Depression Support Thread

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope all is well,I am fine today,Dad came to see me and I said I felt low so went to their house for lunch and instantly felt better for going there Sorry you got an abusive pm Qb hope you reported it to Abuse,I would have done if someone had sent one to me *hugs*

Just relaxing now after doing a quick vaccumming of my bedroom,hall and lounge so feel better for that


love and light,

Katie xxx

Tulip

I am off now

chat tomorrow

Night! Night!


love and light,

Katie xxx

queensway_boy

Not seen antronella for ages now

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Morning! hope you are all ok I am fine,off to mums for lunch as usual got up as the postman woke me but it was worth it as I had some good post two parcels

One was a book I am reviewing and the other was a win of Ambre Solaire sensitive protection milk for when I am out in the sun and they sent me 3 bottles so that will last me for quite some time and I had just run out of sun protection so that came just in time

*hugs*

Have a lovely day everyone

love and light,

Katie xxx

LadyMorticia

So, there I was looking on the Emis website to book my next doctors appointment when I noticed that by my doctor's name it no longer says "GP Registrar" but now says "Principal". Principals usually buy into the surgery they work at (or so I read) which in effect means that my GP is now permanent at the surgery. Woo!

In other news, the reason I haven't been around that much is because this month is the anniversary of my best friend's death and it always hits me hard, even though it happened 12 years ago.
I've been trying to struggle with it alone but this year it has hit me harder than any other year. I'm not sure why it still upsets me to be honest. After all, 12 years have past and that should have been enough time to get over it, or at least lessen the pain but I think that maybe it hurts more now because I understand it better. I was only 8 at the time and naive. None of the "professionals" who have been involved with me know about it. Only the members here and Emlyn know about it.

Anyway, I just wanted to say sorry if I've been clamming up or have come across as cold and heartless. I'm not really. I just find it so hard to deal with things sometimes so may come across like that when that is not what I'm trying to be.

I'm thinking of maybe talking to my doctor about it? I've been secluding and isolating myself because I really cannot face the outside world at the moment. I feel like I have to put this facade on of "I'm fine" etc and when I cannot pretend that I am okay, I lock myself away so that nobody knows. It's stupid really.

Anyway, just wanted to say sorry.

xx

absolutebounder

Tulip wrote: »

:hello: Everyone,

One was a book I am reviewing and the other was a win of Ambre Solaire sensitive protection milk for when I am out in the sun and they sent me 3 bottles so that will last me for quite some time and I had just run out of sun protection so that came just in time

*hugs*

Have a lovely day everyone

love and light,

Katie xxx

Well done. Pity you cant win some sun for Devon. If things carry on the way the weather has this year it will last you a long time:rotfl:

shazrobo

LadyMorticia wrote: »

So, there I was looking on the Emis website to book my next doctors appointment when I noticed that by my doctor's name it no longer says "GP Registrar" but now says "Principal". Principals usually buy into the surgery they work at (or so I read) which in effect means that my GP is now permanent at the surgery. Woo!

In other news, the reason I haven't been around that much is because this month is the anniversary of my best friend's death and it always hits me hard, even though it happened 12 years ago.
I've been trying to struggle with it alone but this year it has hit me harder than any other year. I'm not sure why it still upsets me to be honest. After all, 12 years have past and that should have been enough time to get over it, or at least lessen the pain but I think that maybe it hurts more now because I understand it better. I was only 8 at the time and naive. None of the "professionals" who have been involved with me know about it. Only the members here and Emlyn know about it.

Anyway, I just wanted to say sorry if I've been clamming up or have come across as cold and heartless. I'm not really. I just find it so hard to deal with things sometimes so may come across like that when that is not what I'm trying to be.

I'm thinking of maybe talking to my doctor about it? I've been secluding and isolating myself because I really cannot face the outside world at the moment. I feel like I have to put this facade on of "I'm fine" etc and when I cannot pretend that I am okay, I lock myself away so that nobody knows. It's stupid really.

Anyway, just wanted to say sorry.

xx

hi anni(((big hugs))), and no need to apologise hun, we unde3rstand we all have our ups and downs.
personally i think you should talk to your doctor about it, especially as you seem to be able to talk and get on well with her.
the worst thing that you can do is isolate yourself and pretend everything is fine. i learned the hard way after isolating myself for almost 13 years, finally i can see a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel. i go out once a week with my support worker now, and attend the day centre twice most weeks, and i really believe the support i have from both of these is helping me onto the road to recovery.
also today i have had an appointment with community link, where we discussed me being allocated a key worker, who will accompany me to activities outside the day centre and in the big wide world, ok not so far, but in the local area, so i do not become too dependant on the day centre, little steps.
big hugs
shaz xxx

LadyMorticia

Heya Shaz.

I just get so frustrated at myself. I've had mental health problems for 10 years now but I've never been this bad. I used to have so many friends and used to go out and just have fun. I used to go clubbing (okay, so I didn't like it that much as I hate the atmosphere of these places but it still got me out). I used to go to hunts.mind twice a week religiously and get involved. I used to be so different. Now, I just don't know who or what I am and I haven't been to hunts.mind in a couple of weeks because I don't feel like I'm wanted there anyway. Sometimes I don't know who my friends are. I haven't been in touch with a few people for a couple of months and I haven't had one text or email asking if I'm okay. It doesn't bother me but it would be nice, you know?

I feel like I'm going out of my mind. Sometimes I don't know if what I see and hear is real, or if it isn't. Kind of a bit like Abra in Holby, but not to that extent.

I think I will talk to my doctor but the last time I opened up I burst out crying, and that was very embarrassing. I usually do such a good at holding it in.

I just feel like a failure most of the time.

xx

Tulip

absolutebounder wrote: »

Well done. Pity you cant win some sun for Devon. If things carry on the way the weather has this year it will last you a long time:rotfl:

:rotfl: true

Tulip

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Heya Shaz.

I just get so frustrated at myself. I've had mental health problems for 10 years now but I've never been this bad. I used to have so many friends and used to go out and just have fun. I used to go clubbing (okay, so I didn't like it that much as I hate the atmosphere of these places but it still got me out). I used to go to hunts.mind twice a week religiously and get involved. I used to be so different. Now, I just don't know who or what I am and I haven't been to hunts.mind in a couple of weeks because I don't feel like I'm wanted there anyway. Sometimes I don't know who my friends are. I haven't been in touch with a few people for a couple of months and I haven't had one text or email asking if I'm okay. It doesn't bother me but it would be nice, you know?

I feel like I'm going out of my mind. Sometimes I don't know if what I see and hear is real, or if it isn't. Kind of a bit like Abra in Holby, but not to that extent.

I think I will talk to my doctor but the last time I opened up I burst out crying, and that was very embarrassing. I usually do such a good at holding it in.

I just feel like a failure most of the time.

xx

:hello: Anni,

Now You are not a Failure you are a great person,I have told you this before as you know,we care about you on here,It is sad that your friends didnt e-mail you to check you were ok,but I did say on here that I hoped you were fine I care about my friends just as they do for me

I am relaxing tonight before bed as I am so shattered,off out tomorrow for lunch with friends and then seeing my CPN at 4pm

When I was really down I used to say to Mum and Dad I am a failure and they told me I wasnt,that I have a great social life and I am happy with my friends and eventually I knew they were right and that I wasnt a failure after all,I hadnt believed in myself that I could do the right things,that everything I did was wrong etc but now I am much more confident and happy about stuff and I now dont label myself a failure anymore.

*hugs*

love and light,

Katie xxx