taking responsibilty to get me where I want to be

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Last nights gym session complete , boy it hurt and reminded me it must be almost 2 weeks since the last visit.
Did 3 miles on the bike and then felt my calf tweak so decided that I would stop before I did myself a mischief but managed a good hour session.
Quick pop in to Asda who share the car park to buy my eggs and other essentials , was gonna go closer to home but by popping in there I saved the 90p on the car park as you get a voucher - small wins.

Had a quick ten minute sunbed - I prob don't need that but the weather was hit and miss last week and I would like to keep my colour as long as possible.
I could feel myself dropping off to sleep on there so its just aswell the lights went out at the right moment or I could still be there now
Went home and was fast asleep at 9pm until around 12 , I had another hour or so awake and then went back to sleep until 6 so a more reasonable sleep pattern is starting to form.

£20 of diesel in to the car this morning

Whilst having breakfast this morning I saw a letter for me which must have arrived whilst away , knew it was the hospital by the hallmark
Unfortunately I am not back to 3 yearly tests and although my test was clear I am still diagnosed as high risk with HPV still present so I have to go back to the hospital for another Camera - It has to be done however unpleasant but I just wish they had done that last time round as I was expecting another and now have to get myself geared up for it again.

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Appointment re arranged

Not a great day , I feel a bit down in the dumps - Maybe I am suffering from the holiday blues.
We do this trip every year and it the dynamics look to change next year which means as I am man less I am either a hinderance to another couple or I share with someone I am not sure I will get along with - not sure whether I will go or whether I will do a destination from my bucket list. I just feel like I am missing out if they all go and I don't !!

Didn't start the day well , my mum is struggling with her depression and has had her medication changed , she is a little zoned out. I wasn't impressed when I got up this morning when the things I had put in the fridge for my breakfast had been used to for the previous nights dinner and didn't react well - it may only be menial things but its the principle. I've gone to the trouble to put them away for myself and seperate them in a bag at the bottom of the fridge and I expect them to be there when I want them
My little outburst will have little or no affect as its been said before and I've been told its been taken onboard yet it happens again and again
I don't really want to resort to a fridge in my room , I think the cheaper option is just to replace what she uses !!!

I can really feel my new diet taking affect on my body shape , giving some consideration to maybe bulk ordering from muscle food for my work lunches as salads are getting a bit repetitive
I have spent today £3.99 on a set of silicone egg boilers from ebay where you can pour the egg in to the mould and boil it that way so you dont have to shell them - this sounds like a game changer to me as I can have them later sliced in to my salad

Scott-Weiland

muscle food i tend too find expensive i would try your local butcher over them.

efes_shareholder

Hi Scott

I was looking at their pre cooked lunch bundles for ease but then I think maybe I will get quickly bored so I will see how I get along with my easy egg thing

Todays gym is hanging in the balance as I ran and errand for a friend last night and ended up tripping on a paving slap and going flying. I couldn't stop the fall and ended up slamming down on my right knee ( not my finest moment)
The good news was it was unwitnessed however I felt up feeling a bit embarrassed !! Today it really hurts and I think I should refrain from any excercise on it
I may attend and just do some upper body stuff but will see how the day goes.

Bank account is looking ok so I have moved £100 back in to my battered savings , If I keep on track then I won't need to grab it back - there is more chance of keeping it safe this way then I hope it is still there come payday.

I tend to spend the first two weeks of the month being very good and then the wheels come off
I have a evening planned with an old friend on monday which I had forgotten about but feeling very positive that the month will be quite damage limited.

Toying up my holiday plans for nxt yr , the week I spent last week is very popular and gets booked up very quickly and previous guests get first refusal - I can't decide if I want to rebook. I had a great time but it would be 3 years in a row to a country I've been too a few times. Its also prem cost due to the things laid on so I'm mindful that if I went it would mean sacraficing one of the places on my bucket list.
Having said that seeing my friends having a great time whilst I'm at "stopathome" will absolutely kill me
Got until the 20th to decide

Kitten868

Could you not suggest that next year you all go to a bucket list destination? No FOMO and getting closer to your goals.

