Support for people with Depression

Sazbo

Hello lovelies :hello:

Back to work today for sazzy The Easter break was so nice... can I have another one, please? Didn't sleep too good last night, so not feeling great atm:rolleyes: but just going to try and get though today as best I can and then home. Four-day week ahead, so shouldn't complain really.

Morning Tiffy hun - where's that coffee? And welcome to Raksha and ad1jnl

Have a good day everyone :wave:

Much love to all,
Saz xxxxxxxx

npsmama

FINALLY the Bank hol is over and instead of having to pander 3 adults + 2 toddlers I just have the toddlers - phew!
I can honestly say that I hope I never have an Easter like the one I just had.

Kids are still chickenpox spotty and husband is still moody and unsociable. The poor guy is ill (hasn't recovered from shingles) but he refuses to go see Dr and instead wants lots of sympathy and expects to be able to be really cold and unsupportive.I know it's daft and I know I should be more compassionate but I find it really hard that he has such a cold attitude towards me. People change when they are ill, I guess that's to be expected. Thing is something tells me this illness is here to stay and that we're in it for the long haul.

:-(

Jo_R_2

Morning all

Typing one-handed with a baby on me. DDs back from their dads and things quite happy and ticking over at the mo.

Hope everyone is coping and will post again later.

xxxxx

La-Cara

hello everyone :wave:

I've been ok over Easter, very busy with uni work though! Spent the last 6 days straight working on my assessments that are due tomorrow, but at least they are pretty much done now, just got to tidy them up a bit and check them over.

hope everyone is well xx

budget_budd

Im not sure I can continue to control the suicidal thoughts I have been having, they are here everyday now, almost like it is normal? I have been fighting them for a couple of weeks now. I don't know how to make them go away.

I have developed the most insane jealousy as well, this site brings out the worst in me, I believe I am a failure as I hardly ever win any competitions although I enter loads, I see what everyone else is winning and just feel so crazily jealous. I also see all the people dealing with their money problems and I am so jealous of that, I have no control over mine. BUT the worst feeling is I REALLY thought my OH was gonna propose, either over christmas (but then he ruined that by being an IDIOT) or maybe valentines but my mum says he won't ask me cos he thinks I will say no BUT I so desperately want to have that massive diamond on my finger, recently at work this couple who both work in my office got engaged (even though last thing I remember when I was leaving to have DS2 he was newly married to another woman who worked there) and today I have just found out that another of my colleagues (fair to say NOT a friend) has just got engaged she talks about herself non stop anyways now Im going to have to endure her talking about it non stop. I feel so stupid and alone and fat and ugly and no-one wants me.

I feel so sick of it all

roxalana

*hug*

will post again in a sec but my laptop isn't loading properly and keeps not posting!

roxalana

ok it seems to be working again!

suicidal thoughts are often a feature of depression and the frequency can increase, decrease or disappear in the same period of depression.

you might feel like you aren't being nice at the moment (as you are worried about being jealous) but I think you are often very nice - i haven't read all of your posts but the ones I have seen you have given nice, friendly advice - so perhaps you are being a little hard on yourself?

suicidal thoughts are likely to be something you can't control (because the more you try not to think something the more you do!) but you DO control how you react to them - remember you have control of that.

we can't discuss meds too much on here but have you started some meds lately?

budget_budd

Thank you roxalana,

I have never experienced so many of these suicidal thoughts they used to scare me but not so much anymore.

I hate being me. I was sat at work today and just wanted to cry. I am too hard on myself I know it everyone tells me so I just can't seem to stop even with help.

I do have medication but I haven't been taking it properly so I have built up a large amount of "spare".

roxalana

Perhaps give your spares to someone to look after until you need them? also is there a rethink phoneline in your area?

budget_budd

I never heard of rethink before Im off to google it now.

I wouldn't trust anyone with my meds, if I tell anyone what I have done they might be mad at me. Can't cope with that as well.

I feel so alone most of the time trapped inside my mind, too scared to admit how I am feeling, thank you for listening and your kind words

EDIT: I found a rethink phone number in my area, if I can pluck up the courage I will phone them tomorrow