Depression Support Thread

LadyMorticia

CCStar wrote: »

Leah Betts took a dodgy E and died from it - it was the early 90s when E's were popular.

I watched a programme about cannabis and it was interesting. It can give you the giggles or make you paranoid (Skunk) and the munchies are unbelievable. My son smokes it which I am not happy about (not in or around our home!!). He was living in a skanky place where you could get anything but he didn't try them, he and I saw their highs and lows. Trouble is he now smokes real cigarettes and drinks too much:(

I had a drag - it did nothing to me but I don't smoke, so maybe not getting enough - I would rather have some wine!

Thank you for educating me.
My friend takes E, and I'm terrified she is going to die. It only takes one bad pill to be lethal, but she just sees it as fun. She doesn't understand that it could kill her.

I've never smoked anything, and the last time I had an alcoholic drink was when I was about 18 and it was an Archers Aqua. I don't really like alcohol. I got drunk when I was three because of my irresponsible family. I guess I've kind of been programmed not to like it now. I have a reputation where I live of being a goody goody two shoes.lol.

The trouble with illegal drugs is that you never know what kind of trip you're going to have before you take them. There are no guarantees.

How old is your son? One of my friends starting smoking cannabis at 13. One of my exes used to smoke it too and offered me some and kind of took it personally when I said no thank you.

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Diamond78

CCStar wrote: »

Have you thought about hypnosis?

I had it and the positive self talk the tapes/CDs say really get thro when in a state of half sleep.

I was put on Prozac which lifted me enough to seek counselling which helped immensely but you have to have the right counselling as well, some types work better than other depending on the person. I could never get on the CBT, I am a logical person and my rational side sees how silly it is feeling what I feel, but it tends not to filter to the inner psyche for me so the irrational thoughts still stay. Others swear by it.

I found being able to speak my thoughts, in confidence, to someone really helped and I have counselled many people of all ages and heard some pretty horrific details. I admire how well they hold it together so well on the surface and I feel humbled by it.

E's would not help you one bit, you might have relief for one night but you will pay the next day!

I am considering hpnosis after my brother recomended it to me. I feel scared of opening up and always find it hard to talk about my issues and problems but i find it a lot easier talking to someone who doesnt know me then some one who does know me and doesnt understand what I am going through.
Im glad it worked for you and helped you. Will let you all know when I have mine. I want to see a tarot reader. I have never one but am cautious about them.

Horasio

LadyMorticia wrote: »

You're all so kind to me here. ****hugs****

I'm trying so hard to like myself. I'm getting my braces off in July (after not caring enough about myself to have anything done with them) and I'm going to get my hair cut soon. I also have my ED consultation in July, as my ED is partly about punishing myself. I really want to look in the mirror and be comfortable in my own skin. I love the clothes I wear, and the clothes are beautiful, but I just don't think they are beautiful on me.

I still think the abuse was my fault, but I was told that for many years. I'm not sure how I will feel when my mum and dad die. I'm not even sure if I will be sad. I think I will have a lot of confused feelings. My nan abused me too and she is 76 now and has a lot of health problems so I'm not sure how long she will be around for (as morbid as that sounds) but I'm not sure how I will feel then either.
I think I have supressed anger. I'm a bottler, as they say. I internalise my feelings and then take them out on myself. I've always thought anger was a bad thing because of things that happened when I was a child, but as I have grown up I know that it isn't but I still can't admit to getting angry really, and I can't display it to anyone but myself.

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You have some lovely teeth to look forward to when the braces come off!!

I am afraid that is part of abuse apart what is done, the nasty talk to make you feel rotten. As relations age, I find they look more and more pathetic as I grow older and wiser. I wouldn't feel guilty about how you feel, OK in an ideal world we are all like the Waltons (they were a close knit loving family from West Virginia USA who all got on well and loved each other) but very few are like that in reality!

I would find a strong old cushion and beat the cr*p out of it when you feel angry, pretend it is who you feel angry at. I have a punchball which really helps!!

What is ED?

Horasio

Diamond78 wrote: »

I am considering hpnosis after my brother recomended it to me. I feel scared of opening up and always find it hard to talk about my issues and problems but i find it a lot easier talking to someone who doesnt know me then some one who does know me and doesnt understand what I am going through.
Im glad it worked for you and helped you. Will let you all know when I have mine. I want to see a tarot reader. I have never one but am cautious about them.

I would go with an open mind but don't take the tarot too seriously

Horasio

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Thank you for educating me.
My friend takes E, and I'm terrified she is going to die. It only takes one bad pill to be lethal, but she just sees it as fun. She doesn't understand that it could kill her.

I've never smoked anything, and the last time I had an alcoholic drink was when I was about 18 and it was an Archers Aqua. I don't really like alcohol. I got drunk when I was three because of my irresponsible family. I guess I've kind of been programmed not to like it now. I have a reputation where I live of being a goody goody two shoes.lol.

