In Search Of Me's brand spanking (behave SS!) new 2008 diary...

In_Search_Of_Me

I was getting worried pap!!
Thanks NDG! Did have a bath but discovered that I didnt get the babysitting so am feeling a bit gutted being honest as I felt it would have been ideal & worked really well...never mind, it is disappointing though as would have been enjoyable & a fair whac off the debts I said to get in touch if the other person doesnt work out. I really DO want some regular baysitting though!

taxi73

Glad you enjoyed your bath ..sorry about the babysitting you will get some soon probably...what about doing relief care work as some people like to have that in their own homes ...apart from that can't really think of much else..sorry

In_Search_Of_Me

hi there taxi...cant do care reflief work (& couldnt wipe bottoms anyway!!) as lots of implications for my day job so no go on that one which is why babysitting so ideal but never mind...I still earn a good wage so nowt to moan about really - just feeling DFW impatient. I do struggle on here sometimes with the going to kill myself posts and when you feel low its awful to think of someone feeling so desperate & yet so powerless to help...I just hope that recent posters are ok...

hypno06

DFW impatient - yup, a good way to describe it.

Itching to amend those signature totals!

In_Search_Of_Me

I know hypno - some days it just gets you more than others - the oppressiveness of debt! Never mind - just trying to think how fab I'll feel when its paid off!

Lemon_Tree

trying to become debt free is like a yo yo for me, for a while i'm obsessive about it, then i slacken off (but still come here) and spend a bit, then i feel so guilty it makes me sick, then i get obsessive again. Wish i could stay in the not so obsessive bit without doing the lots of spending bit in the middle.
But i know we'll all get there with each others support, we'll just keep picking each other up and dusting ourselves off.
I do envy both you (ISOM) and Hypno as you have made the effort to find second jobs, i keep thinking about it and then find some lame excuse, but in truth i'd have to get so much permission from work that it just puts me off. Another cop out! no pun intended.

In_Search_Of_Me

Have to laugh at this tree as I just got back from rather a "want not need" spend!! I know why (worried about tomrrow & want to feel good but dont as I've put on weight!!) but got handbag (sort of needed!!) bra, nicks (not needed but lovely & lacy black!) and trackie trousers that my mum is payng for as I need loose & comfy as the incision is accross my back....minorly hacked off with myself as I have got a few clothes this month and just need to shift pounds rather than buying the next size up but then also realise that this is not the day for a tough talking to myself - that will come next week when I can do sommat about it! So this pm will be spent chlling, tdying house, chatting to mum when she arrives (any moment!) and getting ready for tomorrow (ooh yes got unnecessary mags too - some for me & some for mum!!)...no wine though! Must also remember to wake up early enough to have eaten toast & had cuppa by 7.30...are you a copper LT?!! I also usually have to get permission for work but babysitting is ok not to....

taxi73

Good luck for tomorrow ISOM and hope you get better soon..they were necessary spends in my opinion anyway for what its worth...speak to you soon.take carexx

Lemon_Tree

nope not a copper but i work for them. I know what you mean i bought some very necessary clothes yesterday, at least i'll be decent again. But i also got my nephews their pressies for being my ushers and OH a lovely watch half price, either as a valentines gift or as my gift to him for the wedding i'm not sure.
It's all stuff that i would have had to get and there's money there for the wedding gifts but i just feel so guilty, i am even putting off updating my accounts, i mean how stupid is that?
Packed the stuff i sold on ebay ready to post and i've listed another 40 dvd's tonight so i really hope even half of them sell. Really need to list a load of PS2 games next.
Once again good luck for tomorrow

Sea78

Hey honey - just got back and hope it all goes really well tomorrow- hope that it's ok having the general and all is good after

Sea xxx