Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

crazy_girl

im sorry, im being so selfish and wrapped up in myself, i havent asked how everyone else is atm?


no, i dont have any children btw

willa123

crazy_girl wrote: »

i was in a bad situation at home when i went to teh hospital last, it was just before my parents kicked me out and i was homeless for soem time, i was in trouble pretty much all of the time, they timed me in the shower, counted how many times i went loo in a day, how long i was in there, how many times i flushed and how long i ran the taps for, made me walk the dog and pick up its poo eventhough it was nigh on impossible for me to cope with, made me wear my clothes more times than i could manage without washign thetm etc. it made me really cross all the time and i would last out at them, i was just happy to be away from that environment for a bit initially but as i had day release i just went out every day and rode around on buses or wandered aimlessly around the town, just to get away from the place. they said i was treating it like a hotel and called me stuff like lady muck and that and in the end discharged me, i got on a bus to the nearest supermarket, bought a tonne of pills from different tills and od'd again. they said id done it to annoy my parents and upset my sister who was still at high school at the time, i hadnt, i didnt want to be alive any more thats why i did it. i went back in for one night then was discharged again, not before they made me sit outside a room on teh floor whilst the doctors and my parents discussed me eventhough i was 21 (or 20 maybe) at the time. the consultant in charge has since been struck off, the lawyers wrote to me yto use my medical notes in the case against her up against the gmc.

That is ****** awful of them :eek:. Not all medical staff are like that xxxxxxx

crazy_girl

i know its changed since then, it used to be ward 27 for men and ward 28 for women but now its the irwell unit for everyone and you get your own room and its a new building and stuff i bet the staff are still the same though

one of the nurses told me i didnt care about anyone else but myself and when i got peed off and kicked over a low coffee table another nurse claimed that id picked it up and thrown it towards 2 other patients that were in the same room and they went along with it coz they were all scared of her lies and they were on sections and shed lie to make people she didnt liek have to stay in longer

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Sounds awful

crazy_girl

im so scared of hospital

im not scared of dying, im looking forward to walking bobby boy with my grandma

Sugar_Coated_Owl

crazy_girl please don't do anything.

willa123

crazy_girl wrote: »

im so scared of hospital

im not scared of dying, im looking forward to walking bobby boy with my grandma

Who's bobby boy ?

crazy_girl

my mum and dads dog, the one who had the stroke. i used to look after him i loved him very much

willa123

crazy_girl wrote: »

my mum and dads dog, the one who had the stroke. i used to look after him i loved him very much

Oh aww :(

crazy_girl

hows everyone feeling today, only one day left till the big day?