Depression Support Thread

LadyMorticia

I managed to go out today. Just to the Co-Op though as I needed to put some money on the gas and electricity meters.
Why is it that is always starts to rain whenever I step out of the door? Sod's law! lol.

Not doing much today. Feeling very fragile. Ordered some new bathroom scales from Argos. They're electronic ones so hopefully they'll be more accurate than the doctors scales I have as my poor eyesight means I find it hard to decipher the lines.lol.

I'm weird. Normal people treat themselves by buying clothes or having a girly day etc. I treat myself by buying scales.
My doctor says it's to do with my disorder. Hmm.

I managed to copy all of my songs from my Ipod to my laptop. It didn't actually take as long as I thought it would.

xx

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope you are all ok,I am fine,had a nice Roast meal out with friends at a pub called The Fox,going there again next week too until the centre I go to has finished being refitted Done my usual shop at Asda as well,I got Two multipack of Walkers 21 crisps for £2.00 as it was £1 a pack so felt it was a bargain Normally its £3.38 a pack for 21 of them

having Scotch egg and coleslaw tonight for tea,Got my CPN in a few minutes so just waiting for her to arrive


*hugs*

love and light,

Katie xxx

feelinggood_2

Hi All.

I'm struggling today. Anxiety has been bad since Saturday night, and its really wearing me down.

Had yet another assessment today. The only thing they can offer me is group art therapy, possibly, if it goes ahead.

I'm so fed up of not getting help. They want me back on the meds I just stopped because I couldn't tolerate the side-effects.

DBT - no, thats full, can't even be put on the two year waiting list.
CBT - no, there isn't a therapist, you can't have that.
Pyschotherapy - no, you are a self-harmer and no stable enough
Counselling - wouldn't be beneficial, no decent counsellor will take me on without Pyschs approval, which she won't give.
Eating Disorder Service - read this book and try not to gain weight. Your problems are too complicated for us.

So basically, take this medication which means you can't learn to drive (the only thing that you actually want to do anymore) and wait and hope things improve.

What am I supposed to do?!

shazrobo

feelinggood wrote: »

Hi All.

I'm struggling today. Anxiety has been bad since Saturday night, and its really wearing me down.

Had yet another assessment today. The only thing they can offer me is group art therapy, possibly, if it goes ahead.

I'm so fed up of not getting help. They want me back on the meds I just stopped because I couldn't tolerate the side-effects.

DBT - no, thats full, can't even be put on the two year waiting list.
CBT - no, there isn't a therapist, you can't have that.
Pyschotherapy - no, you are a self-harmer and no stable enough
Counselling - wouldn't be beneficial, no decent counsellor will take me on without Pyschs approval, which she won't give.
Eating Disorder Service - read this book and try not to gain weight. Your problems are too complicated for us.

So basically, take this medication which means you can't learn to drive (the only thing that you actually want to do anymore) and wait and hope things improve.

What am I supposed to do?!

((( big hugs ))) feelie, hope the group art therapy goes ahead for you, as even tho you might not think it now, it will help you lots, i started group therapy last year, doing woodwork, and it helped me a lot, took my mind off things for a while, got me out of the house, helped my concentration, felt like i had something in my life for me, other than just meeting sons needs.
is there any other meds u could try, as not all suit everyone
hugs
shaz xxx

shazrobo

hi katie, the meal at the pub sounded nice. that was a good offer on the crisps too, never walk down that ailse, so i miss all the good offers:o
hope all goes well with the cpn
big hugs shaz
xxx

feelinggood_2

shazrobo wrote: »

((( big hugs ))) feelie, hope the group art therapy goes ahead for you, as even tho you might not think it now, it will help you lots, i started group therapy last year, doing woodwork, and it helped me a lot, took my mind off things for a while, got me out of the house, helped my concentration, felt like i had something in my life for me, other than just meeting sons needs.
is there any other meds u could try, as not all suit everyone
hugs
shaz xxx

I'm going to try and ask for a change in meds. She mentioned a while ago how there isn't that many they can try - um, there are loads, so why they can't keep trying till something works I don't know! These ones help with the self-harming, but only because I'm asleep. Grr!

LadyMorticia

Just registered to do a Certificate in Social Sciences with the OU.

absolutebounder

feelinggood wrote: »

Hi All.

I'm struggling today. Anxiety has been bad since Saturday night, and its really wearing me down.

Had yet another assessment today. The only thing they can offer me is group art therapy, possibly, if it goes ahead.

I'm so fed up of not getting help. They want me back on the meds I just stopped because I couldn't tolerate the side-effects.

DBT - no, thats full, can't even be put on the two year waiting list.
CBT - no, there isn't a therapist, you can't have that.
Pyschotherapy - no, you are a self-harmer and no stable enough
Counselling - wouldn't be beneficial, no decent counsellor will take me on without Pyschs approval, which she won't give.
Eating Disorder Service - read this book and try not to gain weight. Your problems are too complicated for us.

So basically, take this medication which means you can't learn to drive (the only thing that you actually want to do anymore) and wait and hope things improve.

What am I supposed to do?!

Sorry but it is true that if you are on or needing antipsychotics therapy is almost certain to be declined. Any responsible therapist will want doctors permission.
Meds are the staple diet of the NHS because you get out of their way quickly (well at least in theory). One of the problems with a free NHS is that it has no commitment from the customer. Sad to say but money is the currency of commitment and too often the value of something is what you pay for it.
So what can you do? Firstly sit down take a deep breath and realise that you have to take responsibility for every one of your actions. You have a choice. You can either carry on as you are which doesnt seem to be working too well or you can decide on a change of direction. The best way to do this is model (copy) someone else. Get a plan of action ie do you want to gain friends if so make a point of getting to know the neighbours. Unfortunately there is something in all of us that attracts alike so if you want to say socialise then mix with sociable people. If you want to be a millionaire mix with millionaires.
I think the group art idea could be good as long as they are not all depressed otherwise you will all feed off each other.
The main thing is never try and be someone you are not just be yourself. You always meet the odd idiot but that is all they are.
You have the choice. Carry on down or pull yourself up.
I am sorry if this post is a little blunt but I think honesty is more supportive. People do want to help but it is more difficult when writing on a forum as we dont really know the true feelie:A

feelinggood_2

I've tried the usual managing techniques - friends, exercise, diet etc.

The only thing I want is to not have my mind obsessed with bad things. Not sure how to manage that, and no-one seems to tell me how.

I appreciate your honest AB, and I know you mean well, but you aren't very good at explaining what to do in a basic enough way for me to actually understand and do what you suggest!

absolutebounder

feelinggood wrote: »

I've tried the usual managing techniques - friends, exercise, diet etc.

The only thing I want is to not have my mind obsessed with bad things. Not sure how to manage that, and no-one seems to tell me how.

I appreciate your honest AB, and I know you mean well, but you aren't very good at explaining what to do in a basic enough way for me to actually understand and do what you suggest!

I know, but it is not easy to explain on the internet. When with a person I can see from body language how to talk to someone, cant do that here. I am also aware thet what seems easy to one person may be gobbldygook to another because we all have different skills which is why we should never think we are worthless. I have a very good friend who is very poor at reading and so he comes over thick and uneducated but he can p1ss all over most people when it comes to plastering. Look at David Beckham. Not really a sharp tool off the pitch but a genius on it.
I will try and put things in a way you can understand but it might take a little time. So first off is the bad thoughts the worst thing in your life and are these thoughts about yourself. If you dont wish to say here use the pm.