Depression Support Thread

juno

I had a really brilliant weekend, but I missed out on so much sleep and I'm exhausted now. I've also had a headache all day. Which hasn't helped as I've been so busy trying to sort out UCAS stuff

clipboard2

Hello again everyone!

I am once again sorry to read that so many of you are suffering at the moment, whether with present difficulties or painful memories, or both.

Thought I'd share this:
http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/life_and_style/health/article3850302.ece

The drug Ecstacy has been successfully used to treat "flashbacks" caused by emotional and physical trauma eg abuse, and Post Traumatic Distress Syndrome(PTDS), where talking therapies have failled.

What do you all think?

IMO, painful memories are in our unconcious (ie we can only recall them as flashbacks, or not at all) for a reason:-
That these memories would be too much for us to cope with mentally at the present time. If we do try and bring them to "the surface" before we are ready, eg using techniques such as hypnotism, the results might be catastrophic.
Perhaps the best way is to try and achieve the best measure of emotional and physical stability you can in your life, which should help your mind in its own healing process.

May I wish you all peaceful minds (as our bfm would say)

Take care everyone
CB2X

Diamond78

juno,glad you had a good weekend, sorry to hear about the headache, could be due to lack of sleep.Nice and early night for you then tonight.

Clipboard thats very interesting what you have written.I suffer a lot of flashbacks from my past,nightmares ect. I dont think it ever goes away,it lives with you forever.Some ppl can manage and cope,others like me are not so lucky but as years pass it does get a little easier.
But I would never consider ecstasy as treatment as In my opinion, the damage one has lives will always be remembered.
Thanks for sharing this, im going to read the link now.

LadyMorticia

rose07 wrote: »

This must have been had for you ((((((((hugs)))))))

I should have been put into care when i was little but the system is very different here, people turn a blind eye to such things, because the community is soo close, but it is wrong.

Do you remember the abuse you had to deal with? were you able to cope with how it made you feel?

I self harmed alot as a child, always just needed to get the pain out. As I couldnt handle what was happening, i was just farr too young to understand why people were hurting me so.

I think maybe you could do a piece of art to help you deal with what happened, but only if you feel safe to do so.

Hope your ok today

If ya ever wanna chat ya know where i am

take care
xxx

I remember all of it. I remember things as far back as when I was 2-3 years old. I don't think I've ever really coped with it as such, just tried to mask it. I know it sounds stupid but I had a pet cat and she kind of felt like my life line in a way. As a child I always thought of her as a friend, and not someone who would abuse me. I used to self harm too, by hitting myself and by ripping my toenails off (it hurt a lot but at the time I didn't really care, and it was easy to cover up). Now, I self harm by cutting myself because I can't deal with all these thoughts in my head and all the memories. It hurts too much and the physical pain helps me to deal with the emotional pain, or at least forget about it for a little while.

My family haven't even said sorry for what they have done, and whilst their apologies wouldn't really change anything, it would be nice to know that they felt some remorse but I know that they don't. They tell me they hurt me because I was an ugly, fat, horrible person, and a lot of the time I still believe that's true. ********hugs********

xx

LadyMorticia

Clipboard - I suffer a lot with flashbacks and nightmares but there is no way I would even consider taking ecstasy for it. I know that it is an illegal drug and the effects from taking it can be deadly - as one of my friends almost found out. =/

xx

Diamond78

LadyMorticia wrote: »

I remember all of it. I remember things as far back as when I was 2-3 years old. I don't think I've ever really coped with it as such, just tried to mask it. I know it sounds stupid but I had a pet cat and she kind of felt like my life line in a way. As a child I always thought of her as a friend, and not someone who would abuse me. I used to self harm too, by hitting myself and by ripping my toenails off (it hurt a lot but at the time I didn't really care, and it was easy to cover up). Now, I self harm by cutting myself because I can't deal with all these thoughts in my head and all the memories. It hurts too much and the physical pain helps me to deal with the emotional pain, or at least forget about it for a little while.