No gym for today I think. You'll be cursing yourself if you do xxx

efes_shareholder

Good morning and welcome to a new week

My poorly knee appears to be making the whole of my leg ache , its still very tender so have been resting rather then gyming - Today it doesnt feel like its getting better so I will see how it goes. I may need it looked at.

I think I am 80% certain that I am going to do something else next year for a change , 50% of my friends are of the mindset and I think its time for a year off as alot of our favorite staff etc also won't be there next year.
I've been to this greek island four times and there are so many places I would like to go to so I am going to do that , I can get a week in the carribean for the same price as I paid and to be honest thats what I would rather do

Quite a spendy weekend , car needed washing , long overdue - the price of my local roll in roll out has gone up to £20 which really isnt cheap so I will research some if I travel in to outer london for next time.
Spent Saturday evening with daughter 2 , we ate out and then joined my friends in the pub , I bought dinner she covered the pub , another £28
Yesterday fathers day carvery £29.00
Also £30.00 in the car for diesel

I have £17.00 left a day until pay day , this should see me through however I am out of Vape fluid so I need to call in to my shop after work. I do have some cash back on this so I'll be using it to keep costs down.

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so my knee is being assisted by Ibuprofen gel and a loaned support.
Went to the gym last night and before I went I popped in to Sports direct - I hate that shop and always have. It optomises everything wrong with this country !!
I bought a knee support for £13.99 , at 5.50pm and when I got it in to the gym I wasnt able to use it as they had left the blasted security tag on it !! Typically the shop shut at 6 ! so now I have to make time to return there for the tag to be removed or for a refund , quite likely the second as by the time I get there I will hopefully no longer need it.

Also spent £4.00 on Ibuprofen gel - what a godsend.

I'm at the part of the month when I tend to lose control of my expenditure and throw caution to the wind - I'm trying desperately hard not to do that

I do have a couple of events which I had overlooked , a night at boxing on Friday ( I will need drink money , possibly food) and dinner and catch up with my friend next week which I am hoping we find somewhere on meerkat
I should make it to payday solvent by the skin of my teeth but I'll take all of the small wins

payday is next friday and I am already looking at payments and allocations , the car is booked in for its MOT on payday - I am pretty certain I am going need a tyre and perhaps some brake pads but I am hoping and praying that it will sail through

Scott-Weiland

I dont at the minute as my lower backs spannered but i normally just bulk cook my meals myself. I will do

4-5 with white fish
the same with spag bol
and the i will do 20-30 meals with chicken or mince and sweet potato/spinach and green beans.

efes_shareholder

Hi Scott
I'd love to get myself to a point where I can do that but my spare time appears to be becoming less and less however it is something to aspire too in the future.

I'm gonna refrain from the gym until Sunday as I think I am hindering my heeling , Its had such a positive impact on my mindset however that I am sure I will miss going until then, Although the scales are not showing me any great difference my work mates are commenting on my "weight loss" so I will take that that I must be looking lean.

Car will need petrol today , Hopefully that will be it until payday which I am tentatively taking baby steps towards. Small spend this morning on energy drinks and raspberries as I was a dirty stop out last night on a school night as I saw a friend for drinks at their house and ended up stopping over

Today I am knackered - I got a bit tetchy earlier as my phone wasn't getting any coverage and I took it in to the store , they were going to send it away ( after trying a few fault fixers) but didn't have a loan phone for me which irritates me immensely. Thankfully a new sim card seems to have solved the problem

Its definately one of those weeks with the small niggley problems , hopefully no big ones though

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Well MSE family , its finally the weekend

The baby cub has had the news that he has the right grade to be accepted on to his masters degree next month , thats about all to update but feeling very very proud