Depression Support Thread

Tulip

razorbladekisses wrote: »

Hello all :wave:

meyore Sorry to hear about your Mum. I hope it's nothing serious. How are you hun?

Rose Things seem rather hectic in rosie world. I hope your friend recovers soon. Have you been to visit?

Katie How are you? I missed Holby City yesterday, did you see it?

LM My brothers and I used to go to Butlins when we were little, we used to have a great time

:hello: RBK,

Yes I watched Holby City thanks,it was really good,I think something will happen between Lady Byrne and Eilott,I so hope so as she kissed him on the cheek and he went towards her lips and they broke apart fast as Connie walked in the room.Its on BBCiplayer if you want to catch up

love and light,

Katie xxx

Tulip

I am off now,

chat tomorrow

Night! Night!


love and light,

Katie xxx

Sugar_Coated_Owl

meyore (((HUGS))) I hope she realises that she needs to seek help soon. I assume you've tried to talk to her but she doesn't want to know, right?

I am OK.

katie Thanks for reminding me that I could watch Holby City on iPlayer. I had forgotton I could do that

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Tulip wrote: »

Hi Jen,

I am feeling a bit better thanks,I had been really ill and I had to be at mums for a while to recouperate and now feeling a bit better to cope in my flat again I miss them looking after me but now its me looking after myself again

Katie

hi,

I havent been around for awhile as been so busy and done a lot of thinking etc.

Thats really good that you have the chance to go home and be pampered for a bit and you now feel better able to cope again...

long may it continue!

Jen

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razorbladekisses wrote: »

Hi Jen How are you? It's been raining and windy here all day. Glad you managed to get your washing done

Katie It's great to see you back posting We have really missed you. I hope you're feeling better.

Hi RBK,

How are you?

Ive been away from the boards for a few days - been working on the diss but not getting far at all ... just seems its not meant to be... my back is killing me as all round the base is so tight I can barely bend with all the stress. I also appear to be losing my hair again .... I booked a cut today as it will be less obvious if its more manicured so to speak....

Jen

meyore

razorbladekisses wrote: »

meyore (((HUGS))) I hope she realises that she needs to seek help soon. I assume you've tried to talk to her but she doesn't want to know, right?

Thats the one :rolleyes: Its been 3 weeks since she went to work and shes slowly been getting worse and worse... I wish I could help

Tiff_2

Hi dawny!:hello:
Hey hunnie. I'm sorry I didn't get back to you last night angel. I worried about you after your post and I wanted to post and time just escaped me. I was going to post last night because I knew I'd have time with there being a footie match () on and I lay on the couch juuuuust for a minute...you can guess the rest, , which is why I've been up since 1a.m. Even the insomniacs are asleep! Still, it's peaceful at 2.45 a.m. as I'm typing this and if I'm still awake, then hopefully I'll finish it and post it before you go to work.

dawny wrote:

Gettin ready to go to work. Cried myself to sleep again last night.:(
I just can't take all of this stress. Why can't I just get on with things like everyone else???

You're not well sweetheart and under a lot of stress - you're bound to be feeling this way. And as far as everyone else is concerned sweetheart, well, you have to forget about them. We don't know what goes on behind closed doors dawny and right now, 'everyone else' and their problems aren't important. You'll only make yourself feel worse hun by tormenting yourself thinking about the perfect lives that don't really exist. And I know what you probably mean is that you'd rather be anywhere and anyone than you right now, with your ill health and I can empathise with that one. You're admitting that you're not coping dawny and that's one step closer to getting help you deserve.

dawny wrote:

Hi Tiff

A bit emotional today to be honest. No motivation. I'm starting to have problems sleeping again. :rolleyes: ...

Whoa there lady! What a list of things you have to beat yourself up with there hunnie! And you're doing it on top of being physically and emotionally exhausted too. Tiffy responses...

dawny wrote:

dawny wrote:

I feel bad because my youngest pup has a tick...I feel so bad for not noticing...

