Depression Support Thread

LadyMorticia

Heya Jackie. I've heard of being an empath. I've read up on it and it sounds so much like me too.


Rant Ahead (Be Warned)

I am so !!!!ed off and upset right now. My birthday is in 8 days and you know I was meant to be seeing Gemma the weekend after my birthday? Well now she says she doesn't think she can make it. Just great! This is the third time she has let me down now, and you know what? I'm done. I give up. I can't keep making plans and putting things on hold for other people. I'm always there for her, and everyone else for that matter. Is she there for me, no. Even with my relationship with Sam, she's too wrapped up in her own jealousy to want me to be happy. I really can't do it anymore.
So this is a birthday alone. Even with my other birthdays I've been with people and they've all been ruined, but at least I wasn't alone. This year I am all alone. I was really looking forward to this, but I am let down once again. This is why I don't rely on people. I am a damn good friend to Gemma. Sam says I am. Emz says I am. Sam says that Gemma isn't a good friend to me. I'm always there for her constantly but I know that she wouldn't do the same for me.
I give up.

On the plus side seeing Sam in two and a half weeks or so.

xx

Tiff_2

Tiff xxx

Tulip

*hugs* Anni,oh I am so sorry to hear you will be alone on your birthday,thats not right at all,I am surprised at Gemma,she could have tried to see you on your birthday.

Shame you have to wait a bit to see Sam but it will be worth it Anni as it will be nearer to christmas so that will be nice,So cold tonight so have got heating on for a bit to get warm.

love and light,

Katie xxx

Tulip

I am off now,

chat tomorrow

Night! Night!


love and light,

Katie xxx

Tiff_2

Hi guys!

Much Love,
Tiff xxx

absolutebounder

LadyMorticia wrote: »

I'll have to wait three weeks for a hug. =/

I could drive up and give you a hug but id probably end up sharing a cell with garry glitter.

Apart from that, feeling very fragile and really don't know if I have the energy to fight the system anymore.
Let's face it, if I could do this alone, I would have got better years ago. =/
But alas, no matter.

xx

You do have the resources to do it all alone. you might not realise it but you do. Others can be supporting but they cant actually deal with your problems. also the trouble with relying on help is that if it is given it is only what you expected if for any reason it isnt then you feel let down. so help from others is at best neutral and at worst negative. It is far more empowering to sort things out yourself and then any help is a bonus.

Tiff_2

Hi guys!
I hope all is as well as it can be peeps.

It's a bit of a mess at Tiff Towers right now so I'm not sure what kind of Tiffing you're gonna get at the moment - so don't say I didn't tell you.

Tiffbits!
sazzy - how are you angel? I just wanted to wish you good luck with your counselling tonight saz. I'd just like to let everyone know that this has nothing to do with her and our gilly-badgie becoming a couple - nope, she was already a scatty sazzy long before that happened! I'm so happy for you both sazzy; it seems as though you're both wonderfully happy together and long may it continue.

meyore - hi sweetie. You always seem to pop back at the quiet bits! Sorry I missed you hunnie - how are you? This thread is one of those where it's bursting at the seams or in a bit of a recovery lull. Either that or everyone except me has been cured! Also, the slow down on posts can be affected by the busy lives of some peeps, or due to the fact that they're going through their own crisis. It usually starts to get busy again about now and in my humble opinion, I think this thread still has a lot to offer. It's good to see you posting meyore.

katie-tulip - how are you katie? I'm hoping you and your parents have all recovered from that bug by now. What exciting plans await you today hunnie? It's good that you're such a busy bunnie. I enjoy hearing about your adventures. Look after yourself angel.
lm- I'm so happy that you and sam have become a match! You wouldn't have even dreamed of that a few weeks ago, angel - it just goes to prove that we don't know all the journeys we might have ahead of us. I'm sorry that he can't make it this week hun but just think of how big those hugs are going to be when you see each other again. Take care sweetie.

shaz - hey hun, how's stuff? You're another one who's been hit in the wotsit by Cupid's arrow. Bless you shaz. You've been through so much and you so deserve this happiness too. Shaz has been, and is, going through so much, but ian looked at her and has seen her for how she is inside and he values her and wants to be with her. He has embraced her teenage twin sons too. See peeps, there really are still good guys out there. Thinking of you shaz.
mac - hey angel - it has been a long time! Of course you've not been forgotten mac - the Tiffster remembers you well! It's really good to hear from you sweetheart and I promise to return with a more worthy post as soon as I can. Thinking of you.

miro - sweetheart, wherever you are, I hope you're safe. I miss you. Again angel, I'll be back with a longer proper post for you too. I hope you can see how much you mean to everybody here, miro. Keeping you in my thoughts hunnie.

Again, sorry for the state of posting guys.
Big hugs also going out to gem, ilgd, ccstar, beth, shazza and to the rest of the clan, wherever you may be.

Be kind to yourselves guys and safe journeys to all.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

beachbeth

Hope everyone is ok this morning. Sorry to hear you have been let down, LadyM. I have had 'friends' like this. You do everything for them and then they're not there for you.

If you are going to be on your own then plan a lovely day for yourself with a few treats. For me I would go to certain shops that I like looking round at Christmas (even if its just window shopping). I love the supermarkets at Christmas with all their gifts. Or perhaps you would like to go to the cinema? Its dark in there so it doesn't matter if you're on your own. A nice cappucino and a cream cake could be something to look forward to as well. This is what I would do - just plan a lovely, relaxing self indulgent day doing what you like doing best and then tell us all about it afterwards. Plan something nice for when Sam comes too.

beachbeth

Im looking forward to Christmas but feeling guilty at the same time. My parents haven't got anyone coming for dinner this year. One brother takes it in turns to go to our parents and then to his wife's parents each year and its his wife's turn this year. Another brother always stays at home with his wife's relatives. We always have my hubby's sister and her family and we all love it. Hubby does most of the cooking and other people chip in to help so Im not stuck in the kitchen by myself or anything. Its great.

However, I get the feeling my mum would like us to go round to hers for a change. I just don't want to because she just gripes at everyone and it wouldn't be fun. I can't invite her and dad to mine because then my hubby's family wouldn't come because they know what she's like. Even if they did still come my mum would be picking fault with everyone and it would spoil it. I feel so bad though that they're on their own but really its my mum's fault for alienating everyone over the years.

The other day she said she wasn't going to bother much with Christmas and wasn't even putting her tree up this year. I don't know if she's saying it to hint at me or make me feel guilty. Christmas can be difficult sometimes.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Morning! hope all is well,I am fine today going to relax today too,do a bit of cleaning of my flat which it needs


*hugs* to those that need one


love and light,

Katie xxx