Depression Support Thread

absolutebounder

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Grr. The family have tried to get in touch. Home phone is now out of the socket, and mobile is set to only answer calls on my accepted list.

You know, sometimes I just want to scream at them that they are part of the reason I am like this!

xx

I didnt get time to answer this when you posted it.
I once again am reading betweeen the lines but I think your family is responsible for much of your unhappiness. Whether intentional or not it is obvious a lot of damage was done. Because of this I think you may have been searching for an identity for a lot longer than you should have.
However you are now an adult and while it may hurt a lot you have to resolve family issues for your own health and future.
Burning bridges though should be the last result so I think you have really to try and sit family down and say you want to talk to them on adult terms. Explain how you feel they made you feel and point out initially that you are purely expressing your feelings. If you can find common ground, good and say to them lets develop this. If you cant then it is time to make the break for good and get out into the real world and meet new friends. I know I have said this before to others but I would suggest you join a befriending service for the elderly and I guarantee that if you just be yourself you will soon meet non judgemental people who will seem like the mum and dad you never really had. If you want help in knowing what to say when you meet people then PM me but I think it is such a pity that someone so talented as you is made to feel small and insignificant

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Good Evening! hope you have all had a good day,mine went alright Did a food shop at Marks and Spencers today then had lunch at my parents of my cod and chips I had brought at Marks and Spencers as I didnt feel well so I didnt go to the pub for lunch and I felt really tired,so had an hours rest at mums before lunch.The boiler couldnt be fixed today so a man is coming tomorrow to look at it,so no hot water tonight and no heating.

I am glad your craft group went well Shaz hope you are ok Anni.


*hugs* to those that need one


love and light,

Katie xxx

LadyMorticia

shazrobo wrote: »

whats happened hun?
(((big hugs)))

The police came around this evening for the 3rd time in 3 weeks!

First time was with the ambulance after my suicide attempt, second time the police got the wrong house (they wanted next door) and this time they came around because someone had raised concerns about my mental state.

I am such a screw up.

xx

LadyMorticia

absolutebounder wrote: »

I didnt get time to answer this when you posted it.
I once again am reading betweeen the lines but I think your family is responsible for much of your unhappiness. Whether intentional or not it is obvious a lot of damage was done. Because of this I think you may have been searching for an identity for a lot longer than you should have.
However you are now an adult and while it may hurt a lot you have to resolve family issues for your own health and future.
Burning bridges though should be the last result so I think you have really to try and sit family down and say you want to talk to them on adult terms. Explain how you feel they made you feel and point out initially that you are purely expressing your feelings. If you can find common ground, good and say to them lets develop this. If you cant then it is time to make the break for good and get out into the real world and meet new friends. I know I have said this before to others but I would suggest you join a befriending service for the elderly and I guarantee that if you just be yourself you will soon meet non judgemental people who will seem like the mum and dad you never really had. If you want help in knowing what to say when you meet people then PM me but I think it is such a pity that someone so talented as you is made to feel small and insignificant

I've tried many times AB, but they denied hurting and abusing me and said I was twisted. I have proof that they did abuse me. The memories are enough, as is all the masses of paperwork I have dating back to when I was a mere baby stating everything that happened.

I want to cut all ties with them but I don't want to hurt them. I know that sounds weird but even though many have hurt me, I don't want to hurt them n return.

I have someone who is like a mum to me - well two people really, Nikki and Sheenaugh. I met Sheenaugh in hospital though and as far as I know she is still in there but she called me her adopted daughter whilst I was in there.
Nikki has the same disorders as me and understands me where others have failed to and is never short of a hug or two for me. She's nurturing.

I really don't know about talented AB. I just do what I do because I enjoy it.

xx

frames1_uk

sorry to hear about the police hope you are feeling a bit better?

My day has been spend in bed, day off and I hate days off, with no one to share them with and nothing to do, so I do... nothing.

I'm going out tonight with a work colleague, I was going to get out of it (as I usually do, antisocial beyond belief, I am), and I thought my on off boyfriend was going to come over (2 hours away) cos he's not working, but he told me the other day that he now may come on Saturday instead, so I thought sod it, I'm going out, see what that brings. Trouble is they don't go out til late, so not til about half 9, at which time I would usually be thinking about settling down to sleep!

Tulip

LadyMorticia wrote: »

The police came around this evening for the 3rd time in 3 weeks!

First time was with the ambulance after my suicide attempt, second time the police got the wrong house (they wanted next door) and this time they came around because someone had raised concerns about my mental state.

I am such a screw up.

xx

:hello: Anni,

You are not a screw up,not at all,I am sorry to hear the police came round tonight to see you.

*hugs*

Katie

LadyMorticia

Tulip wrote: »

:hello: Anni,

You are not a screw up,not at all,I am sorry to hear the police came round tonight to see you.

*hugs*

Katie

I feel it, darl.lol.

I'm trying to see the positive in the police coming around.....so far the only positive is that one of them was quite good looking so that's my Friday evening totty all sorted out. :rotfl:

xx

LadyMorticia

You talk a lot of sense AB.
And never fail to amuse me.lol.

xx

shazrobo

LadyMorticia wrote: »

The police came around this evening for the 3rd time in 3 weeks!

First time was with the ambulance after my suicide attempt, second time the police got the wrong house (they wanted next door) and this time they came around because someone had raised concerns about my mental state.

I am such a screw up.

xx

you are not a screw up hun, its good that people care enough to raise concerns
hugs
shaz xxx

LadyMorticia

Yeah, but sometimes I wish they'd leave me to get on with it.lol.

They all keep insisting I talk to them....like what can they do? They can't do anything so now I give up on talking because they all just sit there and nod silently in a condescending manner anyway.