- No hun, they're awful things ticks are. But it's just one of those things. You are looking after pup. And besides OH is there to look after pup too. So I'm not allowing you to take the rap for that one!

And I forgot to put the lotto on last night and we would have won a tenner! Never won it before either. Just our luck. Could have been worse though - all of our numbers could have come up!...
- Exactly hun - I know you must have been frustrated but as you said, you'd be kicking yourself a lot harder if all your numbers had come up. Well done for noticing that as it is actually a positive, even if you didn't feel it was one. A lot of us have done that sweetie! You can buy tickets for anything from 1 week upwards to 6 or more weeks in advance, so why not try and buy some that way when you get paid? That way you can mark on the calendar the dates you've bought them for and not forget, if you really want to play. And again, OH is there too.

And last night half asleep I scratched myself...cos I had a little itch but I scratched my itch with the one finger that has a jagged nail (I meant to file it yesterday and forgot :mad: ) and I broke the skin...
- Ouch!_pale_ Right, get that nail filed and maybe apply some vaseline to soothe the area if it's too sore hun.

And I can't stop thinking about money. Everythings becoming so expensive!!
- Yes hunnie, again you're not alone there. The Great Consumer Panic 2008 is well under way, kindly provided by unfair duty on top of high prices, and multi-million £ companies whose directors still vote themselves multi-thousand £ pay rises. The purse strings are definitely getting tighter with me too. More ideas on that later hunnie.

I can't remember the last time I bought myself a treat, and even buying groceries I find myself humming and harring worrying over how much I am spending!! We are doing our budget again tomorrow though so hopefully that will help me relax a little.

- Life becomes very hard to deal with hun, when there's nothing to look forward to. Everyone deserves a little treat. Someone was very kind to me and did something that made me smile - and cry too, because someone actually took the time to think of me of all people. I'm a great believer in random acts of kindness. You have to have some quality of life angel and something to look forward to, no matter how small. And yes, debt repayment is important but not to the point where you barely feel human anymore. Again, it's good that you and OH are working together to review your budget but try and allow for a trip to the pictures (yes I know it can cost a small mortgage to go these days!), or then your local town theatre or whatever you and OH like to do. You are allowed to budget for this too, which a lot of people forget when they start debt budgeting.

Please don't apologise for your post Tiff. It was helpful.
- Awww, you're welcome hunnie.

By the way I work in call centre. People phone for loans. Hard enough job as it is because I hate to see so many people putting themselves into so much debt, I hate having to tell people they were declined when they really need the money, I hate the fact that we recently have so many people calling for loans to help pay bills - council tax, electricity - what is the world coming to?
We can't offer loans for that purpose anyway, but it makes me see the world in a more negative light again. When people feel they need to try and get a loan just to pay everyday bills!!
- Yep - just as I thought...guilty of caring too much! Ought to be ashamed of yourself!
I know the poor peeps in the call centres get a hard, even abusive, time and it must be a thankless task usually. We forget that they're trying to earn a living too and are bound by their scripts and rules and requirements and targets. You're a very warm soul sweetheart and it's nice to hear the personal view from the other side of the fence.But... you can't take everyone's problems at work on board angel - it'll drive you batty!

I hate how I have to try and sell insurance on the loans (to those that have insufficient cover currently) to sell something I think you need to believe in it, how am I supposed to believe in and be positive about insurance when my own company's insurance wouldn't halp me out and forced me back into a job that I feel puts too much pressure on me before I was ready to go back and face it?
And since I was sick I have lost the little bit of confidence that I did have which means I find it difficult on the phone.
Sorry am just whinging on again!! :rolleyes:
- Not! You've got more than enough good reasons to feel the way you are dawny. You are in a high pressure job and it's natural that you had lost your self confidence after being ill. Again, anyone would angel.
See? You're not so bad after all, hunnie! The above points are things most of us have been through, and they are things which aggravate the real problems.

