Mooloo's little tapestry of life, 2016

Savvy_sewing

pollyanna_26 wrote: »

Mooloo Glad dgd has recovered . I think you're doing really well to keep battling on against the challenges . Maybe now the weather is cooling down the demand for repairs to coats etc will increase . Not what you want I know but hopefully will help keep the wolf from the door . I spent time yesterday trawling through Elaine's recipes on the old blog and noting the cheap , warming and filling ones . I aim to try and get back to much more batch cooking for both financial and time management reasons . I always feel more in control when I do so .
I took the virtual trip around the shop last week and enjoyed it very much . I loved all the threads - a girl can never have too many of those ! Looking back to when you first took on the shop the changes are amazing , it doesn't look like the same place . Give yourself a pat on the back , if hard graft and determination will lead to fulfilling your dreams , you will get there .
polly x

Thankyou for your kind words, and for taking the time to look at my little shop. DGD went to school ok, on her bike, so I got my exercise walking at pace behind her.
I got hold of the Highways Agency, and they have said the road markings will be sorted in the next two to three weeks. Hopefully that will allow us to get in and out of our drives more easily.
The neighbour's were playing car shuffle when I got home, and told me someone was over my drive so they used my bin, and his van to block them in! Hence when I got home I had to get out and move the bin before I could park up.
Slightly overspent today, with DS's shopping and mine totalling £117.70 eek. Although Mum has been giving me £15 a week so £60 of it was for DS's shopping, and his came to £80. However he has now got a box of 12 packets of baby wipes at £5.99 which will probably last until Christmas! And a £4.99 box of Halloween sweets in preparation for trick or treating.
Mum and I went to the garden centre, up the A5, for lunch. Mum paid.
We also started buying some things for Christmas, calanders, organisers, and toy box, hamster food, washing powder and mums favourite paper plates. She has them for her lunch, and some other meals, as she says she can't be bothered to wash plates!!!
My meat delivery has arrived, so I have to divide up the chicken pieces before freezing.
I'm thinking that I am now well stocked for the winter food now!
I'm a bit tired now, so feet up and a cup of tea. When I get my second wind I will see about the chicken, and maybe make an extra meal when I do our dinner.

Savvy_sewing

Already as the sun goes down I hit the can't be bothered wall. I had my cuppa, started to write my diary while drinking it, but found that as the sun went down my black feelings had come out and my mind is in a negative state. I couldn't even pull my self up successfully.
I didn't fancy the pizza I did for DGD, and I'm in that mix of restlessness and lethargy, not knowing what to do, eat, or even think properly.
So I have come for a bath, with bubbles, scented candles, the heating on, and another cup of tea, and my iPhone!
I'm hoping to find a little spark of joy again from somewhere, something to latch on too, to lift my mood and regain my momentum! It's not easy though. Positive affirmations are fighting the negative ones in my head.
Every time I have a bad one, I'm trying to wrap it around with love and send it on its way.

mellymoo74

Mooloo

Delurking to ask if you have ever tried a sad lamp?

I get awful once the clocks go back and it really does help.

X

Savvy_sewing

mellymoo74 wrote: »

Mooloo

Delurking to ask if you have ever tried a sad lamp?

I get awful once the clocks go back and it really does help.

X

I have one somewhere, but can't find its lead!
You have reminded me that I must search for it. (Both).

Savvy_sewing

Oops! Forgot to set my alarms and woke suddenly at 7.03!
I was surprised it was morning already as it was still dark I was expecting it to be around 6 which is when I normally wake. So I've made my cup of tea but have come downstairs to drink it, as I needed to put the heating on, and get DGD up. She too said "What? I thought it was still night time!).
At least we still have an hour before school and then work etc so we can still make it. I just won't have my usual leisurely start to the day.
There wasn't a massive amount of work when I left on Tuesday, so I don't expect to have to rush anything today. I can take my time, and hopefully do some work taking photos etc of the various things that I want to be able to put on line to sell.
Time will tell as they say.

