NST Sweet May 2023 - Pick 'N' Mix Challenge

Thrifty_Taylor

 @Starlight_at_Sea that made me well up. That's exactly how I'm feeling today!! I've had quite a !!!!!! day really. A tricky morning at work, on top of all the emotional home stuff I'm trying to help with. I thought I'd have an hour to relax once I'd taken the GF home, but as soon as I got back, I had to be referee, so I'm emotionally wiped out. Wish I could wave a magic wand & get everything sorted. My DS's are trying so hard to support their friend through a horrendous time & I'm trying to support them & the friend too. 

Grateful for doing yoga, eating healthily 2 days in a row (2 squares if dark chocolate & a Percy pig isn't worth mentioning 😜), that I can sleep soon & not worry about things until tomorrow

Hugs to you all, keeping everything crossed for positive results @f0xh0les & @Toni'sfriend

beanielou

You are an angel @Thrifty_Taylor. 

Starlight_at_Sea

Sorry to hear that @Thrifty_Taylor, it sounds like you have raised them well to be there for their friend. Very tough though. 2 squares & 1 pig definitely don't count. Do 3 blueberry muffins? It was an olio day here today, carbs a-plenty. Happy to get a few things that can freeze and would have been bought otherwise, so a genuine saving rather than a treat (wraps and muffins).

Made it to the gym today for a 30 min class mid-morning. Was glad I went, felt better for it and saw somebody who offered me furniture from a relatives house.... they are sending photos next time they visit. Otherwise a very long day, am meeting-ed out. One meeting was my probation review, went ok I guess, it's clear they notice that the caring responsibilities interrupt my work delivery, but they were nice about it. Am not really sure what else I can change though. Will have a think. Awkwardly I now need to ask for 40 min off to go to the doctor's with mum first thing tomorrow am. 🫣

I did some money-shuffling last night and moved my current credit card balance to another (empty) CC on a 0% 12m balance transfer. Feel pleased it's not accruing interest and I don't need to find the money this month as I try to also get the solicitors fees and stamp duty monies together. This is the first time I've had a CC balance that's run over the month for about 18 months so it does feel uncomfortable, but I will clear it. 

No frogs today, apart from the work stuff, and then it wasn't stuff that keeps me awake at night. Maybe tomorrow. But then again it's my birthday, so maybe it will be a frog free day, we'll see!  

Shrewbie

That’s lovely @Starlight_at_Sea!! 

hugs @f0xh0les, @grandmanerd @Thrifty_Taylor and @Toni'sfriend

Yesterday was another NSD. Nothing really to report, got a lot done at work, exercise, meditation and writing done and frogs eaten! 

I am grateful for my life, for friends, for bf’s dhal. 

Toni'sfriend

Following the PET scan I have had a phone call to go see a respiratory specialist at the end of the month. I feel so down. This has all gone from "nothing to worry about" to not having a clue what's going on and having hospital appointments all the time and waiting for results, imagining all sorts of things. I've been sitting here all morning in tears, Everything seems so out of my control. 

f0xh0les

((gentle hugs @Toni'sfriend ))  You are now probably considered Extremely Clinically Vulnerable, so you go top of the list for anything that would before have been a case of - we'll send you a letter with an appointment in a  couple of weeks - now it is urgent.  They do seem to be using a 'belt and braces' approach right now. 

Hopefully by the end of the month you will have all the information, but worrying is exhausting, not knowing what the flip is going on is exhausting, and it must be really nice for the specialist to be able to tell someone that they have done all the tests, and you are fine and there is nothing to worry about.  Try not to borrow trouble, for it will make its way to your door quick enough if it needs to.

Have you got anything nice in the diary to look forward to? or have you put it all on the back-burner til you get some results?   Maybe you need to plan something lovely in? Even if it is just an afternoon eating an ice-cream and looking at the sea (rain is optional). 

Toni'sfriend

Thanks, f0xh0les. The lady on the phone did say she was phoning to make sure the appointment was suitable before she sent a letter (and in case the letter didn't arrive on time as has happened in the past) I phoned the breast cancer nurse. My usual one is in clinics all day but another lovely lady looked into my record and phoned me back. I hadn't misunderstood. Originally my surgeon's plan was to redo the CT scan in three months but following a team meeting the respiratory guys preferred a PET scan instead as it gives way more information and that's what I have to get the results of now. I just wasn't expecting it and it's 12 days away. A long time to worry. The hormone tablet apparently causes mood swings so maybe that's a factor as well. 

I have a holiday booked in September and yesterday we booked a break in Amsterdam in January but I think you're right. I have put everything on the back burner because I don't know what they are going to do at short notice. We've already cancelled two big holidays. I need to be doing something to take my mind off this and be as normal as possible. I would like to go out for a nice lunch next week. Think I'll suggest it to Himself. He's not having the greatest time either.

Thank you so much for your support. I really appreciate it as I know you're not having the best time yourself. You're in my thoughts. xxxx

beanielou

@Toni'sfriend.  The uncertainty is certainly not nice & no wonder you feel your emotions are all over the place.
PLease be kind to yourself xxx
Great idea to go for a nice wee lunch.

Shrewbie

That must be so stressful @Toni'sfriend, please be kind to yourself. Sending love xx 

Starlight_at_Sea

Sending love your way @Toni'sfriend, be gentle on yourself. The uncertainty and the waiting is exhausting, and this feels hard because it is hard, and feels pants because it is pants, and the hormone treatments definitely don't help.  Take some heart that the medics are acting promptly, but not as an emergency. Its just horrible having things hanging over you, that you can't speed up, so anything nice you can plan in while you wait sounds like a lovely idea. I often think that for me it's these periods of limbo when the offers of TLC, company, meals from friends, family, neighbours, phone calls etc make the most difference. In the crisis points that we seem to lurch between at the moment there's actually not much space for anyone to help, but in the limbo, well, a little distraction or laughter or nice cake and company can go an awful long way, but because it's not a crisis, I don't think to reach out to activate those offers. x