Support for people with Depression

~*Plushroom*~

Hello,
I haven't been on this thread before - I'd like to say it was because I hadn't seen it but honestly it was because I didn't want to finally admit that I should be on this thread.

I've suffered from depression on and off since childhood, but my last bout was when I was 17 - since then things haven't been perfect but I thought I had finally moved past this.

However the fact that I have been laying on my bed, exhausted, crying silently and staring at a wall means that that is clearly not the case. I AM depressed, I am not coping well with it, and I don't know what to do about it.

Hopefully in reading other's posts I will learn something. But right now I've sunk back into the feeling that I'm not really here, that none of this is real and that I'll wake up soon and everything will be fine.

~*Plushroom*~

Boyfriend 5.0 doesn't even work for me, so there's no way I'm going to worry about installing husband 1.0 :rolleyes:

beachbeth

Amber_Sunshine wrote: »

I deleted Husband 1.0, it was absolute rubbish :rotfl:

I thought Id keep going with mine until they bring out a more efficient, workable programme! Its better than nothing!:rotfl:

Plushroom, I know exactly how you're feeling. The times Ive had that strange feeling of not really being there as though I need to wake up and all I wanted to do is throw the duvet over my head and never come out. I would really advise you see your doctor immediately and explain every single symptom and how you're feeling. I found that AD's really helped me and the doc may think thats what you need. Please do this as its the only way forward when you feel as you do. Best wishes.

smileyt_2

Hi Plushroom

Just to say hello, and I hope you are feeling better. I am just off for a lie-down too, as my depression seems to affect me most by making me tired.

Do you have anyone you can talk to? Even phoning the Samaritans might help (in fact it may be better because you can offload without feeling guilty that you might be making a friend/family member worried about you). I phoned the Samaritans the other night and it did help a little.

Also, please do see your doctor. I know antidepressants don't work for everyone, but they saved my life and I wouldn't be here without them. They are worth considering.

If you have the energy, could you go for a little walk? It is a lovely, sunny day here and I hope it is for you too. We have had so few sunny days lately. Even if you just went to the corner shop to buy a newspaper or some stamps or sanitary towels (lol, I know that sounds odd but I always reason that they will get used and will not be wasted!) or even a bar of chocolate, or post a letter. Or go and feed the ducks in a local park. Being outside may help you feel a little better. I'll be taking my dogs out later but I need to sleep for an hour first.

I hope some of this helps. Hang on in there. I think many of us on this thread have been in your position and it does and will get better. Take care.

joblessummer12

Hi plushroom, i'm sorry that your going through a difficult time. i dont think i could give any better advice than whats already been given, but sending you bigggg hugggggsssss. take care and hold on to the knowledge that things will get better.....it takes alot to admit to oneself that your not coping and to reach out for help. your able to take the 1st steps by saying it here and hopefully you will be able to tell a doctor, from there you can move forward to beat this once again x

shazrobo

(((big hugs))) to plushroom, i've been where you are now, and i really would go and see your doctor, its the first step to getting better.

been to see my cpn this morning, been feeling loads better lately, and i know ian's support has helped a great deal, i hardly recognise the person i was 2 years ago, who in a desperate attempt to escape my problems, took overdose, i didnt think it at the time, but now i thank god that i'm still here. have had my meds lowered as from today, and if things continue to go well, i can reduce them again in september, then i'll only be on half the dose that i am on now. long term, i hope to come off them altogether especially since me and ian, have decided to try for a baby together.big thankyou to all those on this thread, who have become my friends, and given me so much support

hugs

shaz xxx

Sazbo

Brilliant news shaz, I'm chuffed to bits to read that. You so deserve it sweetheart, and as you say, in those darkest times we can never imagine things getting better for us but they can and do. But don't forget you've given us support too - you've been a great friend to me and all the gang here - so thanks to you too

So do me and Tiffy have to buy another hat?:D;):D

Much love,
Sazzy xxxxxxxxxxx

And a big welcome to plushroom :hello: xxx

shazrobo

Sazbo wrote: »

Brilliant news shaz, I'm chuffed to bits to read that. You so deserve it sweetheart, and as you say, in those darkest times we can never imagine things getting better for us but they can and do. But don't forget you've given us support too - you've been a great friend to me and all the gang here - so thanks to you too

So do me and Tiffy have to buy another hat?:D;):D

Much love,
Sazzy xxxxxxxxxxx

And a big welcome to plushroom :hello: xxx

no need to rush out and buy hats lol

Sazbo

shazrobo wrote: »

no need to rush out and buy hats lol

ok :D

xxx

~*Plushroom*~

Thank you everyone, you have no idea how much relief I just got from seeing the words "I know how you feel".

Any other time I've tried to explain myself and how I feel people are either sympathetic or just think I'm a robot! It's nice not to feel so alone.

As for going to the doctors, I'm working my way up to that - I belong to a really small practice with only 2 permanant doctors - neither of which I would go to with this - quite frankly though they are competant for run of the mill stuff, they don't have the bedside manner I'm looking for. I'm due to go in soon for a medicine review so I'm going to bring it up with the locum woman they have in, she seems more approachable. But an appointment with her will take a little time.

In the meantime I'm trying to keep busy, eat well even though I don't want to eat most of the time and have gotten a bottle of vitamin B12 or whatever it is that is meant to be good for this.

I've forced myself to go out every day, even though I haven't wanted to. And it helps a little. I don't really have family to lean on for support because quite frankly they are part of the issue - I'm dealing with a whole heap of !!!! right now and instead of consoling and trying to make their daughter feel better, I'm having to do that for them. Which is infuriating as it just reminds me that I don't have a normal family relationship.

Planning on spending 2 days clearing out my wardrobe and under my bed - perhaps a clean break and a feeling of being less cluttered will help. At the very least it will appease my OCD which has gotten worse and I now can't drink a glass of water out of the tap unless I've filled and emptied the glass 4 times...:o Should be grateful, there are people with much worse problems.

Right now it's just nice to be able to not pretend that I'm okay somewhere - everywhere else I'm pasting a smile on my face and forcing myself to be happy - it's a little much.

It's really nice to read posts such as shazrobo, clearly this thread is a good place to start to get to such a good place.