Depression Support Thread

Horasio

Had a mixed time recently

Went to my old home town last week and remember why I left the area, thankfully it is better where I am now. It did make me feel blue and down for a few days tho. Some councils are absolute facists in the UK.

Sorted out the Christmas stuff now and feel very organised.

I am always scared to say when things are going well because it is usually followed by a major incident that throws things off centre again. I would love us to have a good regular income and be able to settle in a home for a few years. We move house far too much but in a way it is a good thing as our life keeps changing and we need to adapt.

We went to a residents association meeting yesterday with my mother and remember why we don't like flats. Too many unruly tenants which upset the owners who live there. Noise and bad behaviour really blights a place and we had enough of that in Scotland!

Our son is having trouble with bank charges and my mother is on a crusade to get justice. Thankfully this forum is a good source of advice in that area.

Our son came round to get some stuff and he seems a lot better and showing signs of growing up, he's given up smoking (fingers x'd). His anorexic neighbour died in hospital - I was shocked, she was only 43. She was a character and a ballet dancer who was anorexic since she was 13.

Hope everyone keeps warm this weekend - it is going to be a cold one!

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

The Hospital appointment went well,I have opted for Nail Surgery but that wont be done until 2nd week of January ish as I am off to London on 6th-7th January.Mum is proud of me for going there by myself,I will have Mum coming to the next one though as I will need some support.Took prizes to daycentre ready for the raffle and now on here at the daycentre until its time to leave for the pub.

*hugs* CCStar

Chat later


love and light,

Katie xx

pinkbubblegum

feeling sad, just wana lie with someone and have them hold me

pathetic...? probably

jackieb

drinkupretty wrote: »

I know this is a money saving with depression type thread but I would like some advice with regards to seeking help.
I obsess about death a lot, not in the gothic romanticism way but in the panic attacks unable to sleep oh !!!! one day I will be no more kind of way. I have unwanted thoughts, images in my head of my Dad being dead and my dog dying of neglect because Dad lives on his own now and he could be dead for a few days and no one would know. I live several miles away and we phone each other once every couple of weeks, and I can only visit during holidays.
Some may say, watching your Mum die may have triggered you; no I have been like this since I was 6. It used to manifest itself in OCD back then, I used to have to wish that myself and everyone I loved wouldn't die, out loud 100 times before I would go to sleep every night, I can't remember how long I did this for, years I think. I refused to ever say the phrase "cross my heart and hope to die" because I don't hope to die.
The odd thing is though even with this major anxiety I have been suicidal, contradiction I know, I guess I just wanted peace and quiet from my head full of anxiety and neuroses.
My problems get particularly bad this time of year, especially when I am lying in bed. I have been sleeping a lot, normally I will sleep 8-9 hours recently I have been sleeping 13-14 hours and am still really lethargic. I am in my final year at uni I need to get things done yet this week I have barely made it out of bed. I once tried to speak to a doctor about how I was feeling, she seemed to have no patience for me and told me "It could be worse you could have lost an arm" and suggested I go find religion. It took me so long to build up the courage to go and ask for help I don't know if I can do it ever again it took me long enough to open up in a non face-to-face sense. I don't know if I could find the words and I hate crying in front of anyone.

I'm so sorry you had an unsympathetic doctor. Please do try and find another one though. Is there anyone at uni that you could talk to? Guidance or something? I'm an uneducated oik so I don't know the ins and outs of life at university but i'm sure there must be someone.
I used to obsess about people close to me dying but I seemed to have grown out of it. I used to worry about what life would be like after I was dead (in the world in general - I don't mean an afterlife ), and hated thinking about any time too far in the future. Then I thought to myself that I didn't worry about what life was like before I was born. I knew no better. I figured it would be like that after I was gone. I'd be none the wiser.
Sorry, if this doesn't make much sense to you - but it was my own way of coping.
I try to only watch things or read things that make me happy or cheer me up (hence the big Disney DVD collection lol). Nothing morose or scary. Not too much news on TV and i've stopped reading newspapers.

jackieb

pinkbubblegum wrote: »

feeling sad, just wana lie with someone and have them hold me

pathetic...? probably

Not at all. :grouphug:

pinkbubblegum

someone wants sex... apparently meeting him now wud end badly...

jackieb

Don't go hun. It's not a good idea. xx

pinkbubblegum

might cheer me up tho

98jdougl

would be a short term fix tho with more long term problems than benefits

pinkbubblegum

i made a sensible decision... stayed at home... dint meet him... clever me