Depression Support Thread

Miroslav

Morning all.

Cannot sleep

Flatmate went away Friday, had a cold since Saturday

Not seen anyone, done anything Had my cats who are great company and some text messages, but that's it. I would have gone out and done a little, only i've felt too unwell.

Missed flatmate, just for the company and someone to talk too, although when she's here, I sometimes want to be on my own

I knew I was lonely anyway, but this last week makes it even more obvious. I do try and connect with people, I just never do All I want it to wake up one day realising someone actually does care

Anyway, enough babbling for one night

Hope we are all well

I've just gone back a bit through this thread and the old one and am I reading right - Saz and Gillette - together?

:j

Let me know when I need a new tie and my evening dancing shoes :rotfl:

Miroslav

Tiff wrote: »

miro - and how lovely to see you, sweetheart! I'm sorry that you're feeling so poorly hunnie. I'm also sorry you're feeling so low angel - is there anything in particular that's making you feel low? What have you been up to hun? Be kind to yourself miro and I really hope that you feel better in all areas soon.

Tiff :wave:

Oh everything is making me feel low - just life Loneliness, inability to get and keep a job - everything

I quit my work placement early as they weren't listening to my needs. They told me it was about helping me, but in the end it was about filling in spaces they needed filling

I was due a medical, then 2 days before, I got a message saying it was cancelled and will be end of September, now they say November - I haven't a clue All the stress of that has done for me

Good thing though is i've nearly finished my Xmas shopping, bar the food :T

Just wanted to get it out of the way, especially if I end up losing money after the medical. Will start on the food that will keep, when flatmate returns

I know you don't like being asked, but how is Tiff? After Saz and Gillette, I don't suppose you need a man in your life? :rotfl:

Now where is queenswayboy when you need him

I shall reply to peoples PM's when I feel more awake - I am tired and ill, not a good time to be replying to anyone

Hope all are as well as can be :j

Tiff_2

Hi guys!:hello:
How's you?
Here's a warm for why so hard (wsh) - come on in, hunnie! Thank you for posting ~ this thread is heaving with guardian angels should you need them.

Yep - Wednesday again!
I've got so much to do today, it's unreal - including being in 3 places at the same time!
So somehow, this piccie feels more than appropriate for me today...

I'll meet the owner of the afore-mentioned marbles outside the smartie cupboard at 4pm - bring catnip!

Don't worry peeps - I gave up looking for my marbles years ago!

Wishing everyone a purr-fect day. Safe journeys guys.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi bizzy!:hello:
Lovely to hear from you again angel - welcome back!

bizzy wrote:

Hi all. A long time since I have posted. I am pleased to report life is a LOT better than the beginning of the year.

bizzy wrote:

After six months of Mum being housebound she is back up and about, not fully fit but at least she can escape these four walls. It was awful at times but the MRI scan showed it was just a badly ruptured disc. I say 'just' it was bad enough but it was good news in that it wasn't something worse, degenrative etc.

The whole episode in turn made me stronger if anything. I am getting on well with my work and a distant relative, God bless him, remembered us all in his will which meant enough came my way to make life a bit easier for a while and certainly help inject my debt free wannabee vibe!
Sending you all love and light xx

That's great news about your mum, hunnie! I'm sorry to hear about your relative, bizzy. I'm glad things are going well for you and I think it's great that things have picked up so much for you.

I know we all support each other through really difficult situations here but sometimes, there are peeps who stop posting when things improve for them because they don't want to bring anyone down. But it's just as helpful that they do post when times are good, to let us know that things do change for the good and to give us that extra little bit of hope and determination.

I hope things continue to improve for you hun. Love and light happily received bizzy and returned to you with hugs.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Amber_Sunshine

Had a scary experience last night.

My flatmate came in at 3am and made so much noise that he woke me up. Then he went psycho on me, just because I asked him what he was doing, to make so much noise at that time of night.

I'm going to get out as fast as I can. Tonight a friend is staying with me. This guy is someone with a very uncertain temper, and I don't feel safe spending two more weeks in the same flat with him now.

Tiff_2

Hi amber!:hello:
How are you angel?

amber wrote:

I feel like the worst cat mum in the world ...

Isis is booked in to the vet tomorrow to see if she needs to be sterilised, so I can´t feed her tonight in case she has the op. The pitiful Oliver Twist looks I´m getting ...

How could you? Poor Isis!

Are you sure you won't change your mind, amber?

