Can I Fix This?

ciarasdreams

I am starting to get a bit worried because everything at my new job seems to be going just a little bit too well and I am just waiting for something to go drastically wrong. I now am also seen for the very first time in my life ever as being cool and stylish and in the know which could not possibly be any further from the truth. :rotfl: This has all happened because of the lunch that I took one of my friends who is also a work colleague for yesterday. I still do not really know my way about very well and am still getting to know where is decent to eat and drink so I asked my sister for a some suggestions and I decided to go to the one that she said would probably be the best. I should have known but really did not have any idea that it was going to be a brand new place that is just frighteningly way too cool for school and bursting at the seams with loads of painfully hip trendsetters which actually scared me quite a bit because that is just not me at all and I felt like a complete imposter. Anyway what has really done my street cred the world of good is that unknown to me the owner/manager person is a friend of my sister and even although I do not recognise him at all he remembered me from her birthday party that I went to last year where I got really drunk and horrible and he kept coming over to our table and talking to us and even personally took the food order and told the staff that we had to have whatever we wanted and the bill had to be given to him personally and not us. The girl that I was with has told I think just about everybody that she has ever known including everybody that we work with and I get to pretend that I am cool and stylish for a little while which will probably be a very little while before they all realise that I am a fake. :rotfl:

Ellidee

Aww hun I have always thought of you as 'cool' and stylish. Why do you always have to see yourself in a 'lesser' way ? I am wondering if it's to do with your upbringing after what you said about your parents the other day ? You deserve for things to go well and to enjoy life so PLEASE stop waiting for the other shoe to fall or whatever the saying is !

ciarasdreams

Ellidee wrote: »

Aww hun I have always thought of you as 'cool' and stylish. Why do you always have to see yourself in a 'lesser' way ? I am wondering if it's to do with your upbringing after what you said about your parents the other day ? You deserve for things to go well and to enjoy life so PLEASE stop waiting for the other shoe to fall or whatever the saying is !

I do not really know the reason for it but I do not think that it has anything to do with my upbringing because although they paid the bills that was mostly the full extent of my parents involvement in it apart from hiring one horrendous au pair after another and I was mostly brought up by my sister who did all the family kind of things with me and she has always told me ever from I have been a very small child that I am wonderful and special and beautiful and that the world is lucky to have me in it and all sorts of other nonsense like that. :rotfl: I think that I really probably learned all of the self doubt from her because although she always puts on a convincing front for everybody but underneath it she is really one of the biggest self doubters ever with the least reasons ever for it.

lucielle

Wow what a rollercoaster of a ride. My bottom has been glued to the seat since I started reading your thread. I have managed to consume 1/2 bottle of wine but I think you are doing so well, no in fact bloody marvelously! Please keep posting and I hope you and your sister are both well.

ciarasdreams

lucielle wrote: »

Wow what a rollercoaster of a ride. My bottom has been glued to the seat since I started reading your thread. I have managed to consume 1/2 bottle of wine but I think you are doing so well, no in fact bloody marvelously! Please keep posting and I hope you and your sister are both well.

Thank you very much I am always very worried that my ramblings will bore people to tears and I am always a bit hesitant about posting anything because of this. I am doing well and my sister is doing very well as well but I am a bit worried about her because just after a week after getting out of hospital after everything that she has been through she seems to think that it will be fine for her to start to go running again and both her husband and myself are failing miserably right now at trying to talk her out of this and I am beginning to panic.

lucielle

Can you get a medic/physio to talk to her about it and see if they think it is a good idea?

ciarasdreams

lucielle wrote: »

Can you get a medic/physio to talk to her about it and see if they think it is a good idea?

That should not be a problem because she works with lots of them because she is actually a nurse and a very senior one at that as well and she really should know an awful lot better herself but she is a very very bad patient and very stubborn and will probably not listen to anybody because she always seems to forget that she is actually human just like the rest of us.

ciarasdreams

I have just finished working for the night in my second job which I have to say I absolutely love as well because even although I did enjoy working in the pub it was very hard work and an awful lot of hours for very little money and this job is just so much better. I was really good tonight and said no to going to the pub for drinks afterwards because it is a school night and I cannot justify spending the money anyway.

Ellidee

Hiya hun what is your second job now ?

ciarasdreams

Ellidee wrote: »

Hiya hun what is your second job now ?

I work in a private gallery now which is run by a friend of my sister. I do not do anything clever ortechnical though I just do administrative stuff and general dogsbody type things that need to be done but I really love it.