Depression Support Thread

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Morning! hope all is well,cleaned my flat this morning by washing bathroom and kitchen floors etc and also done my ironing,its all finished now so I can hoover later and that wont take me long I have the dentist for 2pm today so got to go out before then to get there on time

Have a lovely day everyone

*hugs* to those that need one


love and light,

Katie xxx

slowlyfading

feelinggood wrote: »

Anyone ever had a SH relapse for no reason - just because they fancied it?

I have sweetie, it sucks (((HUGS))) make sure they're clean, etc. xx

Tibbie's_mum

I have never posted on this board before, even though I suffer from quite severe depression and have done for many years. I try to manage it as best I can, but I'm not having a very good day so far.

I have 3 fantastic sons, a wonderful OH and a lovely house in a beautiful village, but I spend all my time wallowing in self pity. I avoid interacting with anybody, which is unfair on my kids as it means I won't go to toddlers groups or get involved at school. I'm constantly angry and have absolutely no motivation to do anything.

It's a beautiful day here, and I could take my 2 youngest sons for a walk on the beach, but my excuse to myself for not going is that the house is such a mess and I've loads to do, but I never do any thing in the house. I just about manage to feed the kids and pick the eldest up from school and that's my lot.

It's got to the point where I know I need to get out because if I don't I'm not going to be able to pull myself out of this hole. I spend far too much time surfing to avoid dealing with myself and my situation, I'm missing my family growing up because of this, to a certain extent I avoid interacting with them as well. My doctor has prescribed me anti-depressants, but I tend not to take them as a way to sabotage myself and so aggrevate my condition.

I'm not sure why I'm posting on this board? Maybe seeing it written down in black and white, I might be able to shock my way out of this.

One thing I must do, is go and make my baby's bottles or I'll have a very hungry 6mth old on my hands.

Horasio

Hi

I feel sick today

My OH wants to take me out in the car - it is a nice day but in my heart it is raining.

He puts me thro hell and wants to go out like nothing has happened.

He reminds me of whining dog trying to make me feel like the bad guy saying he wants us to be happy but when I am he deflates me and abusive when I don't feel good or tell him how I feel. He was like a mad dog on Sunday and I am still getting over the fallout from that.

My self esteem is shot. I feel so angry and tense when he is around. I feel so uncomfortable around him. I can't even goto the kitchen as I risk seeing him and stay in my room to get away from him. His vile personality permeates everywhere.

It is making me feel so tired and I can't function.

I am looking at properties online but I feel too ill to concentrate to work out which is the best place and too tired to go out.

Tulip

CCStar wrote: »

Hi

I feel sick today

My OH wants to take me out in the car - it is a nice day but in my heart it is raining.

He puts me thro hell and wants to go out like nothing has happened.

He reminds me of whining dog trying to make me feel like the bad guy saying he wants us to be happy but when I am he deflates me and abusive when I don't feel good or tell him how I feel. He was like a mad dog on Sunday and I am still getting over the fallout from that.

My self esteem is shot. I feel so angry and tense when he is around. I feel so uncomfortable around him. I can't even goto the kitchen as I risk seeing him and stay in my room to get away from him. His vile personality permeates everywhere.

It is making me feel so tired and I can't function.

I am looking at properties online but I feel too ill to concentrate to work out which is the best place and too tired to go out.

*hugs*

Katie

Tulip

Tibbie's_mum wrote: »

I have never posted on this board before, even though I suffer from quite severe depression and have done for many years. I try to manage it as best I can, but I'm not having a very good day so far.

I have 3 fantastic sons, a wonderful OH and a lovely house in a beautiful village, but I spend all my time wallowing in self pity. I avoid interacting with anybody, which is unfair on my kids as it means I won't go to toddlers groups or get involved at school. I'm constantly angry and have absolutely no motivation to do anything.

It's a beautiful day here, and I could take my 2 youngest sons for a walk on the beach, but my excuse to myself for not going is that the house is such a mess and I've loads to do, but I never do any thing in the house. I just about manage to feed the kids and pick the eldest up from school and that's my lot.

It's got to the point where I know I need to get out because if I don't I'm not going to be able to pull myself out of this hole. I spend far too much time surfing to avoid dealing with myself and my situation, I'm missing my family growing up because of this, to a certain extent I avoid interacting with them as well. My doctor has prescribed me anti-depressants, but I tend not to take them as a way to sabotage myself and so aggrevate my condition.

I'm not sure why I'm posting on this board? Maybe seeing it written down in black and white, I might be able to shock my way out of this.

One thing I must do, is go and make my baby's bottles or I'll have a very hungry 6mth old on my hands.

welcome Tibbies Mum to the thread,post as little or as much as you like


love and light,

Katie xxx

Tulip

see you later everyone,off to subway now for a bagette,feel lazy to make my own sandwich today and want to try the new shop in my town

bye for now chat later this afternoon when I am back from the dentist


Katie

LadyMorticia

Good morning everyone.

Horasio

Tibbie's_mum wrote: »

I have never posted on this board before, even though I suffer from quite severe depression and have done for many years. I try to manage it as best I can, but I'm not having a very good day so far.

I have 3 fantastic sons, a wonderful OH and a lovely house in a beautiful village, but I spend all my time wallowing in self pity. I avoid interacting with anybody, which is unfair on my kids as it means I won't go to toddlers groups or get involved at school. I'm constantly angry and have absolutely no motivation to do anything.

It's a beautiful day here, and I could take my 2 youngest sons for a walk on the beach, but my excuse to myself for not going is that the house is such a mess and I've loads to do, but I never do any thing in the house. I just about manage to feed the kids and pick the eldest up from school and that's my lot.

It's got to the point where I know I need to get out because if I don't I'm not going to be able to pull myself out of this hole. I spend far too much time surfing to avoid dealing with myself and my situation, I'm missing my family growing up because of this, to a certain extent I avoid interacting with them as well. My doctor has prescribed me anti-depressants, but I tend not to take them as a way to sabotage myself and so aggrevate my condition.

I'm not sure why I'm posting on this board? Maybe seeing it written down in black and white, I might be able to shock my way out of this.

One thing I must do, is go and make my baby's bottles or I'll have a very hungry 6mth old on my hands.

Welcome to the board

To some degree I can identify with you but don't feel my family are that supportive or nice. I only have one son and it is hard work, so three must be very difficult. A lousy husband is worse than 50 badly behaved boys too.

Chores are boring, maybe you resent doing them deep down - does anyone help around the house?

You sound to be very tired. By the time you have done the chores, you don't have anything left for yourself. There is a lot of pressure to be supermum, superwife and superwoman and if you don't meet the challenge you feel a failure - you are not!

Are you getting enough sleep? That can be depressing

You could try the anti depressants as they could help lift you.

Tibbie's_mum

Thank you for the welcome Tulip

CCStar, many thanks for your reply. Sleep isn't a problem for me, it has always been my escape from reality. One good thing now, is when I wake up I no longer wish, I hadn't. However difficult it is dealing with three boys, it has given my life purpose. As for chores, I tend not to do them, so the house is a tip which just makes even me more depressed.

So far, I have managed to get the bottles sterilised ready to make feeds and my 3 yr old is eating a proper meal for lunch, not just chocolate spread sandwiches, it's lovely to see him stuffing his face. And I've decided that I will walk the boys up to school to collect my eldest. If I could just clear all the clutter that's spread across the kitchen floor, it would look as if I'd done something productive when OH gets in.