Diary of a Poor Person aged 46 1/2

mrscmr · 2 May 2011 at 6:23AM

maybe we are all super credit worthy

x

mrscmr · 3 May 2011 at 9:54AM

feeling poorly and totally washed out

have migraine and a kidney thing and throwing up

i feel like i might break.. i dont know .............

having successfully got my children to school - not a minor feat i can tell u - i am now at home.
hate this house

have no inclination to stay here or even unpack

have met someone who im having lunch with today who has been here 4 yrs and is from essex

hurrah.. she totally gets how im feeling

must start my new diary at some point... when i can face doing it.. maybe it might help me?

too_much_debt · 3 May 2011 at 10:02AM

Sorry you are not feeling too good, it's awful when you have to carry on as normal when you feel so ill especially throwing up, I hate that more than anything else in the world.

Hope you feel OK at lunch time, will be nice to catch up with someone who has been there for a few years. My brother worked there for 4 years and I visited him twice, it is a lovely place.

Hope you feel better soon.

mrscmr · 3 May 2011 at 9:26PM

i am made of sturdy stuff.... im much better now... even had to go to chemiste and ask for treatment for something... had to write down the french on a piece of paper :S

im better, had a good day.. made a friend.. you cant do much better than that! xx

also thank u Ebay queen for your kind words! xx

beanielou · 3 May 2011 at 9:35PM

Hope you feel better soon.
Keep plodding & take care.

gingababe · 4 May 2011 at 12:32PM

Hope you feel better soon.... hugs.

Gb xx

mrscmr · 4 May 2011 at 4:54PM

today is better day

chevalier · 5 May 2011 at 12:06AM

glad you got a bit better. nice to meet someone who can show you the ropes maybe? Is it the house that you don't like, or the country? I am feeling quite down about the place we are living in now. We have been here 3 years, and it is always going to be that the rooms are the wrong way round etc.... *wanders off to look for new housing*
chev

mrscmr · 5 May 2011 at 7:26AM

yeah chev.. its the house... cant even bear to unpack or tidy up... although today perhaps i might...

im still a little bit in the zone of taking kids to school then going back to bed to blot it out

but overall im better, was thinking last night how the financial situation is miles better and that we actually HAD money! when u spend a couple of years being fixated about how to pay the bills and counting down the money as it runs out each month its very hard to get mentally out of that feeling.... i mostly forget each day that we have money if we want it... but infact i would rather keep our money and put it towards a lovely house in about a years time.

have a good day all.. sun is shining here xx

GDB2222 · 5 May 2011 at 10:05AM

I guess you are locked into renting the current house? In any case, yet another move would not be good for the family. So, maybe you need to come to terms with the present place being not what you want and make the best of it. You can look forward to renting or buying somewhere better in a year or so, but you really need to unpack and move mentally into what is for the time being the family home. I suspect that you've been running on adrenaline for so long that this now all seems like an anti-climax. Maybe you just need to give yourself a couple of weeks of putting your feet up and doing the minimum. You certainly deserve that.