Savvy_sewing

I finished all the jobs that were already in, plus I did several small jobs that came in today.
I am left with a dress to take in on the back seam by relocating the zip. A blouse needing the shoulders lifted and darts in the bodice, a skirt to make out of another one, a darning job and a zip to replace in a pair of jeans. As they all came in today, st 3.45 I decided to come home and do some tidying up, freeze the chicken portions I had, and cooking a meal ready for tonight. At 5.15 I collected DGD and went to parents evening. Met the headmistress as her teacher is off. He is also leaving at Christmas with no permanant teacher yet to replace him.!
DGD is still behind where she should be, but at least this term she is liking school better.
Tonight I'm going out again in 25 minutes to do lesson 5 out of 6.
I hope a few of them get a move on or they won't finish their items.
The people are finally coming to measure up for the replacement windows on Monday. So I will require a little time off.
Tomorrow biggest of Mooloo's is going to bring my Mum over to the shop, she can see how it is and make small talk with customers, we will take a pub lunch too! As I might as well enjoy our time while it's quiet and I have to pay staff anyway.

Savvy_sewing

One of my ladies didn't turn up last night. Hopefully she is ok and can catch up at home. We only have one more week and they definitely are not going to be finished!
I am having some weird dreams at the moment and am not really waking very refreshed. I will have to try to change some habits etc and see if that will help.
Looking forward to a change in the routine at work today. I will get some of the jobs out of the way this morning.
Dinner last night was a meal Rustled up with the help of the Supercook pots. a sort of chicken Piri Piri which made a change having the time to do it. However I am trying not to worry about the slower work load and enjoy my time better while I can. Which is actually easier thought then achieved.
Perhaps the Universe is forcing me to rethink and prioritise at the moment.
I certainly feel I need to brainstorm, as I feel quite stuck just now.
I'm having a rethink about DGD going to her Mums at Christmas, guiltily I think it's more about me letting go and not having such a song and dance and being able to possibly take Mum away for a few days. Neith of us really want the rounds of family visiting, standing on ceremony and doing what's expected of us!
DGD will be fine with her Mum as long as there are things to do etc and that his family don't try to derail things anymore.
I haven't totally made up my mind yet.
My friend and I were thinking of having a long weekend away, at some stage, if my offspring can be supportive and help with DGD.
We will see which option comes the most viable I suppose.
A lot needs to be sorted out to achieve it. I have already had three breaks this year so it does seem greedy. But I do feel that some winter sun would do me the power of good, and it would still be possible to take DGD if family can't help. It would just be dependent on school.
She will be in childcare over half term as I will be in the shop, with my Saturday girl, staff is going to Liverpool for a few days. Twin1 cancelled having DGD due to transport issues she said.
Right I'm not going to be ready for work unless I get a move on! I still need my shower!

Savvy_sewing

Biggest brought Mum and Baby over quite early, so that was the end of any work! I tried but gave up. So only a half day at work then we had lunch out.
This afternoon I had a nap! Before getting DGD. Since 5.30 I've had 3 little girls running around. We're having a sleepover.
Ds messaged asking for a lift at 7am but I can't help as I can't drag 3 kids out, and no space in the car.

Savvy_sewing

Morning. All change as no sooner had I finished my post last night then one little girl wanted to go home, so the other one also went home! My DGD was quite upset. I thought about being able to take DS after all, and then remembered that I still couldn't as I'd left the car in town yesterday lunchtime, so I could have a drink. I am also low on petrol so need to get fuel after work today. So I still couldn't help DS. But I will be doing the drive on Sunday and Wednesday instead.
I am having my usual cuppa in bed. Still have the urge to bury myself back under the covers, but obviously I have work to do, so I can't.
I have a new private lesson today as well. It's staffs last day for a week as she goes off to Liverpool on Monday. With it being half term my Saturdsy girl ( who can't do today), will be doing a few hours a day for me from Monday.
I am trying to remain positive and make the best of my time, but do find this time of year quite difficult. I think I've succumbed to the black dog more quickly and deeply then I did last year because work has dropped off so dramatically and I've had too much time to think.
My mind plays games with me. My moods swing erratically and trying to turn things back to gratitude, positivity, hope etc is a struggle.
I've written such a lot in my diary trying to get my head straight. I've gone from slight fear of lack to a huge fear of continuing, and worrying about the future if it doesn't pick up. Then trying to reason with myself that it will improve soon, and that logically I'm being illogical etc etc.
I wish my mind would shut up!
I have 45 minutes now to get moving and out to work. Yet the urge to stay in my bed is overwhelmingly strong!
Arh...I hate this feeling of utter uselessness and dire dole drums!

Brighton_belle

Mooloo: prioritse finding yr SAD lamp.