Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

mellymoo74

Right.
Have showered and have forced myself to properly look it's not pretty so have eaten a fig admittedly chocolate would be better but it was a whole fig

jobbingmusician

Quick pop in to say

- I am home
- I am knackered
- It's good to have the internet again, though!!
- Concert went well but there was one major disaster, which I will tell you all about tomorrow.

Night all, I can hardly keep eyes open. Oooo and Habby Pirthday MU! And lots of hugs to katywelly and BW for escapee!

(Sorry, I'm so tired and rubbish I can't even remember names! Hope katywelly will do!)

faerielight

Hi guys, I managed to sleep and eat and I feel a tiny bit better, but I'm still struggling to come to terms with my mum and I'm struggling to find hope. My best friend has been back in touch and she is going to go mental at the mental health team tomorrow, and if they still won't help me, she is going to give me the £15 a week to get a low cost private therapist, which is unbelievably kind. She asked me to keep going for her, if not for me and I really will try. I just feel so scared about everything and the emotional pain of my mum has engulfed me, and I don't know how I will ever get over what she has done . Maybe one day, I will learn to love with it.

calleyw

faerielight wrote: »

Hi guys, I managed to sleep and eat and I feel a tiny bit better, but I'm still struggling to come to terms with my mum and I'm struggling to find hope. My best friend has been back in touch and she is going to go mental at the mental health team tomorrow, and if they still won't help me, she is going to give me the £15 a week to get a low cost private therapist, which is unbelievably kind. She asked me to keep going for her, if not for me and I really will try. I just feel so scared about everything and the emotional pain of my mum has engulfed me, and I don't know how I will ever get over what she has done . Maybe one day, I will learn to love with it.

You have a fab friend there. She really must care and think you are worth while person. never forget that no matter how low you get.

One day and it will take time. As long as it takes. where you will get to position. where you wont think about it all the time. The pain may never go away but will be livable with.

Glad you got some rest and managed to eat. Hope you get some rest tonight.

Take care

Yours

Calley

Waves_and_Smiles

I am still up 3.45am and I am listening to music! See? This is what happens when I come off medication, I take more risks. There was a song that I listened to constantly when my mother was very ill when I was 18. I was also realising how disturbed I was thanks to therapy and also realising how my life wasn't like everyone else's. So I would play this song on repeat on headphones turned up full and sing the lyrics to myself to blank my mind. I can still listen to it and it still gives me hope, it's one of the few songs I can still listen to and one I clung to, it was my song.

So on that note I placed part of the lyrics in my signature, the bit that meant the most and the thinking that got me through. It still is very much my personal belief. It may not stay there because it reminds me of desperate times but there is lots of optimism for the future too. So perhaps it might.

mellymoo74

Morning all.

Tired, spotty and having a 5 min sit down prior to the mad work thing

Pyxis

elsien wrote: »

Report has been sent.
Chocolate has been dived into.
Just had an email from my dog trainer to say they're starting a dancing with dogs class.
What do we think folks?:eek::D

codemonkey wrote: »

Dancing gitdog. What could possibly go wrong? :rotfl:

Dancing, you said? Why, he'll be in his element! English bull terriers are renowned for doing a mean waltz...................





Or.... Boogie nights!........





...and the Charleston!



I rest my case!

codemonkey

Ah Pyxis. There I was feeling all grumpy and fed up that it's Monday and I have to go to work, and you post photos of dancing EBTs and cheer me up. :T

Welcome back JM. Hope you're suitably rested.

faerielight

thanks guys.. I do have a really good friend, she had cut contact with me for the last 2 months so I really thought that she would never get back in touch, but she was down as my next of kin, and when she found out I had tried to kill myself, she got back in touch.. I hope you all have a good day

whitewing

Talking of memory, maybe this could be researched/adapted for mh too:

http://www.express.co.uk/news/uk/609875/new-implant-reverse-Alzheimers-memory-loss-high-tech-device-treatment

faerie, that was very kind of your friend. Do you know where you will be able to get therapy from?