Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

willa123

jazabelle wrote: »

Has anyone heard from crazy_girl? I'm hoping that the no news is good news at this point and her GP is giving her the help she deserves.

I hope she's ok

crazy_girl

hi guys, messed up i like your pic, we have similar styles except i cant get any of the piercings id like due to my blood disorder (bah!) and my hairs bright red!

the gp referred me for the home treatment team but coz the psychiatrist dr sadiq (or dr sad-geek as i call him) discharged me for not being psychotic they have to do a full assesment from the beginning again

i was in a mega grump in the docs so hubby had to do all the talking, he just spoke to me to confirm if what hubby had said was right. i hate the phrase comitting suicide, its like its some horrendous crime or summing. i can get it if i wanted to kill someone else but i dont!!!!

i have to go back on 29th and i dunno whats gonna happen then he said hospital just now will make things worse but its looking at hospital after xmas hubby says

gp put my tablets on repeat now so i dont have to be without them, hubby bought them for me so i cant refuse to take them haha! some hubbys treat their wives to jewellery, perfume, slinkies.....i get colipramines woo! ive took tonights dose like a good girl.

so in teh meantime, nowt, i knew hed do nowt, proves my theory that does

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Thinking of you crazy_girl. Hope all is OK.

crazy_girl

after docs i had 3 hours before the meal, me and hubby went to a cafe to debrief (ocd and the bads hears what it wants to usually!) then hubby had to go to work so i was stuck in town

i got my hair cut but now i look like the girl from lazy town, its f*cking awful

i went a bit daft and bought a new dress for xmas and a coat and some undies, i dont normally buy stuff for myself but it doesnt really matter i suppose that much but i wanted to save as much money as possible for hubby so he doesnt struggle till he gets used to paying all the bills and stuff coz i do that currently

the meal was ok, i spoke with the streetwise manager first and told her how i felt she reassured me which was good and i sat with my mate so it wasnt too bad in the end

then everyone went to the pub near streetwise we usually go in after the music club on fridays but i wasnt sure till hubby rang and said the computer system had gone down across the entirity of bolton council so he had to come home so he came in the pub for a coke and a game of pool and everyone was there so no pretending to be extatic or owt

crazy_girl

that sane email thing never got back to me

Sugar_Coated_Owl

crazy_girl, so good to hear from you

when will you see the home treatment team?

What are your thoughts about going into hospital? Have you been an inpatient before?

Hopefully your medication will help to lift your mood.

crazy_girl

i dunno if the home treatment team are gonna even do an assesment, doc said he can only reccomend it, he cant make them do it

ive been in teh hospital before for a month and its hell on earth and the staff are !!!!!es

the meds are only for the ocd, doc said himself that they cant help with the bads but that has been really bad lately, ibs is bad too and its gotten to the point where i cant go looo without hubby there to help me, thats another fear about going in hospital

Sugar_Coated_Owl

When you were in hospital before did you find it helped?

I hope you hear from the home treatment team soon.

(((HUGS)))

willa123

crazy_girl wrote: »

i dunno if the home treatment team are gonna even do an assesment, doc said he can only reccomend it, he cant make them do it

ive been in teh hospital before for a month and its hell on earth and the staff are !!!!!es

the meds are only for the ocd, doc said himself that they cant help with the bads but that has been really bad lately, ibs is bad too and its gotten to the point where i cant go looo without hubby there to help me, thats another fear about going in hospital

Oh why are the staff so awful to you ? xxxx

Have you any Children ?

crazy_girl

i was in a bad situation at home when i went to teh hospital last, it was just before my parents kicked me out and i was homeless for soem time, i was in trouble pretty much all of the time, they timed me in the shower, counted how many times i went loo in a day, how long i was in there, how many times i flushed and how long i ran the taps for, made me walk the dog and pick up its poo eventhough it was nigh on impossible for me to cope with, made me wear my clothes more times than i could manage without washign thetm etc. it made me really cross all the time and i would last out at them, i was just happy to be away from that environment for a bit initially but as i had day release i just went out every day and rode around on buses or wandered aimlessly around the town, just to get away from the place. they said i was treating it like a hotel and called me stuff like lady muck and that and in the end discharged me, i got on a bus to the nearest supermarket, bought a tonne of pills from different tills and od'd again. they said id done it to annoy my parents and upset my sister who was still at high school at the time, i hadnt, i didnt want to be alive any more thats why i did it. i went back in for one night then was discharged again, not before they made me sit outside a room on teh floor whilst the doctors and my parents discussed me eventhough i was 21 (or 20 maybe) at the time. the consultant in charge has since been struck off, the lawyers wrote to me yto use my medical notes in the case against her up against the gmc.