Investing in Us: Holidays, Health, and the Road to £150k

slm6002

Sending hugs to you. I have a feeling she will not last until the end of her contract

debtfreewannabe321

Thanks all, I've logged everything she's done. I've been bullied in the workplace before and won't put up with it again.

She must have been spoken to because several times she hoovered around the lights then thought better of it and left the room instead (fine by me). Other people have noticed it because she is doing similar to them, complaining, about everything, rolling her eyes at them and saying she can't do it. She didn't say that to me yesterday after the meeting it was to the other people in the room I just happened to be there.

I'm thinking she will try to stay or go off with mental health issues because she needs the money. So I feel this is why she's doing the bare minimum needed of her, she's not got friendly with anyone, nor made an actual effort with her job. So just my thoughts and I've seen it happen here before.

Anyway today I've purposely booked myself out. I'm in the office for an hour or so as I need to catch up on paperwork and not have anything outstanding for tomorrow. Tomorrow I'm doing a short one because I will have done my hours almost by the end of the day for the whole week. So I'm going in for training and that is it tomorrow. I'm not paid enough to be giving more of my time.

I've read another book. I know this shouldn't be worrying it should be a good thing, but this is a coping mechanism for me. I read voraciously as a child got through books grown people wouldn't touch... because I was being abused at home. It was my escape. I did it again when going through the worst patches of marriage. Now I can feel myself finding escape once again Instead of processing properly and I'm not even talking to DP much about it. I come home and close down with a book in my hand. I am still meditating though so I'll call that one a win. And once I realise she's not a threat I think I can calm down a bit but I'm still in irritation fight/flight mode right now and can't do anything about it as I'm at work 🫤!

Right I better get on with my day. I had a NSD yesterday until I realised I needed a couple of toiletries...as my hair is going silver the texture has changed so I've bought some serum. And another book 🙈.

KajiKita

I think as coping mechanisms go, reading is not the worst …. 😉 But I hear you on the shutting down and well done for recognising it. You actually sound a lot more in control of, and in balance with, yourself today. Sometimes 'processing properly' is not something we have time / headspace for - you've been exhausted this week after being triggered, repeatedly, by a resonance from your past that you haven't 100% disconnected from yet, and still delivered amazing results. So cut yourself some slack here, yes? 😊

If it read it right you should be out of there by lunchtime tomorrow and then you have a whole week off … 😊 Enjoy putting your OOO on with huge satisfaction! 😉

KK

debtfreewannabe321

🤣 @KajiKita yes absolutely...my old coping mechanism that I favoured when married was a bottle or two of wine 🙈 I cannot actually do that anymore thanks to how sick it makes me so yep this is definitely a better one. But I'm aware of what I'm doing shutting down and not wanting to talk to people aside from absolutely dump everything that happened and then close off 🙈.

I'm sat at home, in a dark ish kitchen 🤣 after me being annoyed at newbie for this well 🤭 I'm one to talk eh. I've lots of natural light coming in though so a little different to work. I had a spare hour - my lunch break.. so came home rather than sitting in the office or carpark to eat. I've set Dexter off 😀 he's doing alright so far and hasn't done his usual of getting immediately stuck. Ah hold on I may have spoken too soon....no I see him. He's okay.

I've got a long ish drive in a mo and then a couple of hours work and drive back.

This morning in the office was really irritating as I was greeted by all as usual except you know who, but then when I was chatting to the colleague next to me she wanted in on it. And was chatting like she's never been weird with me. And then everyone was like oh she's ok now. Cue them mostly leaving and her reverting back to odd. She knows she's being watched clearly. So gaslights me and talks to me like nothing has gone on when the room is full and ignorant when they're gone. 🤦🏻‍♀️ I said to someone today I just want to come in, work, go home. I hate workplace drama. Considering we do the same job though we need to converse with one another 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️.

I've had more training added to my calendar for tomorrow meh, but my hours are 9-4 tomorrow a usual old job day so I can just about cope with that. Then I'm outta there for a week 🙌🏻! Having a quiet cuppa then I'm off to do a bit more work. Although I'm not quite hybrid at home I am hybrid out and about which I do like. I don't have to speak to people at work all day long aside from Wednesday. So the job is going okay, can well all collectively manifest the newbie out please as she will be the sole cause of me stomping off one day 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣.

skint_spice

Does she not realise if you stomp off she will have to cover some of your work too? And as she isn’t doing her own…

Chin up, you are so close to your break x

daisy_1571

If you had already booked your diary out you should stick to that and you can get the training another day?

debtfreewannabe321

https://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/discussion/comment/81881428#Comment_81881428

It's whole department training and no choice but to go. I will find a quiet corner and sit pretending to listen. 😉

debtfreewannabe321

My afternoon was okay, although I managed to come across two accidents with closed roads and one long diversion. On the way home the sat nav asked me to go across the A1 to get home, umm no thank you, not in DD car 😂 I will add the ten minutes to my journey and go the other way thanks. It was rush hour and I would have been sat there ages daring to cut across in her car (too slow).

One day left!!

debtfreewannabe321

I'm up, showered, dressed, cup of tea had. I start at 9 today and finish early this afternoon so a nice short day. I CAN do this, and I can do it without tears. I had another bad night sleep 🙈 and I've woken up feeling emotional. 🙈 Not a great start..... Ps I've gone back on the HRT. I'm going to have to put up with the headaches and dizzy spells for now as I cannot be doing with all the flushes that mean I don't sleep at all. ☹️

(A half term job is to look up a private menopause clinic/ doctor I'm done with this affecting me so much.)

Watty1

You are so my sister with your coping mechanisms.

Hang in there.