The trouble with illegal drugs is that you never know what kind of trip you're going to have before you take them. There are no guarantees.

How old is your son? One of my friends starting smoking cannabis at 13. One of my exes used to smoke it too and offered me some and kind of took it personally when I said no thank you.

xx

You sound to be very sensible and I agree about trips, even booze scares me, sometimes I feel great, other times I feel grumpy on it.

My son started at 16 and he is now 20. Thankfully no-one pressured him but he chose to smoke pot as his chosen drug. I find it turns him arrogant and it was the time we started to have our problems with him. It does worry me he won't get his life on track and grow up!!

There is nothing wrong with being teetotal and not wanting to take drugs - it is your body!!

Horasio

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Leah_Betts

Details about what happened

LadyMorticia

CCStar wrote: »

I was born in the 60s and remember the late 60s hippy time which was quite nice. I was a bit young to really appreciate it tho.

There was quite a lot of fear and ignorance around in the 60s and 70s too, abuse and bullying were swept under the carpet and people buried their feelings with smoking and booze. It was quite a macho time for both sexes. The 80s was a posey decade where people put their energies into doing well for themselves. I felt the 90s were the most touchy feeling decade in my time

I was a nice child too but taken advantage of by mean a/holes. I was too naive to realise I was trusting the wrong people and got hurt. Trouble is I have gone too far the other way and am quite reserved and closed.

I used to have hideous teeth and had them seen to so feel more confident about my smile. Your nose looks fine to me but it is how you feel. It is easier to deal with hair. I need a trim too, I haven't had it cut for a few years and it is 40 inches long!

I was always the child at school who wanted to sit at the front of the class so that I could get all my work done....and then ask for extra.lol. I got bullied a lot for it, and for being a "freak" as they put it.

I love the hippy style. I own many pairs of flared jeans, and I like flowery prints (not the overly "busy" kind though.lol.).

I was a very trusting child too, and up until a few years ago I still was. Then I started getting hurt and used a lot so now I only fully trust one person and that is one of my best and closest friends.

My teeth were hideous. I was neglected as a child also and wasn't "allowed" a toothbrush because I didn't "deserve" one according to my mum. So because if that my teeth were in a horrible condition, and I had two abcesses. My teeth are a lot better now, and much straighter. I can't wait to get this metal out of my mouth
Wow. Your hair is long. My hair is down my back but it has so many split ends, which I think are now half way up the hair shaft and causing it to break a lot easier so I am in dire need of a hair cut. My friends are dictating to me how I can and can't have it cut though. They say that I can only have a trim and can't get it cut short, and have to keep it roughly the length it is. My reply was "With all due respect, the hair is on my head, which is mine so therefore I will do what I want with it".lol.

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LadyMorticia

CCStar wrote: »

You have some lovely teeth to look forward to when the braces come off!!

I am afraid that is part of abuse apart what is done, the nasty talk to make you feel rotten. As relations age, I find they look more and more pathetic as I grow older and wiser. I wouldn't feel guilty about how you feel, OK in an ideal world we are all like the Waltons (they were a close knit loving family from West Virginia USA who all got on well and loved each other) but very few are like that in reality!

I would find a strong old cushion and beat the cr*p out of it when you feel angry, pretend it is who you feel angry at. I have a punchball which really helps!!

What is ED?

I can't wait. I find the braces make my mouth look bigger than it is when I smile. I smile at people in the street, even if I'm feeling down myself because for some people that could really turn their day around, to see a friendly face. It would just be nice to smile with my proper mouth instead of this big one with big brackets attached.lol.

I've heard of the Waltons and I think I might have watched a re-run of it some time ago. When I went around my aunties I used to watch Little House on The Prairie.

The pillow thing sounds like a good idea. I have many pillows that I could beat up.

ED is eating disorder. I've had one on and off since I was 9. On and off because I appear to get better and then relapse.

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LadyMorticia

CCStar wrote: »

You sound to be very sensible and I agree about trips, even booze scares me, sometimes I feel great, other times I feel grumpy on it.

My son started at 16 and he is now 20. Thankfully no-one pressured him but he chose to smoke pot as his chosen drug. I find it turns him arrogant and it was the time we started to have our problems with him. It does worry me he won't get his life on track and grow up!!

There is nothing wrong with being teetotal and not wanting to take drugs - it is your body!!

A lot of my friends think I'm weird for not drinking alcohol but a lot of my friends also drink to excess - essentially drinking to get drunk and pass out.

Hopefully your son will stop smoking it as he grows older but hopefully it won't be too late and no long standing damage would have been done. Has he ever had a bad trip?

I only drink tea, milk and water. When my ex was here milk made me ill but then for some reason when he left me, I drank it and was fine. It was the same brand as milk too. It's the same with my scalp condition. When my ex left it got better. Maybe it was stress related? .lol.

xx

LadyMorticia

CCStar wrote: »

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Leah_Betts

Details about what happened

Thank you. I'm just going to read it now.

****hugs****

xx