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pania

oh f**k i'm crying now and he's about to come in from having a fag.

Sea78

Oh honey - massive hugs

lunar

pania wrote: »

Thanks sweetie, If you happen to come across mr much more deserving, point him this way!!!:D

How are you? good i hope? xx

I went through my share of toads before i found my OH, and we went through hell and back to be together (we had both just finalised our divorces when we met). If i notice a nother prince ill send him your way, im not sure if im a good authority though looking at some of my x's!!!!:rotfl: :rotfl:

pania

thanks sea, I'm tougher than this I know I am. x

Sea78

You are but there is no shame in crying still.

Sea xxxx

pania

Thanks Lunar, thought I was done with toads by now, :eek: apparently not.... :eek:
At the age I am i can't afford many more toads, or in the immortal words of bridget jones "I'll end up being eaten by german shepherds alone in my flat at the age of..." ok I can't remember what she said but you get hte idea!:o :rotfl:

Snaggles

Oh no Pania (((hugs))). You really do deserve someone who treats you well, who is as open and honest with you as you are with him, and who puts your feelings first. If he could be that man, then fight for it, but if he will never be, you have to put your own happiness first and make some tough decisions.

You have had a crappy time, but will find the strength to get through this.

Hope you are okay xxx

pania

Sea78 wrote: »

You are but there is no shame in crying still.

Sea xxxx

except crying is weakness and I am a weak person and I need to grab my b!!!! and get on with life!!:eek: apparently..... which basically = OH being heartless and horrible. if this was july i'd be gone i tell you.


Thanks for your supprt sweetie, you shouldn't be up at this hour, esp with 2 children that will no doubt be up early!! are you OK? xx

lunar

im so sorry you are going through this, its amasing how much i have come to care about people on here, i wish there was something i could do to help, sending you more hugs.

ZTD

Well, I'm probably not going to be popular with this - but just remember I'm not here to either praise or bury Caesar - but to get the facts. No need to answer if you don't want.

pania wrote: »

He has stated to me that he will continue to lie to me about "small" things if he feels it's better i don't know. I can't live with someone like that.

Have you ever lied to him about small things? How do you react when you find out he's done something you consider bad?

pania wrote: »

I think I know in my heart that it is over but at such an awful time of year.

Statistically one of the most common times of year.

pania wrote: »

I asked him if it was as he was scared of my reaction, he said no it's because you can be a pis*y cow when I annoy you and I'd rather not go there!!

Is that not the definition of being scared of your reaction? Perhaps I'm old-fashioned...

pania wrote: »

I've explained why I hate lying and that no relationship should have detrimental secrets, aparently everyone in a relationship keeps things for a relationship, well if thats the case with guys then Z, i'm going to head back to the brandy spoon (see snaggles post of the other night) and see if life on the other side is any better!!! Kidding of course!!!!

Women are worse. Although that's from a bloke who can't lie, can't be diplomatic and has been described as being as subtle as a brick in the face. Just don't ask me what I think and everyone is fine...

pania wrote: »

All day he has been calling me a miserable c o w and generally going out of his way to wind me up. If there was any remorse there at all that would NOT have been going on.

He's trying to make himself feel better by provoking a reaction that he can then pass off as you being a biitch. He's dropped a bollock and he knows he has.

pania wrote: »

Leave it til the new year, don't rock the boat between now and then and make my decisions come that time. I'm really not even sure if I can say hand on heart that I love him right now, I think the problems of the last 4 months have done that in.

That's an entirely different problem and may make this one moot.

pania wrote: »

Thankls so much for all the hugs guys, and don't worry I am going to have a happy christmas with my family, come hell, high water or copious quantities of wine!!

Good. Here's another. :grouphug:

pania wrote: »

Your all stars and lovely people.
P
xxx

And so are you.