My family haven't even said sorry for what they have done, and whilst their apologies wouldn't really change anything, it would be nice to know that they felt some remorse but I know that they don't. They tell me they hurt me because I was an ugly, fat, horrible person, and a lot of the time I still believe that's true. ********hugs********

xx

LadyM,please dont beleive that it is true. You are not a horrible ugly person. You are a lovely, caring and very nice person.It doesnt matter what a person looks like or what size they are,its the inner beauty that counts. As long as you remind yourself that itt wasnt ever your fault and you never desreved the abuse you went thru, you will start feeling more at peace with yourself. Sorrys cannot take the pain away nor can they change what they put you through, be kind to yourself coz u desreve happiness hun xx

Diamond78

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Clipboard - I suffer a lot with flashbacks and nightmares but there is no way I would even consider taking ecstasy for it. I know that it is an illegal drug and the effects from taking it can be deadly - as one of my friends almost found out. =/

xx

ecstasy always scared me after tragic lea betts died many years ago. I was so upset when she died. I did try it when I was younger but the experience I has was awful. It is proven that any type of illegal drug messes with your mind and mental health. I smoked cannabis for many years and it made me a lot worse. Cannabis should be classed as a class a drug but thats never going to happen. Im a paraniod wreck sometimes and it really has wrecked my life.

LadyMorticia

Diamond78 wrote: »

LadyM,please dont beleive that it is true. You are not a horrible ugly person. You are a lovely, caring and very nice person.It doesnt matter what a person looks like or what size they are,its the inner beauty that counts. As long as you remind yourself that itt wasnt ever your fault and you never desreved the abuse you went thru, you will start feeling more at peace with yourself. Sorrys cannot take the pain away nor can they change what they put you through, be kind to yourself coz u desreve happiness hun xx

I must sound so pathetic. My problems are so trivial to a lot of people's.
I always worry I'm going to turn into my mum, or even worse my dad. I know that I am nothing like them (to the point where people think I was adopted as a baby because we are nothing alike.lol.) but I always worry.
I'm a firm believer in inner beauty, and I never judge anyone based on their appearance. We all come in different shapes and sizes. I just wish that I could like myself and accept myself as I am.

I don't hate my family for what they did as I know that hate is a strong word, but I don't think I love them either and I think that makes me sound like a horrible person.

xx

Horasio

fedupnow wrote: »

Hi everybody

Not entirely sure whether you can help me, but I thought I'd give it a shot.

I used to be a very happy person. I don't describe myself as UNhappy now but I do seem to either be crying or angry. I never seem to laugh anymore.

Everybody around me seems to be deliberately awkward and making life difficult for me.....but I know they're not really.

They all seem to be really stupid and thoughtless..........I know they're not really.

I can't sleep. The temptation to drink a lot is soooo strong..............but I don't make a happy drunk anymore, but it does allow me to sleep.

Am I depressed?

Should I see a doctor?

I think I am going mad because I just don't recognise myself anymore.

Hi Fedup and welcome

We are all really friendly and supportive here and no problem is too silly or wrong.

You say you were happy before - can you remember what triggered this change?

I know a series of things continually going wrong can get on top of you and wonder if this could be the case with you?

LadyMorticia

Diamond78 wrote: »

ecstasy always scared me after tragic lea betts died many years ago. I was so upset when she died. I did try it when I was younger but the experience I has was awful. It is proven that any type of illegal drug messes with your mind and mental health. I smoked cannabis for many years and it made me a lot worse. Cannabis should be classed as a class a drug but thats never going to happen. Im a paraniod wreck sometimes and it really has wrecked my life.

I've never taken illegal drugs. I think I'm too much of a coward.lol. and in the past it has caused a lot of conflict between friends and I because I wouldn't join in but I'm a very stubborn person and always stick to my guns.

One of my friends has Schizophrenia and he smoked cannabis for many years. The doctor says that it wasn't anything to do with the cannabis but my friend still thinks it is.

Another one of my close friends would never have even considered taking drugs until she met her current boyfriend. She invites me around to her and her boyfriends house but I always decline as I feel anxious being in a place where drugs are routinely stored in the fridge.

I think the closest to a high I'm going to get is when I've had too many sugars in my tea.lol.

I've never heard of Lea Betts, but that may be my age showing.

xx