Burlesque Babe's Re-building life but back in debt diary

Burlesque_Babe

not sure why it's all suddenly made me feel upset, almost as if I've suddenly realised the time I 'lost' through it all, over a year really from her starting to me getting this job and starting the teacher training. Just suddenly felt sad that I had to go through so much pain and I don't think I've ever really felt 'angry' towards her for what she did and I guess because I feel so guilty about doing stuff and am still so regimented I'm still not 100% 'right'.

I'll be ok, like I say, I really don't know where this has suddenly sprung from after doing so well for such a long time now.

I'll post a photo of my 'creation' tomorrow, if it's just a pile of beads you'll know I had a hissy fit because it didn't grow into a bracelet quick enough. I always used to do knitting as a kid on big needles with thick wool because I knew it would 'grow' quickest and I always used to stretch it a bit too much to make it be the length needed to move on to the next stage. Either that or stuff like a scarf for Sindy........that was about the limit of my patience really.......

boredofbeingathome

You want to have a word with ISOM, BB as she is brill at jewellery and beading and what not.

Burlesque_Babe

cheers Bob - there are some talented people here on DFW - PaP is also a beady person

Snaggles

BB, I know I've said it before, but don't be afraid to cry. It sounds like you're on the verge of getting over the whole Cruella business, and that in itself is a bit scary because you know that means it's properly out into the big wide world for you.

And you will no doubt also have some anger about the time you feel you have lost (although you've accomplished a lot during this 'lost' time), but I think the best revenge you can have is to let go of the anger and allow yourself to be happy.

She will ALWAYS be a b*tch from hell. You wont always be affected by her though.

Burlesque_Babe

cheers snags Like I say, I don't know where it suddenly came from, just a weird wave of sadness, feel knackered now Was just sorting some rubbish from a drawer a few minutes ago and found some really old payslips from 3 years ago when I was on really good money and then some even older ones from 5 years ago when I was 'only' :rolleyes: on 20k a year.........feels like a long way to go to get back up to even that.

!!!!!!, I have just jumped in the air - the timer on my phone went off for the chicken roasting in the oven - I forgot the timer was on and it's a really loud , shrill noise!!! :rotfl:

System

Better out than in BB,

beanielou

Enjoy the course

Snaggles

Hehehe, come and work with me - my payslip will make you feel better. The salary is great, but when you pro rata any salary down to 16 hours week, your payslip starts to look a bit scary....especially after they've deducted pension, nursery fees and £250 of sharesaves! :rotfl:

Sometimes I wonder why I turn up! Good job I like it!

Burlesque_Babe

had a takeaway last night. :rolleyes: OH ate about 2/3 of it as well :rolleyes:

Been on my jewellery course. Course was excellent. I was shiite at it. Being left handed in a group of right handed people with all the handout images showing the stitch work being designed for right handed people ain't easy to get your head around. Everyone was struggling to understand the concept of the basics of what we were doing - I then had to try to reverse it all for me!!! It just completely did my head in. Needless to say I don't have a completed bangle to show you all, but then neither did anyone else.

I take my hat off to beadworkers for the skill and time it take to produce something which looks incredibly straight forward and simple.

Today has been a NSD as I didn't buy lunch on my course - I was so determined to try to crack what we were doing and then try to make it work backwards for me I worked through lunch.

Off to do my daily scratchcard. Pity you can't have more than 1 account, 10p a day takes ages to get anywhere! :rotfl:

ZTD

If you do it upside down, then it becomes left-handed.

Are you going to persist with it?

Unfortunately I don't have any excuse - I just have to come to terms with the fact there is no beginnings to my talent...