Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

calleyw

Morning my lovelies,

Hugs and handshakes and squishes all round.

MU I hope you get to see a dr today.

I am in one of my meh moods. I am just so lazy, can't be arsed to do anything. I can't even keep on top of 3 bed roomed house with 2 adults and one dog in it. I have no excuse. I am at home all day.

I have not touched my cross stitch in nearly a year, I am just a big fat lazy heifer. Not sure how to break out of it. Not even dressed yet.

I really don't want to go back to work. But will have to as not fair on AM to pay for everything. I kinda dampen down the guilt of that. Because there is no rent or mortgage to be paid. (yes I know I still owe my husband £35K) So I am saving AM a min of £500 a month his rent from his old place. And on fuel as he only has a 7 mile one way trip to work rather than 25 mile one way down the motorway trip to work.

How did I manage to do it all when working full time and keeping a house and having hobbies.

Need to snap out of it. But not sure how at the moment.

Everyone take care.

Yours

Calley X

Izadora

WW - it's totally understandable to be upset, both about her leaving and feeling like you're being abandoned, and well done for recognising what you're feeling and not being overwhelmed by it.

Calley - please try to be kind to yourself. You're not lazy/a heifer/any of the other negative things you're telling yourself.
Also don't feel like you should go back to work, I know what I'm like and trying to avoid something I feel like I 'should' be doing is likely to make me bury my head in the sand and avoid absolutely everything.
Rent is by far our biggest expense each month so keep trying to focus on just how much you're saving AM - it will be a lot more than he's paying out for any other shared expenses!

dandy-candy

MU - I hope you managed to get an appointment today x

WW - Well done for staying in control, and ofc we are all here for you

Calleyw - I don't work, haven't since DS1 was born. My youngest is 18 now and it was never the plan to stay at home forever, but things turned out this way. Don't run yourself down or feel guilty x my DH always says he prefers me to be on an even keel than the times I've tried to stretch myself and ended up taking a nosedive!

Tummy was playing merry hell with me yesterday so eating little and cautiously today I'm getting through the washing but the hoovering needs desperately doing - there's dust ball tumbleweed in the bathroom :eek:

I hope everyone has a good day, hugs to those who need them

whitewing

calley,

I seem to spend my life thinking it will be easier when it's the school holidays, and then thinking it'll be easier when littlewing is back to school.

Keeping on top of everything is such a nightmare. We seem to have a note home from school every other day about something else to remember.

Need to not be so hard on ourselves. I have 2 major things this week that I haven't prepared properly for because if I do one, I stress about the other.

Artytarty

Hi all, I always read but don't post.
You seem a lovely supportive group of people.
I have anxiety and hypochondria ndria - for others as well as myself but struggle on mostly as I've got fairly good at hiding it.

I do hope melly is ok? I haven't seen her post for ages, she has been having such a tough time.

Pyxis

whitewing wrote: »

My friend of many, many, many years has come in to see me unexpectedly today. She is moving four hours drive away. Not quite moving yet but she has had an operation recently that she only said about today (mind you, the generation that hardly even told themselves about medical issues, let alone their close friends). I am shedding a few tears. Thought I'd come to terms with it but I am struggling with normal sadness but also borderline pd 'spite' at her leaving me and wanting to reject her. (I don't feel spiteful but if I had been younger and didn't understand my mh then I would have been overwhelmed).

Got too much to do this week, but next week will be a breeze in comparison.

ETA: WaS, I miss you too (but I am fine about you not posting if you don't feel able) I assume you are reading anyway. I am still reading when I don't post, and am mostly content aside from some money stupidity.

I think the officer must have been very, very good at reading the signs and body language. Maybe he has had experience of mental illness, enough for his instinct to tell him the guy wasn't a real threat.

Also, we didn't see what had happened immediately before, nor did we hear the conversation, and those things might also have indicated to an experienced person that this guy need help, not shooting!

jobbingmusician

Hello Artytarty! :hello: - very good to 'meet' you. Do feel free to make use of our virtual fort - the place we all retreat to when life gets a bit much. There is plenty of support here - we all try to look after each other. But yes, you're right - we haven't heard from melly for ages! *waves to melly* - do let us know how you are, hun!

(And special hugs to WaS, who I am really really missing)

calleyw

I am in regular contact with Melly.

She is doing her best at the moment. But she is in a very difficult situation.

Not going to say any more as not my place too. I know she will be touched that people are thinking of her and will let her know that you are.

Yours

Calley X

Artytarty

Thank you Calley, I hope she knows how much she is thought o f and missed.

mellymoo74

Thank you all
Cal let me.know I need to check in.

OH was discharged a couple of weeks ago without a care plan and with some open wounds so my time is spent taking care of him.

Love and miss you all though xx