The Giving Up Smoking Thread!! Part 2

mazza111

Hasn't been a good weekend here. Champix side effects kicked in, suicidal thoughts all day yesterday. Bloody hell it was scary!!! So have come off the Champix and hopefully will manage to stay off the weed too. I have never been so scared in my entire life. Driving along at 60mph and thought it was a good idea to crash into a Royal Mail (ironic as I work for them) coming in the opposite direction. The only thing that stopped me was the thought of hurting the other driver. Came home and b4 I knew what i was doing, had a load of paracetamol popped out their wrappers, the worrying part is that i didn't realise what i was doing until i seen all the pills sitting on my desk. Luckily I have good support here, and my GP is great. So have been asleep since yesterday afternoon.
Think my vitamin B12 has been low again too which can make you feel low. I would rather smoke 40 fags as have feelings like that again. However, I will do my very best not to do it!!!!
Just wanted to post so that if anyone else gets these feelings, call your GP, or NHS 24, samaritans. Anyone!!! Have to go see my GP again on tuesday, so will keep you all informed.

Larmy the worry beads are a good idea. I have a pair of stress balls upstairs of my other half that I'm gonna look for. Right now I don't have the energy to climb the stairs to go for a pee. On a good note, GP weighed me in and i have lost another few pounds. Just wish I could have lost it in a decent way without going through all this.

MimiJane

Oh mazza, poor you! Think you've done the right thing stopping Champix .. you can't' afford to have thoughts like that. Thank god you've got a good support network. Well done for keeping off the weeds and keep it up. You know you'll get over these feelings and they're down to the Champix.

Not having a particularly good weekend myself. OH is poorly and making frequent trips to the bathroom ... my weekend is an endless round of tidying, washing and nursing at the moment and I could kill for a fag! None in the house though and I don't drive and can't leave OH, so fed up and house-bound!

I think today's day 47 ... takes some working out now

Hope everyone's having a good weekend.

Sue, where are you? Missing your posts and words of encouragement to us all. Do hope you're OK,

Mimi x

larmy16

Mimijane you are on day 47 and psychologically you would murder for a fag! How powerful is this vile chemical?? I have just eaten a huge bar of Dairy Milk and a packet of Fruitellas, very nice too - but just replacing one addiction for another.

Well done by the way!

Mazza wow that sounds like a horrible experience with the Champix. I quit very easily with the other one Zyban - thought it was amazing - and YET took up the weed again. So foolish - sometimes I cannot believe how crazy I am until I realise how many other people wrestle with the very same problems. It does help.

Hope you feel better soon. x

mazza111

thnx mimi, hope the OH is feeling better soon. Furthermore I hope u don't catch his lurgy.

Larmy, I found quitting with Champix was easy to an extent, yes i had my slip up when i had my accident, but we're all allowed one of those, right? That's what I keep telling myself anyway. Doctor said it could take 24-48 hrs for the champix to come out my system, but am feeling much better today. My daughter is coming over tonight to keep me company. Although how I'm gonna explain this to her is another matter. I won't go back to square 1 again. I feel weak atm, and could use a smoke, but I won't! Just hope I have the same resolve while my daughter (who is a light smoker) is here. My OH was here earlier though, he smokes and it didn't make me want one, so I should be ok, I just know it's gonna get emotional with my daughter. She's my baby after all, no matter how big she gets:o

Sue-UU

MimiJane wrote: »

Sue, where are you? Missing your posts and words of encouragement to us all. Do hope you're OK,

Hi Mimi and everyone, good to be back with you all. I'm back on track now,though not been too good of late, but all's well now.

I do hope you're OH is soon feeling much better Mimi, illness is horrible and always affects more than just the person who's poorly, but he'd be lost without you!;)

I haven't been able to go all the way back to when I last came on, but see there's some mainly great news being reported, even though one or two blips; not too worry, back into it and from here on do your very best to keep OFF them! It's a very great thing that you've all undertaken so be so very proud of however far you've already got, and don't give into thoughts of "just one drag", it's never worth it! OK if it makes you ill, but what if it doesn't??? :rolleyes: The alternative to quitting is unthinkable, keep those lovely refreshed inner and out bodies free from all the rubbish that WAS in them, you owe it to YOU.

You ALL know you CAN win this, but if evil thoughts strike, you just need to get on with something else and concentrate on breathing deeply and calm yourselves down. Lie down and keep a count of the breaths you take and feel your bodies relax. When you get up again take a shower, start eating fruit or go for a walk, anything to keep away from thoughts that aren't good.

All being well I'll be back tomorrow to see how you're getting on, but for now - congratulations to you ALL as it's very, very deserved!!! :T

Sue

mazza111

Think the Champix is well and truly out the system now, unfortunately the nicotine craving is back with a vengeance, haven't given in as yet. Just hope the doctor will be happy to try again with NRT rather than going down the champix route. Will let u all know tomorrow after I've been to see him. Now I need to ask your advice on what u found better, the nasal spray or lozenges as the patches either don't stick or I have an allergic reaction to them.

little_lily

I passed the 5 month mark at the weekend!!!!!

Just wanted to post a little congratulations to myself (I was a secret smoker so my family can't congratulate me because they didn't know I smoked!)

To all those who are quitting, I wish you all the very best and hope that my success can give you some encouragement to you at your weakest moments. There were times when I thought I couldn't keep on, but thank goodness I came on here and ranted and raved instead of lighting up!

One thing that used to intrigue me when I first quit was 'how long will it be before the craving goes?'. I used to think about smoking for about 50 minutes of every hour and now, I can honestly say, it's once or twice a day for a few seconds each time.

I have yet to have the magical day when smoking doesn't cross my mind at all, but it really does get easier every day.

Loads of luck to you all xxx

SandC

Hi folks, hope everything is okay. Geez Mazza, that's not good. You've done the best thing in coming off, these things obviously don't work for everyone.

Feeling great. Went to the gym for the first time in more than a year on Sunday - I didn't go over the top but I really noticed the difference with not smoking. I didn't really notice it before - and I know it was a long time ago - but I think you are in denial about how smoking affects your lungs until you have cleared them out.

shimmershelly

Mazza that craving is all in your head hon (ie mental not physical), you have been off cigs for so long now it seems a shame to put nicotine back in your body but you have to do what's best for you. I was sorry to hear of your experience, you did the best thing coming right off them.
I think I have been off champix for almost 2 weeks now (I haven't got the silkquit meter up so I can't tell) and I've had no cravings whatsoever, I think my nicotine receptors must be dormant now after champix did their job.
I was the only one not smoking when I went out with friends at the weekend and that went ok. It was strange staying inside the club and waiting for them while they went outside, it always seemed I was the only one outside before. But people were queuing to go out for a fag, I had to laugh at that.
I am into my second week running now and am just about to sign up to do a 12 mile walk for charity. I've also signed up to give blood for the first time at the end of the month.
Maybe it's because I am doing all these healthy things that I wouldn't be able to do if I was smoking that stops me thinking about it...who knows?
I am definately of the opinion that I'm not giving anything up by being off the fags.

mazza111

Shelly your absolutely right, however my head isn't working too well atm either. Am due my Vitamin B12 injection too. + my relationship break up. Am not making excuses. Thought I would give up smoking at same time as that and found it quite easy (to an extent, well easier than i thought anyhoo)/ Trying really hard not to now. Would be so easy to have one with all around me still smoking, but i will resist temptation