Depression Support Thread

LadyMorticia

shazrobo wrote: »

well tonight has ended on a real high,crying tears of happiness
shaz x

Ooo. That's great to hear!

Do I have to prod you for details? :rotfl: Just kidding hun. ((((hugs))))

xx

absolutebounder

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Ooo. That's great to hear!

Do I have to prod you for details? :rotfl: Just kidding hun. ((((hugs))))

xx

Sounds like she has already had a prod:D

LadyMorticia

absolutebounder wrote: »

Sounds like she has already had a prod:D

*chokes on tea*

shazrobo

hi anni, sounds like you and sam are a good match, i'm really happy for you, that you have someone who you can trust, and open up and talk about things to. shame on the mental health services for giving up on you, and well done you for having the strength, and courage to keep on fighting, you will get better hun, i have every faith in you
hugs
shaz xxx

shazrobo

i also choked on my cuppa :rotfl:

ian rang me tonight, just to tell me he loves me
shaz x

LadyMorticia

shazrobo wrote: »

i also choked on my cuppa :rotfl:

ian rang me tonight, just to tell me he loves me
shaz x

Awwwww! That is so lovely.

shazrobo

right time for bed for me, to be up early as usual in morn to see son off to school
night night
shaz xxx

LadyMorticia

shazrobo wrote: »

hi anni, sounds like you and sam are a good match, i'm really happy for you, that you have someone who you can trust, and open up and talk about things to. shame on the mental health services for giving up on you, and well done you for having the strength, and courage to keep on fighting, you will get better hun, i have every faith in you
hugs
shaz xxx

I think we compliment eachother.lol. He's so lovely. When we're out, he puts his arm around me. He makes me feel safe. He's the first guy I've gone out with since things with "he who shall not be named". But I know that Sam would never hurt me - not on purpose anyway.lol.
I listed all my flaws earlier and he said "Sorry. I thought you said flaws?" :rotfl: It's nice that he loves me for my imperfections and not inspite of them. I just want to let him know what he's in for. I'm easy to get along with, but I also have mood swings, where I'm happy one moment and then crying the next. He said he understands that and loves me all the same. He said that he's proud to call me his girlfriend and he's so lucky. I really have a good feeling about this relationship, and I don't get good feelings unless I'm almost certain.lol.

Nikki says I should complain about the mental health team as they have diagnosed me but are refusing to help me. Don't know if I have the strength at the moment to be honest. We'll see.

I know I'll get better eventually. I have to. There are so many things I want to do. I want to get married and have children. I want to really make an impact with my photography. I want to have my own book published. :rotfl: So many things. Sometimes I think I have too much ambition. =/

xx

LadyMorticia

Night night Shaz.

xx

Miroslav

shazrobo wrote: »

miro, not every girl is after a man's wallet, far from it, i like to pay my own way, when ian lets me, which isnt often. nobody is too good for you, dont put yourself down, when you least expect it someone nice will come along. being big, dosent frighten all women off, some women like bigger/taller men to look after them. my fella is tall, and big built, but is a real softie at heart, and its whats inside that counts.

Well, whatever it is women want, it's not me

I've been awake all night. Can't sleep and i've been making decisions.

I just can't do it anymore. No-one can accuse me of not trying down the years. I've done everything from trying new relationships to all kinds of jobs and nothing works.

I mean, it was hard after my partner died, but I had the strength as I knew my daughter would really need me one day, but when she died, I just about stopped living. What is the point of just being here and not living? If anyone can move on from their partner and child dying, they are a better person than me, because I can't do it and no-one has ever helped me do it. Even professionals have told me to 'get over it'. Makes me want them to lose everything they have loved, so I can tell them to 'get over it'.

I have no real family to speak of and the only friends I have are self centered and demanding, so i'm not leaving anyone behind that will miss me for who I am, just those who want me to sort out their bills etc etc.

I've lost the fight and believe that someone else will survive this world a little longer in my place.

No-one listens to anything I say anymore. I'm often ignored and dismissed. Flatmate is self centered, GP's think I can't possibly be unwell and people like the Job Centre would sooner see me dead than on their books ruining their statistics. I've tried doing charity work and the lack of care people really have for the charities they work for is shocking.

I have no money (debts), i'm not exactly Brad Pitt, no family and I have a history of depression and I can't get over my losses. I'm not exactly suitable for a materialistic world.

Thanks to all those who have posted down the years. I won't mention names, i'll forget someone and offend them, but all the supportive posts have been appreciated, especially when I was having my relationship with 'S', if there are many people who remember that. I can't believe that was 2 years ago!

I've a few loose ends to tie up, which shouldn't take too long, and then i'm out.

I genuinely wish you all well for the future. Anyone who has depression deserves a good future. It's not something that anyone who has never had, can explain or fully understand what it can do to you.

I know i'll be criticised and accused of many things, but it doesn't matter now. It's not about the apparent rejection by this lady, it's just been building up for many years, and this latest rejection is the final straw. She is too good for me. Well spoken, well educated, soft, gentle etc etc - not the usual gobby opinionated commoner i'm used too :rolleyes: I think it's time I made the attempt to go and be with my partner and daughter in another world. I have to be with them again, and hope that is where I end up. I wish I could phone up a hotline and find out and then come back and tell you all what the new place is like. I can't even describe what life has been like without them all these years, it really can't be put into words.

For those who have loved ones - look after them. It's a cruel world. Don't accept anything below the high standards you set - don't accept people who waste your time, they'll let you down eventually and you should surround yourself with only the very best.

I had so much more to say, but i'm tired and have no energy anymore. Everything is such a chore.

Shaz - Best of luck with Ian. You deserve some success. I'm glad things are looking up for you and I hope it continues.

Miro