Alway's believe that something wonderful is about to happen!

pennywisepoundstupid

Evening.

Easy tea of scrambled eggs on toast tonight. Dentist went well, none of us needed anything doing so just cost £20.60 for me.
Bought tickets for the zoo online tonight £79 for the 4 of us but 10% cheaper than at the gate, have everything for picnic tomorrow and I have wrapped DD presents, just hope she likes them all.

xx

chanie

That;s a relief about the dentist, isnt it.

I hope DD enjoyed her birthday and you all had a nice time at the Zoo. What presents did you get DD?

please-let-me-be-lucky

Hope you’ve had a wonderful day Xx

WannabeFree

Hope you all had a brilliant day yesterday

x

pennywisepoundstupid

So sorry for not updating, work, illnesses and life seem to have taken there toll and I have just been exhausted and in bed by 9pm most nights.

Everything is plodding along ok, not done much regarding making money as I've been so tired and have had a throat infection, so have just been doing enough to get through the day.
Today is my normal day off work so I have mainly done washing as the bright orange thing is in the sky and it is a sweltering 10 degree's here, maybe spring has finally sprung.
Had planned on going grocery shopping and was going to Mr S as he had sent me some £9 off £60 spend vouchers, good job I checked the date as they don't start until Sunday so we can make do until then. Toast for brekkie and used some left over mash to make cheese and potato pasties for lunch for myself and DH, very nice they were to. Made some chocolate crispie cakes and stuck some jelly beans on top that I found lurking in the back of the cupboard. Found sausages in the freezer, so have taken those out for tea to have with hash browns and grilled tomatoes and mushrooms, also found English muffins and crumpets in the freezer so there out for snacking on. Need to dig something out for tomorrow nights tea and lunch.

Managed to list some items on ebay last night and this morning, a mixture of auctions and BINs, so hopefully some pennies will stat trickling in, plan to get some more on this weekend.

This month should hopefully be a lowish spend month as we havn't any birthdays or major events planned, DH and DD are both working mother's day so instead of going out for tea I have requested a Chinese takeaway which will workout much cheaper.

Apologies for my absence and for not posting on diaries. xx

redofromstart

Good to see you posting :hello:

mummytogirls

Sorry to hear youve been unwell Pennywise, glad youve back on it now though xx

Sun_Addict

Sorry to hear you've been unwell but good you're posting again and back in the game

amber03

RL does get in the way at times. I occasionally "go missing" from here, then get annoyed with all the money I have wasted when I take my eye off the ball.x

pennywisepoundstupid

Morning.

Another bout of illness in the PWPS household, which has hit both myself and DD, we are both full of cold, sore throats and totally exhausted, I ended up off work for 2 days and literally just slept. I know I need to be kind to myself and give myself time to get better, but it feels as though everything is running away with itself and getting out of control.
Things are not good with DH and I feel as though we are wanting different things out of life and going in different directions, I think having cancer has made me reassess things and I have realised I have spent 20yrs putting other people first, I have followed DH around the country because of his job, giving up jobs I loved to support him, I almost raised the children single handed for the first 5yrs as Dh work hours were crazy leaving the house at 5am and some nights not returning home until 8-9pm, I worked part time during this time and also did 1 day at college, I had to juggle childcare and no family to help. I actually don't know how I did it to be honest and to the outside I probably looked like wonderwoman running around keeping it all together, yet inside behind that closed door I was a broken,crying wreck that suffered with anxiety attacks. So now I see light in the distance and my wonderful amazing children are growing up, talking of their lives, exams and the future and I know they are so close to becoming adults and leaving to make their way in the world. So I think about what I want and what I need and my life, I want to feel the sun on my face everyday and potter in a garden with my dogs running around madly, I want to sit on a verandah with a glass of wine watching the sun set over the sea, I want to sit and read a book and not need to worry about whether someone else's sports kit has been washed or if tea has to be ready for a certain time. I want to be selfish and I want to think of me. Yet Dh has decided he doesn't want to buy somewhere abroad and his parents will need looking after when we get to retirement age, I feel angry about this as when I fell pregnant with DD his mum told me that she would look after her now and then but it wasn't to interfere with hers and fIL life. Yet i'm to give up my life to take care of them in the future, I know that I sound horrible and selfish but how is that fair.

I'm sorry for the ramble i'm in a low place and need to get it out there.