Depression Support Thread

septemberblues

Aaw fanks alba, I thought I was the only person who got soooo stressed before any appointments, when I go to the psychotherapist I can't sleep the night before, feel sick in the morning and go in the room totally stressed out! Unfortunately when I am stressed I need to pace, or rip things, or chew gum (vigourously!), or I keep rubbing my eyebrows (weird) - all helping to give the impression I am totally unstable and about to do something unpredictable................................:o (which I'm not, I'm typical reserved Brit!)

feelinggood_2

Has anyone had experience of having Pyschotherapy while 'unstable'? My Pysch won't refer me due to my self-harmiing and overdosing, but my OH has found a therapist locally and is wondering if I should go for it.

feelinggood_2

The problem with work (paid or unpaid) is that I live 2 miles from anywhere and I'm not really in very good shape, so cannot really walk.

OH just wants me to do something - I was thinking maybe I could get an A-Level or something? Any ideas?

septemberblues

feelinggood wrote: »

Has anyone had experience of having Pyschotherapy while 'unstable'? My Pysch won't refer me due to my self-harmiing and overdosing, but my OH has found a therapist locally and is wondering if I should go for it.

Psychotherapy MAKES you unstable in my opinion, maybe your psych won't refer you as it might just make things a whole lot worse. Have you thought about counselling, it is much gentler.

feelinggood_2

septemberblues wrote: »

Psychotherapy MAKES you unstable in my opinion, maybe your psych won't refer you as it might just make things a whole lot worse. Have you thought about counselling, it is much gentler.

What exactly is counselling, and what would it acheive? I saw a counsellor when I was at school, and if I didn't speak, she didn't. After one 40 minute session with neither of us saying a word, I gave up on it.

LadyMorticia

Ilgd - I definitely count you as a friend. I count everyone as friends here. My dad has hurt me a lot but I'm not going to give into his games. All my life he has played mind games but I'm wise to it now. I don't think he has a conscience.lol. whereas I do which might be why I feel guilty for not sending him a card, or for hurting him because I hate hurting anybody, even if they have hurt me.
I've never needed my parents or any of my family. They are part of the reason I have mental health problems. I'm so glad I'm nothing like them. My dad keeps trying to etch his way back into my life. Maybe he feels like because he lost one daughter, I should be two daughters for him? I don't know but to be honest my half sister wouldn't have ended up being adopted if him and his ex wife hadn't of beaten her up as a baby. It seems child abuse runs in my family. Well I'm going to break the cycle. Sorry for the little rant. Sometimes I get so frustrated at myself but I'm determined to make a difference and prove that I am nothing like my parents. Thanks for looking out for me hun. It means a lot. ****hugs****

SB - Well, where do I start.lol. So much to tell. Hehe. Well Karl is 21, 6ft1 (my neck aches a lot when I look up at him. I'm only 5ft2.lol.). He has dark brown hair and lovely brown eyes. He has just recently had a kidney transplant so he's still quite fragile at the moment but the doctors are pleased with his progress. He gets bullied a lot because of his skin condition. It's like raised lumps on his face. Not acne or anything but like lumps and people bully him because of it and can't see the gorgeous person he is. It hurts him even though he tries to be strong. I know it hurts him but if anyone wants to hurt him they have to get through me first and I'm not as sissy as I look.lol.
He loves rock and metal music. Woohoo! He has a wonderful sense of humour and never fails to make me laugh. He's always there to make me smile. We've had our ups and downs as do most friendships but there's never been a time since I've known him that he hasn't been in my life.
Um...what else....lol. He randomly pokes me...and tickles me....lol....and it kind of hurts as my ribs hurt a lot but secretly I like it, but don't tell him that.lol.

Ooo and did I mention the fact that....he is absolutely gorgeous? Inside and out.

xx

septemberblues

feelinggood wrote: »

What exactly is counselling, and what would it acheive? I saw a counsellor when I was at school, and if I didn't speak, she didn't. After one 40 minute session with neither of us saying a word, I gave up on it.

She was NOT a good counsellor, a good counsellor would keep the conversation going. I think it would need a link to explain the difference between counselling and pyschotherapy (I will look later for one), but I have had both. The counsellor was fantastic, what she did was offer an "alternative" to my behaviour or thinking, I had Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, and I would leave after some sessions with printed info, or a book to have a look at, or a chart to fill in, she was very-proactive.

Psychotherapy is different, I don't know how to explain it! But I'm finding it very tough and have nearly overdosed several times after a harrowing session. She is on the NHS, the counsellor was private.

Maybe if your psych doesn't think psychotherapy is suitable at this moment in time you could find a counsellor who could help you. Possibly if you felt better and didn't SH then the psych would refer you for psychotherapy.

But if you go for counselling I would ask your doctor or psych to recommend a good one, or if you know someone who had a good one. Choose your counsellor well, I could never have a male therapist so I only go to women.

feelinggood, I've got to go walk the dogs now, perhaps we could carry on where we are now if you want to when I come back. xxx

septemberblues

Oh Lady M, he sounds wonderful! People who have suffered often have something special about them, they are more caring and understanding.He sounds lovely, oh i am sooooo going to keep my fingers and toes crossed for you both, I don't know how I'm going to walk or type!:p

But I gotta walk dogs now so I will talk later.

LadyMorticia

:rotfl: SB.
He is certainly special.
I'll keep you all updated on how things go.

xx

Lan

Septemberblues - When I spoke to my G.P before about the weight gain with Citalopram - he never said anything about Sertralin. Might ask.
Feelinggood - When I went to my psychiatrist at the begining, she told me that my not eating was 'self-harming'. But yet she STILL saw me.
I know how everyone feels about going to see them though. I used to be a wreck a couple of days before, then a wreck for a couple of days after. Thats why I stopped going. The new psychiatrist had me explaining everything all over again. It was bad enough doing it the first time! Then the counsellor showed me some papers on relaxation techniques and said, 'what do you think of that?'. I don't know, isn't that what there there to tell me? So you witter on because you don't like to hear silence. Couldn not go back there again. So now all problems that originally made me ill in the first place are still there.
I can feel them at the mo. All the little doubts and feelings of worthlessness. Like you are a burden to everyone. Like you don't want to see anyone.
Dreading tonight. Will i sleep or not? Probably at first, then legs will start and I will be up and down all night. I wake up at the same times every single night. I can't keep going on like this.
Am I stupid for wanting to come of these tablets? I tried holistic methods before, but knowing a bit about the subject, realised only afterwards that all it did was bring everything out that was hidden (which its supposed to do - heal from the inside out).
Help.