarrassed to say I couldn't eat the meat because I was a vegetarian, but so is her daughter so she wasn't put out), and gave me a piece of fruit loaf. The dog got loads of treats, so was well happy. An hour and a half later we actually got to leave - lovely landlady is so hospitable and welcoming - only to find Brian looking pathetic and starved on her doorstep, so he got given a piece of ham (probably the piece that had been on my plate!). I don't know why we don't all just move in. Lovely landlady calls Brian "Bonky Legs" - I don't know if I've mentioned that before - sorry if I am repeating myself, it's a sign of ageing, you know. A sign of ageing ...

I stalked stitchingwitch from a diary I was reading to a thread all to do with 101 things to do in 1001 days (there's a thread in diaryland, but also one elsewhere (that I now can't remember) on the MSE site). I think I had vaguely heard about this before, but I hadn't really taken it on board. I went to the website (http://dayzeroproject.com/) to find it is quite a massive, worldwide project (and I found the very lovely poorbutrich is part of it, as are several other people from these boards). Lots of people have their own websites or blogs explaining how they are doing their 101 things. The "things" range from losing weight to visiting five continents, reading a particular book to volunteering abroad. It got me thinking and after our visit last night I started my own list of 101 things. I didn't want to just add random or unachievable items, so I wrote things that to other people would seem tiny and insignificant - but to me, they are significant, purely because they are things I want to do but "never have the time for". Thinking about it was a good discipline because I had to really think about where I am now and how I want my life to be and what I want to achieve in the next two and half years (about 1001 days), rather than vaguely think "wouldn't it be nice". I haven't put in too much ongoing stuff (such as losing weight, exercising more, making the hovel into a home) because these are things I am doing (badly, I know). Some people have included things that they want to do "three times a week for ever" sort of thing, but for me that is too broad and too easy to let slip. Iinstead I've focused on small things to kick-start bigger changes - such as the first step in what I hope will be a new hobby/business, and making first contact to rekindle a friendship. Somehow I feel as if I am not explaining myself very well, but it does feel as though I have made a fairly significant step in doing rather than wishing. I'll give it more thought over the weekend and then join the project myself. It was because I had been thinking about the 101 things for a little while that I decided that I would say yes to a cuppa with my landlady - it was lovely, so why do I turn away from these things? (Note to self: read the title of your diary.)

Horace

Your landlady sounds lovely - not only a cuppa but some supper as well:j

I will have a look at that website later - I dare not look now and distract myself further from the work that I have planned to do today (I shouldnt even be here so you haven't seen me...really I am playing with mailchimp:o)

Lula-Hula

Tis a shame about the wedding, is there an evening do as well ? Perhaps you could then propose ( sorry ) a shift system so that everyone gets to do a bit of celebrating.

I'd lose too much life trying to think of 101 things I wanted to do, I am however, suitably impressed with all of those who are doing it

Wordsmith

Thanks, Horace and Lula.

Re the 101 things, that's just it, Lula - I am spending so much time working and thinking about what I'd rather be doing that I never actually do it. (You don't have to write down 101 things - some people have just 25.) And as they are smallish things, anything big I am aiming for will be broken into smaller lists; for example, "be nicer" is just too big a task for me, so I have to break it down into "don't bite the head off the milkman" (no, forget that, he's a right git and thoroughly deserves it), and "don't get cross when someone passes on gossip they have no way of knowing is true" (no, forget that, spreading rumours about people is abominable and I like to nip it in the bud), and "don't get cranky when people complain about the weather" (no, forget that, I find it too annoying when people act as though they are being victimised personally if it is raining) - you see? You see? I'll have to break it down further: "smile at the milkman and then bite his head off". I find it rather bizarre that I actually need a list to do what I want to do, but I just don't get away from thinking I have to work and do nothing else. Just doing the list has made me stop and take stock of life - one of my aims should be to face facts and don't brush under the carpet my inability to get things done ... except brushing anything in my house needs a list for any chance of it happening.

Re wedding - it's not local, and I would have to leave an evening do early because I have to be up early for work the next morning. To be honest, I am not too worried about missing the wedding (although I would have been devastated if the others had been invited and I hadn't), I am more upset that the others assumed they would be going without giving a thought to what I might want to do. List item no. 102: toughen up.