Depression Support Thread

Miroslav

gillette147 wrote: »

Hello folks,

It's been a while. There came a time when I needed to get out into the real world more and MSE is far too addictive. This was always the greatest part of MSE and I was sorry to leave it.

I have just popped in to give you all a hug and let you know that I am doing great. I have lost nearly 3 stone in weight. I have been going out with gorgeous Sazbo for 3 months now. Each day with her is wonderful and my life has changed (FOR THE BETTER) forever.

I never thought I would find happiness but I was always open to it. This is the key. Stay ready for it. MSE will save us all. I always believed it and maybe it has in my case.

Take care of yourselves and remember that the critical voice in your head cannot be heard by anyone else. Ignore it and it doesn't exist.
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Nice to see you posting :T

Glad things are going well for you and Sazbo!

Well done on losing the weight and finding the world with Saz.

Let's hope it will be me one day

LadyMorticia

Good evening.

How are you all? Hope you're all well.

Nothing much to report. Still trying to sort birthday plans out.lol.

xx

pinkbubblegum

kinda has all gone wrong, i have left uni and gone home...

thats all i wana say right now

absolutebounder

Miroslav wrote: »

Old is the correct word Runs around like a kitten though

Ours is 15 but can still draw blood in an instant when wound up:rotfl:

I've lived with women most of my life. All different and all say one thing and do another :eek:

Many do thats the joy you have when you are in the dog house and she says everything is fine:rolleyes: then bursts into tears and you are still none the wiser:D

I just ignored the woman and turned away and started talking to someone else. If she was going to ignore me, I couldn't ignore her as she wasn't attempting to talk to me.

You should have asked if she was ignoring you

I've no trouble being a man. I've been told many times, I'm a man, sometimes too abrupt, but in the main caring. Apparently I look like someone not to mess with which can frighten people off. I just have no time to be messed around by anyone and if it's her game, then she's lost the game. I'm very straightforward and like others to be too, especially in a relationship sense.

I've been told she probably likes me but feels awkward and ignoring someone isn't always a rejection, but also fear and shyness etc etc.

True but when both are shy they often mis read signals

Sadly, she just left me feeling ignored and believing she felt she was too good for me.

Why should she be too good for you?

On a positive note - her loss more than mine. I feel I have a lot to give, as long as it's not financially, which sadly rules alot of things out.

The one bit there at the end might be a problem as size matters to women or at least a big wallet certainly helps. ive seen many an old sweaty ugly bloke with plenty of money and a stunner on his arm.
Women may like kindness but they also like to be taken out. look how happy shaz is with her bloke taking her in the back row of the cinema:rotfl:

Miroslav

Oh yes, cats are quick little !!!!!!s!

I nearly said something, but I didn't want to upset her. She comes across as quite sensitive and shy, so upsetting her wouldn't have made me popular

I think she is shy, she's certainly quiet and softly spoken.

I think all women are too good for me, especially soft, gentle and well spoken ones.

I can take a girl out, that's not such an issue, as I don't spend much on myself. Just as long as it's not every night If she wanted to go to the cinema, I could do that easily, but I think she likes to work, go home, work, go home etc etc. She'd rather read a book than go out.

I've done the whole 'pay for everything' too many times and they end up just using you, so i've no time for time wasters anymore.

I guess i'm not cut out for women

98jdougl

hey all sorry i aint been on much. busy working... feeling really fatigued just now, not sure if its the depression kicking in or just illness. was meant to go out monday night but after work just couldnt manage it, today was my day off slept til 10, went back to sleep at half 1, woke up at 5 and am already tired again
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shazrobo

evening all,
gillette, good to hear things going well with you and sazzy, and well done on the weight loss

miro, not every girl is after a man's wallet, far from it, i like to pay my own way, when ian lets me, which isnt often. nobody is too good for you, dont put yourself down, when you least expect it someone nice will come along. being big, dosent frighten all women off, some women like bigger/taller men to look after them. my fella is tall, and big built, but is a real softie at heart, and its whats inside that counts.

am feeling a little fed up today, been looking for a new car, but nothing suitable in my price range. trouble is i', over 6 foot tall, so i need to put the seats far back to drive, and then there no room in back for two teenagers, and there big feet, feeling like i always have to do with out for kids, never been on hols without them, never been abroad cos of them, etc etc, soz for moan, just feel that way today
life like a rollercoaster at mo, sometimes so high, and others so low.
hopefullt tomoz will be better day, as seeing ian in morn, cant help but smile around him, he tickles me a lot too, and also we going out tommorrow night, bowling for a change

scouserwench, welcome to the thread, please feel free to post as much, or as little as you feel comfortable with, everyone here is really nice and friendly

hugs all
shaz xxx

Tulip

I am off now,

chat tomorrow

Night! Night!

love and light,

Katie xxx

shazrobo

well tonight has ended on a real high,crying tears of happiness
shaz x

LadyMorticia

So great that things are going really well, gillette.

Welcome to the thread scouserwrench.

Broke down in tears to Sam on webcam earlier. =/ He's the only person who can make me laugh when I'm sobbing my heart out.lol. I have come to the conclusion that talking about things will help me to come to terms with them and get over them. However, at the the time it feels horrible, but I know it's better in the long run. =/
Sam says to talk to him about stuff. I feel comfortable talking to him - more so than my support and project workers. I think it's because it's like they assume I am damaged and need to be fixed. I am not damaged - I merely have emotional and physical wounds that have healed and ones that are still healing. I don't need to be fixed. I just need to be understood.
It's like with my ED. So many people think an eating disorder is about food, but it's not - not really. Sam understands that it's about my distorted view of myself, and about other things amongst that. I know that I will never be fully cured of my ED. When I get a bit better, I could relapse at any time, but it's about managing the thoughts if I do.I've been like this for way too many years. It's ruined my childhood and my adolescence, and now it's starting to ruin my adulthood. This has been almost 13 years of hell. Most 9 year olds are out having fun, enjoying food, and love life. I was obsessing over food, obsessing over how hideous I was and obsessing over my weight. That's how it's been since then. 13 years of obsession. 13 years of self hatred and 13 years of a living hell.
Sam says that it hurts him to see what I do myself. He says that he wants to help me get better. It's going to be a long haul. They'll be tears, I will break down, and I will feel like I can't take it, but I won't give up.
My doctor isn't helping me anymore, and I have been refused help from the mental health team because I have had "too much" help in the past. They say that because I have been like this for so long, the chances of me getting better are minimal. Nice to know that people think I'm a lost cause, ay?
Well, I'm not. No matter what they say. I'm not.

I'm thinking about moving next year. A new start, a clean slate, and a new area where nobody knows me or what I've been through. Where I can be free. It's not running away. It's being stong enough to let go and leave those who have hurt me behind.

Sorry for the long post. I'm happy, yet sad, I feel strong, but yet so weak. It's like all my emotions are contradicting one another.

xx