Fall too Pieces

Seasidegal58

Scott I’m so sorry to hear about what you’ve been through but you sound so much better now.

As the others have said - keep training and taking your meds - although from your last post I gather that you didn’t take on board camz and Cumbria’s rather good advice of laying off the women for now..........:)

Have a great weekend.
SSGx

louby40

Scott, another online friend hoping you are feeling better.

I've had my share of heartache regarding relationships. Keep strong

Louby

System

Keep away from those ladies for the moment .

I am 42 points of dropping £50 on you gov , hope it happens soon.
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P A has fell out with me again.

Take care.

Scott_Weiland_2

Not really i am a mess, but day at a time.

JoJoC

Keep your chin up and try to do things that are good for you - fresh air, working out, talking to friends.

Did you get anywhere eventually with the GP?

Thinking of you and wishing you a speedy return to where you want to be.

UncannyScot

Keep on keeping on mate

Scott_Weiland_2

Haha re gp no it was just a prescription for meds and bog off and get on with it. I am back on meds but its really slow.

I havent trained since last week but i am going after work ie 8am today. I am trying to get myself sorted but at the minute its not easy.I am smoking again like a chimney.

Please please dont think my mood issues was purely down to lasses etc it was a factor but not everything. See next paragraph.

I was out with my best mate on monday afternoon for a walk and spilled my guts to her, a few things have happened lately that have dropped me to my knees. An old friend got in touch who i fell out with well before my son was born about 18 years ago. We had fallen out basically because i am sorry to admit this but i kicked the sxxt outta him when i found out he was cheating with my ex partner behind my back.

We met for a coffee on friday in the afternoon and sunday afternoon but after this i made the decision he was well not someone who had changed.

He was quite a big factor in lots of other thing going to the dogs, ie a relationship breakdown, a breakdown of relations with my parents, falling out with mutual friends, and alot of stress that came as a result of this. People who know me from my huskyrunner user name will know i have nothing to do with my parents. I wont go into the full specifics but in short when i split with my sons mam they kicked me out, took my ex's side and made my life hell for about 4-5 years on and off. They supported her and were of the opinion you stay with your partner come hell or high water if a kids involved. I am extremely stubborn my mam is a major league control freak, when i said basically stuff you and left they were not bothered but a year or two later my ex told my parents where to go. As a result i was expected to let them see my son through me i said no so basically they caused me so so much hassle. You dont kick someone out then expect in the next breath for them to forgive. They caused me so many problems from here going forward as i wanted nothing to do with either. ie arsey voicemails, texts, emails, try to cause me issues at work, giving new partners grief, randomly turning up at my work etc etc etc

I dont know if people will understand this but a lot stuff came to the surface that i had locked away and not dealt with. Net result on monday gone it happening nearly again, i called my best mate and talked everything though we spent 5 hours talking and i am nearly okay again. I just need to pack a few things in, ciggys and women lol.

System

You are having a rough time at the moment. Sometimes though no matter how hard it is , you have to leave the past behind and move forward. You seemed to be doing really well after you went back to work last year. Your son is still in your life which is brilliant, family can be a nightmare sometimes.

It's difficult to comment sometimes on your situation as I have never been in it , but hope when you read mine and other peoples we help somewhat.

We are cyber friends , but we are always here .

Enjoy the gym, are you getting the bike out soon ?

JoJoC

Gosh Scott, it really sounds like a tough time all round, but in a way it might be good that you met that ex-friend and a lot of the repressed stuff was brought up. It was likely to boil up at some point, so may as well be now?

RE: the GP, I'm glad you got a script, but i wonder if you should go back and try to see another GP to talk through how best to deal with your feelings? My mum has had mental health issues over the last 20 years and the only reason that she got through it was through finding a supportive GP in her practice who really listened and did his best to help. She saw a counsellor who helped with some of her childhood issues and she went for CBT for anxiety, as well as medication and family support. I suppose what I'm getting at is that a GP isn't just there for meds so if you're able to identify a really good GP in your practice, it might make all the difference to the support you receive.

Hope you're being kind to yourself.

jvr

Hey


Makes total sense that when so many issues are brought up at once it can come crashing down on your head, and it wasn't long ago you lost a friend. It is so much for one person to deal with. I echo what other people have said that trying to find some other support through a GP or other services is a good idea, it sounds like you have some things to work through that have been buried for a long time.