Then you leave me no choice...

Go get 'em Isis!

Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi amber hun!:hello:
Just saw your post angel - good idea to have someone stay over!
Stay safe - thinking of you.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi miro!:hello:
Hey angel - good to see you!
I hope you're feeling better hunnie. Sorry I can't stop now miro -
I'll be back for you later!!!

Be kind to yourself hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,


Hope all is well,I am fine today,off out in my parents car for a while from 11am.

I hope you all have a lovely day!


*hugs* to those that need one


love and light,

Katie xxx

Diamond78

Hi Everyone,
Im sorry I havent been around. I have been really low last few weeks, well ever since I got back from hols. I had been on a high ,hard to explain really. Ive been acting like everything is ok and Im coping and feel like now Ive come crashing down again. I hate feeling like this as I end up neglecting myself. I havent been on here for the simple fact that I feel that low and I have nothing happy or positive to say. I dont want to bring ppl on a downer so its better I stay away. Ive only read last 2 pages so havent got a clue how everyone has been. I think of you all everyday and hope that everyone is doing ok. But Im just in that mood where I cant even be bothered to do anything.
Im so exhausted. I have so much going and cant think straight and properly.I dont understand life! How can one person go through so much and still suffer with little or no luck?Why does life keep throwing stuff in our face and bring us to this point? I cant make sense of it all. It feels like a never ending battle. I always have this hope that oneday, life will get easier and I will overcome this deppression. But no, something always has to happen.I feel so stressed and under pressure. Im not sleeping or eating well either. I have been to see my gp and told him all that is going on. He has pushed for an urgent app for me for counselling. I have got so many different app's too which I cant keep up with.
My anxiety has also got worse. I feel really scared and dont want to go anywhere. I feel like packing everything and going somewhere far and completly different, away from all the bad memories and people. But I cant do that as we have no where to go. DS is doing ok, Im worried he is being bullied and have spoken to his teacher about it. He has been frustrated recently and lashing out on me. He is so good 99%. Is it normal for a 6 year old to lash out at his mum? I really told him off for it and felt so bad and guilty afterwards.I dont like and am not use to seeing ds like that. It scares me him growing up. I dont send him to school to get hurt, I worry about him so much and feel so lost without him which is another reason Im on a low. I only feel at ease with myself when he is home. I am taking him to a football game next week but i feel so anxious an panicky. My panic attacks have got worse, Im so scared that sperm donor will turn up as last year when I took ds, my ex turned up at the game and he doesnt even support that team. How will I keep calm and act normally. Public transport terriefies me. So does being out in public. I cant cope with suitations like that. Last year when we went, I had so many panic attacks, I thought I was dying. You must think why am I going then if thats what happens, but am doing it for ds as I know I cant take him again as I wont be able to afford it. It would mean the world to ds.
I have also had this huge worry hang over me. Since last year my smears(sorry guys) have been coming back abnormal. Before I went away I had a smear test again and when I got back the letter I was dreading was there. Its abnormal again which means I have to go for further tests. I have tried to put it in the back of my mind but ut was pretty hard after it was everywhere that jade goody had cancer.Maybe its my paranoia but I started thinking of the worse then quickly putting it out of my mind. All these weeks I have known I have thought about it everyday.. My app is next week. I really dont like the thought of the colposcopy. I dont have anyone to come with me. Im due on too so If im on the examination day, I will have to change my app which means more waiting. I feel all these years of smoking, being uncareful and irresponsible, I am now suffering the consequences. I really want to give up smoking as I want to live long and see ds grow up but with deppression, it adds on to your help and deppression.Im dreading counselling now, before I couldnt wait, now I dont feel like I want to talk about things.
Im sorry about the long deppressing post. I just wanted you all to know and understand what Im going through and im kind of strugglying at the moment. Im going to try really hard to do something about these problems, I dont know how Im going to do it but I know I have to do something as I will just get worse. I dot like winter anymore. I wish it was summer with lots of warm weather and sunshine. Winters it gets cold, dark quickly, more crime, xmas, lots of expenses, shopping for xmas, rude and ignorant ppl,arrgghh the list can go on forever.....
Anyway, Im waiting for ds's bed to be delivered. He wont sleep in it. he is to scared still to sleep alone after everything he has been through. But I am going to try even if it means me sleeping in his room for a while.
Hope everyone is doing well, those that are not, keep fighting.Hugs
xx