I'll reply re. your DLA questions in a separate post if that's okay sweetie because, like me, it's quite a long-winded subject.(Hush sazzy!). I know anni also had some questions about it too.

I need to go back to the doctors soon anyway. I just don't know what to say. I find I often get there and I feel ok-ish so I pretty much say that and that's it.
Print off your posts sweetheart. They're honest and just what your doctor needs to see. When we finally make it to the drs, it's amazing how we either fall apart and make about as much sense as a klingon, or we get tongue-tied and mention everything else except why we really went.:rolleyes:

I do want to help myself, don't get me wrong.
I'm working through a self help guide still, eating a careful healthy diet which includes foods that boost serotonin, trying to exercise, I just don't like the idea of being on medication. I never did.
And like I said before because I was in such a mess on them I did think maybe I would be better off without them anyway?
That is more than obvious sweetie - no-one could question your efforts to help yourself.

And I'll be honest with you angel, not that it's any of my beeswax I know, but...

- Meds help many people and not others. Of course, the question is, have you and the dr tried the vast range available? They are constantly updated. Whether meds are for you or not is something you should talk to your dr about hunnie. Don't let bad experiences put you off completely. Keep an open mind and tell your dr your perfectly reasonable worries about them. If the regime you're on - whether it's with or without meds - isn't working, then something needs to be changed.

- This job sounds like it's eating you up angel and tbh, you admit that in what you say. If it's making you this ill, then again, something has to change. Maybe it's time to think about stopping, slowing down or moving? Your dr is the best one to discuss this with hunnie. And there's no blame or guilt attached to that, dawny.

- If we don't make changes to a situation that's hurting our health, we need to take a break and get back on our feet hun before we even think about taking on more responsibility and stress.

I hope everyone else has a lovely day today.
Thanks hunnie, even now you're still thinking of others. I did have a bright moment yesterday afternoon - finally busted that sazzy and tulip yesterday!

If you can hunnie, make that drs appointment today. You're being a very brave dawny-lou trying to cope with work and sharing the problems with OH but, imho, now's the time you need to put yourself first. Be kind to yourself sweetheart.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi guys!:hello:
I hope we're all in fine fettle this Purrsday a.m.?


I'm glad I don't have the webcam! not only do I look worse than that, but I feel it too!
Can't stop now - silly, silly cpn made another 8.30a.m. appointment with me at home! He was off sick yesterday bless him and he's got me first thing? Some people are just asking for it!
So I'm off through the sheep dip afore he gets here and I've got a hairball to get rid of too (No - I wasn't talking about the sazzter!) - and I must get dressed this time too. No wonder he has to take sick leaves!

Hi jen :hello:- nice to see you hun! Also, special hugs to meyore and gilly-badgie...posts coming guys.
Safe journeys everyone.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

wannabe_sybil

I never seem to be able to catch up with this thread.

The doctor has put me back on the antidepressants. It really was a forgone conclusion - I was thinking so many suicidal thoughts and even my care of little bear was being affected. He says that it is his practice not to put a patient on for less than six months, and then not to take them off in the winter, so I can expect to be on the tablets for a year. I can't try for a little brother or sister for bear in that time, which means that the youngest I could be giving birth, if I conceive straight away after coming off the tablets (dr says that they will get out of my system quickly) will be 44 years old. Which means that this child (if I am blessed) will be 16 when I am sixty.

Trying to put a brave face on it, but I am devastated. So, if I have year before I can try for another little bear then I can use that to get the house nice, lose some weight, take care of myself.

Dr thinks there may be something wrong with my heart as well. Sigh.

I hope to be back here more often as one of my resolutions is to connect more, and there are such lovely people on this thread.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

I am fine today,off to mums for dinner and I am having my favourite Scampi with new potatoes and peas I get the 12pm bus towards mums and then dad picks me up at the bottom of the road and drives me home

Have a lovely day everyone


*hugs*


love and light,

Katie xxx