Paying down the mortgage, motherhood and the marvels of life. Welcome my beautiful diary friends

dawnybabes

Insomnia is rubbish, I sleep
much better If I have magnesium - I either rub it as a cream or take zinc and mag tablets 

savingholmes

Hope your sleep improves.

Well done on getting debt free.

Good luck 🍀 with becoming MF to and balancing that with renovations 

mumof3.12kindebt

Hello my beautiful diary friends 

Welcome everyone. Thankyou for all taking the time to pop by. 

@dawnybabes thankyou ill get some zinc and  magnesium and give it a try read up about it earlier after reading your comment. 

@b@Bluegreen143  thankyou me too 😴 Well I figured my original goal back in 2019 when we first got the mortgage was to pay it off by the time I turned 40 so might as well stick to it and see what happens. 

@m@missymoo81  what a lovely reply.. thank you so much ❤️ I'm quite excited too. I was saying  to a friend the other day I'm really excited to see what my 30s brings. It won't be any more babies or a house move.... but I'm just really living in the moment right now and enjoying life with my kids and partner and anyone else who wants to paddle along on my little boat with me ❤️

@Tiredbutdetermined thankyou! Good luck to you too. I'll come and find you and say hello 👋 sleep hasn't been much better but hey ho ill get there. 


I hope I haven't missed anyone 🌟 

Mortgage update 

Today I adjusted our mortgage payment and term. Our final debt that we recently cleared we have been paying £50 a month since October 2019. so I adjusted the mortgage from £437.94 to £511.98 this has reduced the term to 24 years remaining from August. It's £73.94  extra rather than £50 but I don't mind. It also means we will still be able to pay 10% on top each year without incuring any fees. With that all done we need to shave off an additional 14 years to meet My target of by the time I'm 40! 

1 more day till I'm 30 🥳🥳🥳 (as its now 00.05) 😉


Hugs love positivity and prayers to you all ❤️❤️❤️

mumof3.12kindebt

Morning all, well its nearly afternoon. 

Spoke to my dad this morning on the phone. 
Got a small amount of my diploma done yesterday I need to really crack on with that I have 12 days left till its due in. 😲 lack of Sleep. Fatigue and increased pain which is waking me up at night really isn't helping 😕. I feel permanently exhausted and my legs are on the verge of giving up. I have work this afternoon. Not sure I'll last the shift tbh but I'm not in charge so if I'm really struggling I'll ask the senior if I can leave. I was hoping to take the kids to the beach tomorrow as my grandma has covid so we're not meeting up with her now. But how I'm feeling at the moment I don't think it will happen which I'm gutted about. I just really hope I'm not having a bad flare up of what happened 2 years ago this September I ended up being signed off for 3 months. Saw a neurologist who agreed with me that it wasn't my cerebral palsy but she was quite honest and said she didn't know what it was, I've been waiting to see another neurologist ever since. And I've struggled ever since that day I first took poorly the pain is different to my cp but I often have my cp pain aswell so it's like a double whammy and the fatigue is an absolute killer. I was previouy naive in thinking fatigue was just tiredness I can tell you it definitely isn't. I literally spend the day struggling to keep my eyes open and my body just gets slower and slower. Until 2 years ago I'd never experienced pain or fatigue like it. And I get some awful pain with my cp. I can't concentrate to do my diploma work it's just awful. I think ill speak to the gp tomorrow if it's no better to put me back on my stronger pain relief and issue something for break through pain relief at night. I'll see how today Goes  sorry to moan . Prayers I can get it back under control 🙏 

Tiredbutdetermined

Afternoon and happy birthday eve

Can you get in touch with the neurologist and see where you are on the waiting list? You shouldn’t have to exist in unnecessary pain

mumof3.12kindebt

Thankyou @Tiredbutdetermined

Had a lovely day! Officially 30 now! 

We went to the beach, and as I was about to get In the car I glanced over to the view and I just cried. Cried because I realised I'm so blessed to of got the chance to walk earth's side instead of Heaven. 

This is what I put with the video I posted about my moment 

That moment... the moment you  realise you were blessed to walk on earth's side instead of Heavens side for the last 30 years. ❤️ I don't think people realise what life means, to the ones like me that live each day knowing you might not of been given the pleasure to stay ❤️ I literally owe the nurses and doctors my life. I've cried a few Times tonight feeling emotional about today. Because as I looked over to the view to get in the car. I realised I might not of experienced this. The beauty of life. The beauty of turning 30. I might have wonky legs 🦵 but the pain I've suffered in the last 30 years, I'd do it all again, if it meant having to choose life with wonky legs or death. I'd choose my wonky legs and all that comes with it every single time. ❤️ because it gave me a perception on life that cannot be explained, to those that have never experienced it. you can only live it ❤️

And how i summed up the day 

Today has been just perfect. Spent my 30th at my happy place with my feet in the sea 🌊 

Got really emotional leaving. I feel so blessed, so so blessed, to have been on earth for 30 years. 30 years my parents at my birth thought for a short time they might never see. ❤️ the trauma blessed me with my wonky legs, but I wouldn't change it ❤️ well okay maybe I'd take the pain away but in hindsight its made me Stronger than I'd be without it ❤️ because no one knows strength more than a person who is told they can't, won't or shouldnt .. and then they do it. Might take them longer, might test them to their limits but they are gonna do it .. because someone said she couldn't shouldn't or wouldn't ... so she did ❤️❤️❤️

Didn't think I'd end the day getting so emotional. But if there is a way to reflect on your life on your birthday.. then I suppose this is one of the best ways ❤️❤️

When my eldest was little he asked me why I walked different to his friends mums and I told him I had wonky legs so that's where the wonky legs term comes from ❤️ and it's how I've labled my cerebral palsy ever since 

So its been a bit of An emotional day but overall its been lovely. 

And we didn't spend any money 

savingholmes

Happy birthday. It's lovely that you count your blessings like that. I hope you manage to chase up the docs. I imagine there's an element of who shouts loudest and says they're in the most pain gets at the moment - so sadly I do think you need to chase.

Well done on clearing the loan and immediately redirecting the £. Make sure you have enough to cope with the upcoming energy price increases too.

dawnybabes

Happy birthday, we should never take days for granted, they can be taken away or snatched without notice, xx

Four_Seasons

Happy Birthday, thank you for such a lovely diary, sending you much love and lots of hugs x

mumof3.12kindebt

Good afternoon my beautiful diary friends. 

Thank you so much for the birthday wishes. 

I hope you are all having a wonderful weekend.

I went out for a meal last night with the girls. Total spent £25 
Part of my birthday celebrations not a normal or regular thing I do 

Went out for a meal with my dad on the lunchtime he paid bless him. ❤️

Got £20 of fuel. 

DD and DS2 are out today with daddy and thumbs up group they have gone to a soft play/ sensory place 

Ds1 has gone to a football match with my dad. 

I'm currently sat doing my diploma work. House needs a bit of a clean and tidy but this work is due in on Monday so I really need to crack on with it 

I'll add up our spending for July tonight or Tomorrow 

Have a super Sunday 

Love hugs positivity and prayers to you all 

Mumof3  xx